Clarissa, Volume 6 - The History Of A Young Lady

Clarissa, Volume 6 − The History Of A Young Lady 86
The man says, that his Lordship was so bad when he came away, that the family began to talk of sending for
me in post haste. As I know the old peer has a good deal of cash by him, of which he seldom keeps account, it
behoves me to go down as soon as I can. But what shall I do with this dear creature the while?−−To−morrow
over, I shall, perhaps, be able to answer my own question. I am afraid she will make me desperate.
For here have I sent to implore her company, and am denied with scorn.
***
I have been so happy as to receive, this moment, a third letter from the dear correspondent Miss Howe. A little
severe devil!−−It would have broken the heart of my beloved, had it fallen into her hands. I will enclose a
copy of it. Read it here.
TUESDAY, JUNE 20.
MY DEAREST MISS HARLOWE,
Again I venture to you, (almost against inclination;) and that by your former conveyance, little as I like it.
I know not how it is with you. It may be bad; and then it would be hard to upbraid you, for a silence you may
not be able to help. But if not, what shall I say severe enough, that you have not answered either of my last
letters? the first* of which [and I think it imported you too much to be silent upon it] you owned the receipt
of. The other which was delivered into your own hands,** was so pressing for the favour of a line from you,
that I am amazed I could not be obliged; and still more, that I have not heard from you since.
* See Vol. V. Letter XX. ** See Vol. VI. Letter VII.
The fellow made so strange a story of the condition he saw you in, and of your speech to him, that I know not
what to conclude from it: only, that he is a simple, blundering, and yet conceited fellow, who, aiming at
description, and the rustic wonderful, gives an air of bumkinly romance to all he tells. That this is his
character, you will believe, when you are informed that he described you in grief excessive,* yet so improved
in your person and features, and so rosy, that was his word, in your face, and so flush−coloured, and so plump
in your arms, that one would conclude you were labouring under the operation of some malignant poison; and
so much the rather, as he was introduced to you, when you were upon a couch, from which you offered not to
rise, or sit up.
* See Vol. VI. Letter VI.
Upon my word, Miss Harlowe, I am greatly distressed upon your account; for I must be so free as to say, that
in your ready return with your deceiver, you have not at all answered my expectations, nor acted up to your
own character; for Mrs. Townsend tells me, from the women at Hampstead, how cheerfully you put yourself
into his hands again: yet, at the time, it was impossible you should be married!−−
Lord, my dear, what pity it is, that you took much pains to get from the man!−−But you know
best!−−Sometimes I think it could not be you to whom the rustic delivered my letter. But it must too: yet, it is
strange I could not have one line by him:−−not one:−−and you so soon well enough to go with the wretch
back again!
I am not sure that the letter I am now writing will come to your hands: so shall not say half that I have upon
my mind to say. But, if you think it worth your while to write to me, pray let me know what fine ladies his
relations those were who visited you at Hampstead, and carried you back again so joyfully to a place that I
had so fully warned you.−− But I will say no more: at least till I know more: for I can do nothing but wonder