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<strong>Catherine</strong> <strong>Maffioletti</strong><br />
Chelsea College of Art and Design, University of Arts London<br />
katz_kitty@hotmail.com<br />
Extended Abstract<br />
Reflecting Her: Other Bodies<br />
~ Towards an Embodied Practice ~<br />
Prelude<br />
Seeking to speak the appearance of the feminine through the apparatus, the<br />
paper analyses the notion of the feminine through an interactive video art<br />
installation, (f)low visibility 1 , and the audio accompanied narrative form of the<br />
paper. Postured through my conception of Luce Irigaray’s theory of intersubject<br />
reflection and feminine intuition, the feminine appearance is<br />
considered through seeing and hearing, (and other senses), through video<br />
and audio. Situating the sensory and technological relationship between<br />
subject and object in a processual exchange as reflecting bodies, as an<br />
intuited feminine moment. Written with the Feminist Research Methods<br />
conference in view, the paper intimates the moment of encounter at the<br />
intimacy in the encounter panel. A narration composed between three voices,<br />
the voice of (f)low visibility, the voice of the feminine, and the voice of a<br />
feminist researcher. Meddling representations between language and the<br />
body, these voices seek to establish the themes of the feminine appearance<br />
laterally, coaxing the feminine in order to perform and query this modusoperandi<br />
of a feminine arts practice and writing. The feminine, as envisioned,<br />
as the echo, as the sub-scribe, is accented through themes of absence and<br />
mysticism.<br />
Be-speak: Authenticating voices<br />
That I would gather these bodies to harness…as a stipend to-carnage: a crack-bloom<br />
corsage in a lit-match mirage.<br />
If I were to say that the body of the encounter resides between bodies, over-arching<br />
bodies, across a score of bodies, a body of under-belly body couplets? So to speak:<br />
Image me here: Cut-throat croaking, roll-on body swell, blood-lulling – press fast,<br />
lack-lustre lip crust, scissor down – too the quick, cut speech.<br />
A side note, switching tack - which is to say: I have been actively imag(in)ing<br />
speaking to you. But my actual tangent is that: I am concerned specifically with the<br />
feminine speaking, or, is it to say the appearance of the feminine?<br />
1 (f)low visibility, ran for one night, in a London fetish nightclub called Torture Garden, seOne<br />
nightclub, on the 1 st of May 2008.<br />
1
Interrupting with ‘suddenly squirrel’ 2 as a machinic 3 intervention crossbreeding –<br />
bleeding Cixous with Deleuze and the proximity of the encounter that we are having<br />
today.<br />
A body of bodies entreated to each other in between, rubbing together in the pages of<br />
conference proceedings. And as I write to you foreseeing this encounter,<br />
predetermining what I might say – I say it with a principal of foresight, leaning on<br />
4<br />
Irigaray , who defines the premonition as coming from her body – as a clairvoyant<br />
body which anticipates what will be seen, this remains to be over-seen .<br />
Irigaray describes the feminine as incorporating an embodied form of foreseeing,<br />
from the womb, anticipating another body, knowing that body before seeing it, but<br />
encountering it all the same – and so, intuiting a body as a form of envisioning, of<br />
seeing. George Bataille’s conception of a flattened hierarchy of knowledge, posits<br />
knowledge<br />
5 as being constructed from the unknown. That knowing can only<br />
necessarily occur together with not knowing, and so privileging both knowing and not<br />
knowing as implicit in each others construction. However, this relies on the sovereign<br />
operation of thought which gives credence to knowing. Even though Bataille and<br />
Irigaray are concerned with different instances in the process knowledge, i.e. Bataille<br />
is concerned with the sovereign moment - the epiphany, the moment of realisation of<br />
knowing, and Irigaray is concerned with the moment before knowing in an absolutist<br />
sense. I will cut Irigaray’s notion of intuition coarsely with the Bataille’s notion of the<br />
unknown to reach their common denominator: coming to knowing. Leading to the<br />
known through the unknown and intuition, hybridising this softly flattened structure<br />
of intuition/unknowing leading into the intuiting body. A guessing game that as a<br />
