Clarissa, Volume 6 - The History Of A Young Lady

Clarissa, Volume 6 - The History Of A Young Lady Clarissa, Volume 6 - The History Of A Young Lady

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Clarissa, Volume 6 − The History Of A Young Lady 142 Howe. She expressed herself with a good deal of bitterness against that young lady: who, it seems, every where, and to every body, (for you must think that your story is the subject of all conversations,) rails against your family; treating them, as your sister says, with contempt, and even with ridicule. I am sorry such angry freedoms are taken, for two reasons; first, because such liberties never do any good. I have heard you own, that Miss Howe has a satirical vein; but I should hope that a young lady of her sense, and right cast of mind, must know that the end of satire is not to exasperate, but amend; and should never be personal. If it be, as my good father used to say, it may make an impartial person suspect that the satirist has a natural spleen to gratify; which may be as great a fault in him, as any of those which he pretends to censure and expose in others. Perhaps a hint of this from you will not be thrown away. My second reason is, That these freedoms, from so warm a friend to you as Miss Howe is known to be, are most likely to be charged to your account. My resentments are so strong against this vilest of men, that I dare not touch upon the shocking particulars which you mention of his baseness. What defence, indeed, could there be against so determined a wretch, after you was in his power? I will only repeat my earnest supplication to you, that, black as appearances are, you will not despair. Your calamities are exceeding great; but then you have talents proportioned to your trials. This every body allows. Suppose the worst, and that your family will not be moved in your favour, your cousin Morden will soon arrive, as Miss Harlowe told me. If he should even be got over to their side, he will however see justice done you; and then may you live an exemplary life, making hundreds happy, and teaching young ladies to shun the snares in which you have been so dreadfully entangled. As to the man you have lost, is an union with such a perjured heart as his, with such an admirable one as your's, to be wished for? A base, low−hearted wretch, as you justly call him, with all his pride of ancestry; and more an enemy to himself with regard to his present and future happiness than to you, in the barbarous and ungrateful wrongs he has done you: I need not, I am sure, exhort you to despise such a man as this, since not to be able to do so, would be a reflection upon a sex to which you have always been an honour. Your moral character is untainted: the very nature of your sufferings, as you will observe, demonstrates that. Cheer up, therefore, your dear heart, and do not despair; for is it not GOD who governs the world, and permits some things, and directs others, as He pleases? and will He not reward temporary sufferings, innocently incurred, and piously supported, with eternal felicity?−−And what, my dear, is this poor needle's point of NOW to a boundless eternity? My heart, however, labours under a double affliction: For my poor boy is very, very bad−−a violent fever−−nor can it be brought to intermit.−−Pray for him, my dearest Miss−−for his recovery, if God see fit.−−I hope God will see fit−−if not (how can I bear to suppose that!) Pray for me, that he will give me that patience and resignation which I have been wishing to you. I am, my dearest young lady, Your ever affectionate JUDITH NORTON. LETTER LXIV MISS CLARISSA HARLOWE, TO MRS. JUDITH NORTON THURSDAY, JULY 6.

Clarissa, Volume 6 − The History Of A Young Lady 143 I ought not, especially at this time, to add to your afflictions−−but yet I cannot help communicating to you (who now are my only soothing friend) a new trouble that has befallen me. I had but one friend in the world, beside you; and she is utterly displeased with me.* It is grievous, but for one moment, to lie under a beloved person's censure; and this through imputations that affect one's honour and prudence. There are points so delicate, you know, my dear Mrs. Norton, that it is a degree of dishonour to have a vindication of one's self from them appear to be necessary. In the present case, my misfortune is, that I know not how to account, but by guess (so subtle have been the workings of the dark spirit I have been unhappily entangled by) for some of the facts that I am called upon to explain. Miss Howe, in short, supposes she has found a flaw in my character. I have just now received her severe letter−−but I shall answer it, perhaps, in better temper, if I first consider your's: for indeed my patience is almost at an end. And yet I ought to consider, that faithful are the wounds of a friend. But so many things at once! O my dear Mrs. Norton, how shall so young a scholar in the school of affliction be able to bear such heavy and such various evils! But to leave this subject for a while, and turn to your letter. I am very sorry Miss Howe is so lively in her resentments on my account. I have always blamed her very freely for her liberties of this sort with my friends. I once had a good deal of influence over her kind heart, and she made all I said a law to her. But people in calamity have little weight in any thing, or with any body. Prosperity and independence are charming things on this account, that they give force to the counsels of a friendly heart; while it is thought insolence in the miserable to advise, or so much as to remonstrate. Yet is Miss Howe an invaluable person: And is it to be expected that she should preserve the same regard for my judgment that she had before I forfeited all title to discretion? With what face can I take upon me to reproach a want of prudence in her? But if I can be so happy as to re−establish myself in her ever−valued opinion, I shall endeavour to enforce upon her your just observation on this head. You need not, you say, exhort me to despise such a man as him, by whom I have suffered−−indeed you need not: for I would choose the cruellest death rather than to be his. And yet, my dear Mrs. Norton, I will own to you, that once I could have loved him.−−Ungrateful man!−−had he permitted me to love him, I once could have loved him. Yet he never deserved love. And was not this a fault?−−But now, if I can but keep out of his hands, and obtain a last forgiveness, and that as well for the sake of my dear friends' future reflections, as for my own present comfort, it is all I wish for. Reconciliation with my friends I do not expect; nor pardon from them; at least, till in extremity, and as a viaticum. O my beloved Mrs. Norton, you cannot imagine what I have suffered!−−But indeed my heart is broken!−−I am sure I shall not live to take possession of that independence, which you think would enable me to atone, in some measure, for my past conduct. While this is my opinion, you may believe I shall not be easy till I can obtain a last forgiveness. I wish to be left to take my own course in endeavouring to procure this grace. Yet know I not, at present, what that course shall be. I will write. But to whom is my doubt. Calamity has not yet given me the assurance to address myself to my FATHER. My UNCLES (well as they once loved me) are hard hearted. They never had their masculine passions humanized by the tender name of FATHER. Of my BROTHER I have no hope. I have then but my MOTHER, and my SISTER, to whom I can apply.−−'And may I not, my dearest Mamma, be permitted to lift

