Clarissa, Volume 6 - The History Of A Young Lady
Clarissa, Volume 6 - The History Of A Young Lady
Clarissa, Volume 6 - The History Of A Young Lady
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<strong>Clarissa</strong>, <strong>Volume</strong> 6 − <strong>The</strong> <strong>History</strong> <strong>Of</strong> A <strong>Young</strong> <strong>Lady</strong> 60<br />
to Hampstead, sufficiently convinced me that she was entirely under Miss Howe's influence, and waited but<br />
the return of a letter from her to enter upon measures that would deprive me of her for ever: Miss Howe had<br />
ever been my enemy: more so then, no doubt, from the contents of the letter she had written to her on her first<br />
coming to Hampstead; that I dared not to stand the event of such a letter; and was glad of an opportunity, by<br />
<strong>Lady</strong> Betty's and my cousin's means (though they knew not my motive) to get her back to town; far, at the<br />
time, from intending the outrage which my despair, and her want of confidence in me, put me so vilely<br />
upon'−−<br />
I would have proceeded; and particularly would have said something of Captain Tomlinson and her uncle; but<br />
she would not hear me further. And indeed it was with visible indignation, and not without several angry<br />
interruptions, that she heard me say so much.<br />
Would I dare, she asked me, to offer at a palliation of my baseness? <strong>The</strong> two women, she was convinced, were<br />
impostors. She knew not but Captain Tomlinson and Mr. Mennell were so too. But whether they were so or<br />
not, I was. And she insisted upon being at her own disposal for the remainder of her short life−−for indeed she<br />
abhorred me in every light; and more particularly in that in which I offered myself to her acceptance.<br />
And, saying this, she flung from me; leaving me absolutely shocked and confounded at her part of a<br />
conversation which she began with such uncommon, however severe, composure, and concluded with so<br />
much sincere and unaffected indignation.<br />
And now, Jack, I must address one serious paragraph particularly to thee.<br />
I have not yet touched upon cohabitation−−her uncle's mediation she does not absolutely discredit, as I had<br />
the pleasure to find by one hint in this conversation−−yet she suspects my future views, and has doubt about<br />
Mennell and Tomlinson.<br />
I do say, if she come fairly at her lights, at her clues, or what shall I call them? her penetration is wonderful.<br />
But if she do not come at them fairly, then is her incredulity, then is her antipathy to me evidently accounted<br />
for.<br />
I will speak out−−thou couldst not, surely, play me booty, Jack?−−Surely thou couldst not let thy weak pity<br />
for her lead thee to an unpardonable breach of trust to thy friend, who has been so unreserved in his<br />
communications to thee?<br />
I cannot believe thee capable of such a baseness. Satisfy me, however, upon this head. I must make a cursed<br />
figure in her eye, vowing and protesting, as I shall not scruple occasionally to vow and protest, if all the time<br />
she has had unquestionable informations of my perfidy. I know thou as little fearest me, as I do thee, if any<br />
point of manhood; and wilt scorn to deny it, if thou hast done it, when thus home−pressed.<br />
And here I have a good mind to stop, and write no farther, till I have thy answer.<br />
And so I will.<br />
MONDAY MORN. PAST THREE.<br />
LETTER XIX<br />
MR. LOVELACE, TO JOHN BELFORD, ESQ. MONDAY MORN. FIVE O'CLOCK (JUNE 19.)<br />
I must write on. Nothing else can divert me: and I think thou canst not have been a dog to me.