prerequisite must require a sense of belief, (considering Jacques Derrida’s notion of<br />
belief 6 as either coming from the self or from the other) the not knowing seeking the<br />
known meddles with the feminine body – has to follow the gut, the inkling and the<br />
lead. From this principal both the form and content of this paper will perform a<br />
feminine intuitive form of coming to know, of feeling-out the appearance of the<br />
feminine through a tacit teasing out of moments in writing an arts practice and the<br />
practice of art writing.<br />
2 ‘I gain the highest one, and, passing behind the leaves, I open my wings and take flight. Presence and<br />
absence are my wings. Impossible to separate myself from them. To transcribe my life, with one leap,<br />
invisible to myself: to be not altogether what I think I am, to escape way up there, to the last leaf, at the<br />
limit of the species.’ Cixous H, First Days of the Year, University of Minnesota Press, Minneapolis -<br />
London, (1998), p. 79<br />
3 Walsh M, Machinic Alliances, Subjectivity and Feminisms Research Group at Chelsea College of Art<br />
and Design, London, 4 th of July – 10 th of August 2008.<br />
4 Irigaray L, An Ethics of Sexual Difference, The Invisible of the Flesh: A Reading of Merleau-Ponty,<br />
The Visible and the Invisible, “The Intertwining—Chasm”, Continuum, London - New York, (2004),<br />
p. 130<br />
5 Bataille G, The Unfinished System of Knowledge, Method of Meditation, University of Minnesota,<br />
Minneapolis – London, (2001), pp. 77 - 99<br />
6 ‘…I may ‘believe something’: I may believe that the weather will be fine in a moment, whether I<br />
hope so or not, and then what I believe may well then be possible, but without believing something, I<br />
may also believe what someone tells me—for instance that the weather will be fine in a moment,<br />
whether I hope so or not, and what I believe then may well be possible. These first two beliefs … are<br />
certainly radically different: one works through the other’s speech and the other does not.’ Derrida J,<br />
H.C. for Life, That Is to Say…, Stanford University Press, Stanford, California, (2006) p. 3<br />
2
(f)low visibility<br />
In looking for the appearance of the feminine I, (f)low visibility, was<br />
constructed, as an interactive video artwork, in order to look at the relationship<br />
between, the subject and object, the participant and the apparatus, to<br />
question this binary opposition. To experience the ways in which a participant<br />
in an interactive video artwork, such as I, reacts with the live footage which is<br />
produced by them. When the participant entered me, they entered wearing a<br />
little camera on their hand – a little camera which was part of my construction;<br />
the footage from their camera was shown live on a screen which was visible<br />
to them. Two participants were inside me at any given time. There were also<br />
two objects which had a miniature camera affixed to each of them. I<br />
generated four live camera feeds which were projected onto a screen.<br />
Exploring the viewing moment between the apparatus and the participant, in which<br />
the apparatus and the participant are reactively operating. Analysing this instance of<br />
exchange, the between is crucial, what this exchange consists of in terms of a feminist<br />
approach to this instance of feminine appearance. By the between I point towards the<br />
instance which links the encounter of one and the other, namely between two 7 – I<br />
would say this if I were to think of Irigaray in one guise. So to use Irigaray’s analogy<br />
of the metaphor with the mirror, an encounter between reflecting subjects 8 ,<br />
(resituating Irigaray’s notion of reflection here), I might limit the encounter, the<br />
exchange between bodies as a collision of fragmented reflections.<br />
Typically the participant entered me and looked to the screen, which was<br />
divided into four overlapping projections. Some of the projections were<br />
distorted because of the way the projectors had been positioned at an angle<br />
in relation to the screen. I got tired. The picture quality of some projections<br />
degraded, the images became more pixelated as the batteries powering the<br />
little cameras began to run low. Consequently the batteries had to be changed<br />
in the little cameras several times throughout the evening. In these moments<br />