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Howe.<br />

She expressed herself with a good deal of bitterness against that young lady: who, it seems, every where, and<br />

to every body, (for you must think that your story is the subject of all conversations,) rails against your family;<br />

treating them, as your sister says, with contempt, and even with ridicule.<br />

I am sorry such angry freedoms are taken, for two reasons; first, because such liberties never do any good. I<br />

have heard you own, that Miss Howe has a satirical vein; but I should hope that a young lady of her sense, and<br />

right cast of mind, must know that the end of satire is not to exasperate, but amend; and should never be<br />

personal. If it be, as my good father used to say, it may make an impartial person suspect that the satirist has a<br />

natural spleen to gratify; which may be as great a fault in him, as any of those which he pretends to censure<br />

and expose in others.<br />

Perhaps a hint of this from you will not be thrown away.<br />

My second reason is, That these freedoms, from so warm a friend to you as Miss Howe is known to be, are<br />

most likely to be charged to your account.<br />

My resentments are so strong against this vilest of men, that I dare not touch upon the shocking particulars<br />

which you mention of his baseness. What defence, indeed, could there be against so determined a wretch,<br />

after you was in his power? I will only repeat my earnest supplication to you, that, black as appearances are,<br />

you will not despair. Your calamities are exceeding great; but then you have talents proportioned to your<br />

trials. This every body allows.<br />

Suppose the worst, and that your family will not be moved in your favour, your cousin Morden will soon<br />

arrive, as Miss Harlowe told me. If he should even be got over to their side, he will however see justice done<br />

you; and then may you live an exemplary life, making hundreds happy, and teaching young ladies to shun the<br />

snares in which you have been so dreadfully entangled.<br />

As to the man you have lost, is an union with such a perjured heart as his, with such an admirable one as<br />

your's, to be wished for? A base, low−hearted wretch, as you justly call him, with all his pride of ancestry; and<br />

more an enemy to himself with regard to his present and future happiness than to you, in the barbarous and<br />

ungrateful wrongs he has done you: I need not, I am sure, exhort you to despise such a man as this, since not<br />

to be able to do so, would be a reflection upon a sex to which you have always been an honour.<br />

Your moral character is untainted: the very nature of your sufferings, as you will observe, demonstrates that.<br />

Cheer up, therefore, your dear heart, and do not despair; for is it not GOD who governs the world, and permits<br />

some things, and directs others, as He pleases? and will He not reward temporary sufferings, innocently<br />

incurred, and piously supported, with eternal felicity?−−And what, my dear, is this poor needle's point of<br />

NOW to a boundless eternity?<br />

My heart, however, labours under a double affliction: For my poor boy is very, very bad−−a violent<br />

fever−−nor can it be brought to intermit.−−Pray for him, my dearest Miss−−for his recovery, if God see<br />

fit.−−I hope God will see fit−−if not (how can I bear to suppose that!) Pray for me, that he will give me that<br />

patience and resignation which I have been wishing to you. I am, my dearest young lady,<br />

Your ever affectionate JUDITH NORTON.<br />

LETTER LXIV<br />

MISS CLARISSA HARLOWE, TO MRS. JUDITH NORTON THURSDAY, JULY 6.

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