Clarissa, Volume 6 - The History Of A Young Lady
Clarissa, Volume 6 - The History Of A Young Lady
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<strong>Clarissa</strong>, <strong>Volume</strong> 6 − <strong>The</strong> <strong>History</strong> <strong>Of</strong> A <strong>Young</strong> <strong>Lady</strong> 148<br />
to me. But not one word of either, whatever was your intention, did you mention to me, in that first of the<br />
three letters you so warmly TELL me you did send me. I will enclose it to convince you.*<br />
* <strong>The</strong> letter she encloses was Mr. Lovelace's forged one. See Vol. V. Letter XXX.<br />
But your account of your messenger's delivering to me your second letter, and the description he gives of me,<br />
as lying upon a couch, in a strange way, bloated, and flush−coloured; you don't know how, absolutely puzzles<br />
and confounds me.<br />
Lord have mercy upon the poor <strong>Clarissa</strong> Harlowe! What can this mean!−−Who was the messenger you sent?<br />
Was he one of Lovelace's creatures too!−− Could nobody come near me but that man's confederates, either<br />
setting out so, or made so? I know not what to make of any one syllable of this! Indeed I don't.<br />
Let me see. You say, this was before I went from Hampstead! My intellects had not then been touched!−−nor<br />
had I ever been surprised by wine, [strange if I had!]: How then could I be found in such a strange way,<br />
bloated and flush−coloured; you don't know how!−−Yet what a vile, what a hateful figure has your messenger<br />
represented me to have made!<br />
But indeed I know nothing of any messenger from you.<br />
Believing myself secure at Hampstead, I staid longer there than I would have done, in hopes of the letter<br />
promised me in your short one of the 9th, brought me by my own messenger, in which you undertake to send<br />
for and engage Mrs. Townsend in my favour.*<br />
* See Vol. V. Letter XXIX.<br />
I wondered I had not heard from you: and was told you were sick; and, at another time, that your mother and<br />
you had had words on my account, and that you had refused to admit Mr. Hickman's visits upon it: so that I<br />
supposed, at one time, that you were not able to write; at another, that your mother's prohibition had its due<br />
force with you. But now I have no doubt that the wicked man must have intercepted your letter; and I wish he<br />
found not means to corrupt your messenger to tell you so strange a story.<br />
It was on Sunday, June 11, you say, that the man gave it me. I was at church twice that day with Mrs. Moore.<br />
Mr. Lovelace was at her house the while, where he boarded, and wanted to have lodged; but I would not<br />
permit that, though I could not help the other. In one of these spaces it must be that he had time to work upon<br />
the man. You'll easily, my dear, find that out, by inquiring the time of his arrival at Mrs. Moore's and other<br />
circumstances of the strange way he pretended to see me in, on a couch, and the rest.<br />
Had any body seen me afterwards, when I was betrayed back to the vile house, struggling under the operation<br />
of wicked potions, and robbed indeed of my intellects (for this, as you shall hear, was my dreadful case,) I<br />
might then, perhaps, have appeared bloated and flush−coloured, and I know not how myself. But were you to<br />
see your poor <strong>Clarissa</strong>, now (or even to have seen her at Hampstead before she suffered the vilest of all<br />
outrages,) you would not think her bloated or flush−coloured: indeed you would not.<br />
In a word, it could not be me your messenger saw; nor (if any body) who it was can I divine.<br />
I will now, as briefly as the subject will permit, enter into the darker part of my sad story: and yet I must be<br />
somewhat circumstantial, that you may not think me capable of reserve or palliation. <strong>The</strong> latter I am not<br />
conscious that I need. I should be utterly inexcusable were I guilty of the former to you. And yet, if you know<br />
how my heart sinks under the thoughts of a recollection so painful, you would pity me.<br />
As I shall not be able, perhaps, to conclude what I have to write in even two or three letters, I will begin a new