the projector projected the stand-by mode, which consists of a blue screen – I<br />
7 ‘The other then represents an alteration of ourselves, for better or for worse, someone who is valued<br />
according to the same criteria as our own identity, a same assigned to an index more or less. Together<br />
we are not two; at best we sometimes enter into the composition of a great unity: humanity, people,<br />
family … As long as we are not able to emerge from such totalities, we are never in front of one<br />
another, beside one another, with one another.’ Irigaray L, Sharing the World, Continuum, London -<br />
New York, (2008) pp. 36 – 37<br />
8 ‘Metaphorizing has to reckon with this quasi-morphology, these quasi-morphemes (not necessarily<br />
linguistic), has to compromise with them, even as it contravenes them. Its operation is not so simple. It<br />
transgresses, an in transfixing the form, or rather its formations, while it presents another form as<br />
present. It simulates the crossing through mirrors…’ Irigaray L, To Speak is Never Neutral,<br />
Continuum, London – New York, (2002), p. 148<br />
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felt incomplete. Needles to say the projections were not perfectly rendered<br />
images. I could tell that these moments disorientated, ruptured and<br />
fragmented the participants’ relationship with the screen. However, this did<br />
not deter them from looking to the screen to see. They stayed looking,<br />
waiting.<br />
Or, I could align the between with hear-say – and here I have to rely on conjecture –<br />
the between means a moment which separates, and to paraphrase Helene Cixous, this<br />
separation, happens across thousands of years and oceans which stop/prevent a<br />
phone call – that prevent us from picking up the receiver 9 , prevent us from speaking.<br />
This is really what I am getting at:<br />
In the words of Clarice Lispector in Agua Viva, ‘I looked at the chair and this time it<br />
was as if it had looked and seen.’<br />
10 – and it is with this confrontation in view that I<br />
address the disjuncture between the subject and the object – of repetition and mimesis<br />
to bridge the feminine uttered in praxis – speaking an absence 11 , the feminine<br />
speaking practice.<br />
The participants decidedly fumbled around inside me, choosing to look to the<br />
screen to navigate through me, tripping up over the wires, stumbling<br />
backwards and knocking into various props that I was made up of. They were<br />
lead by their hand, well, the little camera on their hand. Pointing it about inside<br />
me, but as they pointed it they didn’t look at where they were pointing it. They<br />
pointed it and looked at the screen. That’s why there was a lot of bumping into<br />
my spare parts. The slowness was like they were not present inside the bit of<br />
me with all the props, but like they were present with the screen.<br />
I have to conjure another semblance of Bataille, and this time with Irigaray, to call on<br />
the feminine’s perpetual absenting, in both their names…her ephemeral accents that<br />
fragment in voice, the eternal feminine that cannot be pinned down in an appearance.<br />
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By all accounts the feminine remains ‘fixed in oblivion … waiting to come to life’ ,<br />
suspended waiting to be, intuiting, whilst he is one, the feminine works from his<br />
narcissistic point of return…<br />
‘When Edward fell back dead, a void opened in her, a long<br />
shudder ran down her, which lifted her up like an angel. Her<br />
naked breasts stood up in an imaginary church where the<br />
feeling of the irretrievable emptied her. Standing, near to the<br />
dead man, absent, outside herself, in a slow ecstasy,<br />
overwhelmed. Edward, as he died, had begged her to strip<br />
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herself naked.’<br />
9 Cixous H, Let her Letter Go, Lecture given at Queen Mary University of London, 8 th of February<br />
2008<br />
10 Cixous H, Reading with Clarice Lispector, Harvester Wheatsheaf, London - Sydney, (1990), p. 23<br />
11 ‘Historically, the discourse of absence is carried on by the woman […] It is woman who gives shape<br />
to absence, elaborates its fiction, for she has time to do so; she weaves and she sings; the Spinning<br />
Songs express both immobility (by the hum of the Wheel) and absence (far away, rhythms of travel,<br />
sea surges, cavalcades).’ Barthes R, A Lover’s Discourse, Penguin Books, London, (1990), p. 14<br />
12 Irigaray L, Speculum of the other woman, Cornell University Press, New York, (1985), p. 138<br />
13 Bataille G, The Dead Man, Marion Boyars Publishers, New York – London, (1989), p. 1<br />
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(f)low visibility<br />
I enter this dialogue with you, which is also with myself, already knowing that this is<br />
impossible in itself, and the impossibility of the topic of which I speak – is already<br />
enunciated as follows, one which ‘my experience as a woman 14 ’ should enable me to<br />
validate a claim – yet this is so difficult to holdfast to, considering the feminines’<br />
slippery (dis)appearances .<br />
Stammering spells – spell binding, spelling out this script envisioned as a feminine<br />
rhetorical summoning. Staggering across a mystic babbling at the brook of De<br />
Beauvoir, yes - I am calling on the mystic<br />
15 of The Second Sex; as an allusion to a<br />
metaphor which is already redundant, casting a mantra spool of Judeo-Christian<br />
European values across a well tooled lectern. And here at the bank of bluffing words,<br />
buffering meanings and riddling citations this narration attempts to do – to enact what<br />
I am about to say. To frame, which already means to limit 16 , a contingency plan (this<br />
monologue, if all else fails I managed to fix this speech somewhere) that already fails<br />
again at the gate of Cixous’ oh so prescriptive ecriture feminine which I, now,<br />
derisively, can still only under-mime… all the while falling short of authenticity.<br />
And, yes, yes, for the feminine to know the feminine has to appear to see – through the<br />
body, through touch….more gentle still - more aptly, seeing through a caress. I mean<br />
the body as a subject or object, with premonition coming from the body as a medium,<br />
a clairvoyant, foreseeing through caressing bodies that not only seek the mirror in the<br />
Other. Positing the meeting between bodies as a moment of exchange, a reflection -<br />
one that fraternises with seduction, opulence and the unreliability of the mirror<br />
between bodies that speak, and when I say speaking I also mean reflecting -<br />
appearing.<br />
14 Irigaray L, Conversations and Teaching book launch, ICA, 9 th of September 2008.<br />
15 De Beauvoir S, The Second Sex, Vintage, London, (1997), pp. 679 - 687<br />
16 ‘All the future is concentrated in that sheet of light, a universe within the mirror’s frame; outside<br />
these narrow limits, things are disordered chaos.’ De Beauvoir S, The Second Sex, Vintage, London,<br />
(1997), p. 643<br />
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<strong>Catherine</strong> <strong>Maffioletti</strong><br />
katz_kitty@hotmail.com<br />
Chelsea College of Art and Design, University of Arts London<br />
Workshop: Feminist Research Methods: ‘intimacy in the encounter’<br />
Reflecting Her: Other Bodies. Towards an Embodied Practice ~<br />
Programme 2<br />
Prelude 3<br />
Be-Speak: Authenticating Voices (Audio Transcript) 4 - 8<br />
Appearance and Apparatus 9 - 11<br />
Bibliography 12<br />
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<strong>Catherine</strong> <strong>Maffioletti</strong><br />
katz_kitty@hotmail.com<br />
Chelsea College of Art and Design, University of Arts London<br />
Reflecting Her: Other BodiesTowards an Embodied Practice ~<br />
Friday 6 th February ’09 (09:30 – 09:50am)<br />
Programme:<br />
09:30 – 09:40 Be-Speak: Authenticating Voices (Audio narration)<br />
09:40 – 09:45 (f)low visibility (Video screening)<br />
09:45 – 09:50 Appearance and Apparatus (Spoken analysis)<br />
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<strong>Catherine</strong> <strong>Maffioletti</strong><br />
Chelsea College of Art and Design, University of Arts London<br />
katz_kitty@hotmail.com<br />
Reflecting Her: Other Bodies.Towards an Embodied Practice ~<br />
Prelude<br />
(f)low visibility<br />
Seeking to speak the appearance of the feminine through the apparatus, the paper<br />
analyses the notion of the feminine through an audio piece and an interactive video<br />
art installation, (f)low visibility 1 . Postured through my conception of Luce Irigaray’s<br />
theory of inter-subject reflection and feminine intuition, the feminine appearance is<br />
considered through seeing, hearing, and other senses, through audio and video.<br />
Situating the sensory and technological relationship between subject and object as<br />
reflecting bodies in a processual exchange, as an intuited feminine moment. Written<br />
with the Feminist Research Methods conference in view, the presentation will intimate<br />
the moment of encounter at the ‘intimacy in the encounter’ panel. My presentation<br />
will comprise of three parts, an audio narration composed between three voices, the<br />
voice of (f)low visibility, the voice of the feminine, and the voice of a feminist<br />
researcher. Followed by a screening of the (f)low visibility video and finally<br />
concluding with a spoken analysis. Meddling with representations between language<br />
and the body, the presentation seeks to establish the themes of the feminine<br />
appearance laterally, coaxing the feminine in order to perform and query this modusoperandi<br />
of a feminine arts practice and writing. The feminine, as envisioned, as the<br />
echo, as the sub-scribe, is accented through themes of absence to call on her<br />
appearance.<br />
Be-speak: Authenticating voices<br />
Transcript for audio narration at:<br />
(f)low visibility<br />
1 (f)low visibility, ran for one night, in a London fetish nightclub called Torture Garden, seOne<br />
nightclub, on the 1 st of May 2008.<br />
3
Feminist Research Methods: ‘intimacy in the encounter’<br />
ENTER RAIN, WIND AND THUNDER.<br />
That I would gather these bodies to harness…as a stipend to-carnage: a crack-bloom<br />
corsage in a lit-match mirage.<br />
If I were to say that the body of the encounter resides between bodies, over-arching<br />
bodies, across a score of bodies, a body of under-belly body couplets? So to speak:<br />
Image me here: Cut-throat croaking, roll-on body swell, blood-lulling – press fast,<br />
lack-lustre lip, scissor down, cut speech.<br />
A side note, switching tack - which is to say: I have been actively imag(in)ing<br />
speaking to you. But my actual tangent is that: I am concerned specifically with<br />
speaking the feminine, or, is it to say the appearance of the feminine?<br />
WIND, RAIN AND THUNDER FADE.<br />
(Interrupts previous voice). Interrupting with ‘suddenly squirrel’ 2 as a machinic 3<br />
intervention crossbreeding – bleeding Cixous with Deleuze and the proximity of the<br />
encounter that we are having today.<br />
ENTER WIND AND WATER TRICKLING.<br />
A body of bodies entreated to each other in between, rubbing together in the pages of<br />
conference proceedings. And as I write to you foreseeing this encounter,<br />
predetermining what I might say – I say it with a principal of foresight, leaning on<br />
4<br />
Irigaray , who defines the premonition as coming from her body – as a clairvoyant<br />
body which anticipates what will be seen, this remains to be over-seen .<br />
WIND AND WATER TRICKLING FADE.<br />
Irigaray describes the feminine as incorporating an embodied form of foreseeing,<br />
from the womb, anticipating another body, knowing that body before seeing it, but<br />
encountering it all the same – and so, intuiting a body as a form of envisioning, of<br />
seeing. George Bataille’s conception of a flattened hierarchy of knowledge, posits<br />
5<br />
knowledge as being constructed from the unknown. That knowing can only<br />
necessarily occur together with not knowing, and so privileging both knowing and not<br />
2 ‘I gain the highest one, and, passing behind the leaves, I open my wings and take flight. Presence and<br />
absence are my wings. Impossible to separate myself from them. To transcribe my life, with one leap,<br />
invisible to myself: to be not altogether what I think I am, to escape way up there, to the last leaf, at the<br />
limit of the species.’ Cixous H, First Days of the Year, University of Minnesota Press, Minneapolis -<br />
London, (1998), p. 79<br />
3 Walsh M, Machinic Alliances, Subjectivity and Feminisms Research Group at Chelsea College of Art<br />
and Design, London, 4 th of July – 10 th of August 2008.<br />
4 Irigaray L, An Ethics of Sexual Difference, The Invisible of the Flesh: A Reading of Merleau-Ponty,<br />
The Visible and the Invisible, “The Intertwining—Chasm”, Continuum, London - New York, (2004),<br />
p. 130<br />
5 Bataille G, The Unfinished System of Knowledge, Method of Meditation, University of Minnesota,<br />
Minneapolis – London, (2001), pp. 77 - 99<br />
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knowing as implicit in each others construction. However, this relies on the sovereign<br />
operation of thought which gives credence to knowing. Even though Bataille and<br />
Irigaray are concerned with different instances in the process knowledge, i.e. Bataille<br />
is concerned with the sovereign moment - the epiphany, the moment of realisation of<br />
knowing, and Irigaray is concerned with the moment before knowing in an absolutist<br />
sense. I will cut Irigaray’s notion of intuition coarsely with the Bataille’s notion of the<br />
unknown to reach their common denominator: coming to knowing. Leading to the<br />
known through the unknown and intuition, hybridising this softly flattened structure<br />
of intuition/unknowing leading into the intuiting body. A guessing game that as a<br />
prerequisite must require a sense of belief, (considering Jacques Derrida’s notion of<br />
belief 6 as either coming from the self or from the other) the not knowing seeking the<br />
known meddles with the feminine body – has to follow the gut, the inkling and the<br />
lead. From this principal both the form and content of this paper will perform a<br />
feminine intuitive form of coming to know, of feeling-out the appearance of the<br />
feminine through a tacit teasing out of moments in writing an arts practice and the<br />
practice of art writing.<br />
ENTER CROWD AND BEAT.<br />
In looking for the appearance of the feminine I, (f)low visibility, was constructed, as<br />
an interactive video artwork, in order to look at the relationship between, the subject<br />
and object, the participant and the apparatus, to question this binary opposition. To<br />
experience the ways in which a participant in an interactive video artwork, such as I,<br />
reacts with the live footage which is produced by them. When the participant entered<br />
me, they entered wearing a little camera on their hand – a little camera which was part<br />
of my construction; the footage from their camera was shown live on a screen which<br />
was visible to them. Two participants were inside me at any given time. There were<br />
also two objects which had a miniature camera affixed to each of them. I generated<br />
four live camera feeds which were projected onto a screen.<br />
CROWD AND BEAT FADE.<br />
Exploring the viewing moment between the apparatus and the participant, in which<br />
the apparatus and the participant are reactively operating. Analysing this instance of<br />
exchange, the between is crucial, what this exchange consists of in terms of a feminist<br />
approach to this instance of feminine appearance. By the between I point towards the<br />
7<br />
instance which links the encounter of one and the other, namely between two – I<br />
would say this if I were to think of Irigaray in one guise. So to use Irigaray’s analogy<br />
6 ‘…I may ‘believe something’: I may believe that the weather will be fine in a moment, whether I<br />
hope so or not, and then what I believe may well then be possible, but without believing something, I<br />
may also believe what someone tells me—for instance that the weather will be fine in a moment,<br />
whether I hope so or not, and what I believe then may well be possible. These first two beliefs … are<br />
certainly radically different: one works through the other’s speech and the other does not.’ Derrida J,<br />
H.C. for Life, That Is to Say…, Stanford University Press, Stanford, California, (2006) p. 3<br />
7 ‘The other then represents an alteration of ourselves, for better or for worse, someone who is valued<br />
according to the same criteria as our own identity, a same assigned to an index more or less. Together<br />
we are not two; at best we sometimes enter into the composition of a great unity: humanity, people,<br />
family … As long as we are not able to emerge from such totalities, we are never in front of one<br />
another, beside one another, with one another.’ Irigaray L, Sharing the World, Continuum, London -<br />
New York, (2008) pp. 36 – 37<br />
5
of the metaphor with the mirror, an encounter between reflecting subjects 8 ,<br />
(resituating Irigaray’s notion of reflection here), I might limit the encounter, the<br />
exchange between bodies as a collision of fragmented reflections.<br />
ENTER CROWD AND BEAT.<br />
Typically the participant entered me and looked to the screen, which was divided into<br />
four overlapping projections. Some of the projections were distorted because of the<br />
way the projectors had been positioned at an angle in relation to the screen. I got tired.<br />
The picture quality of some projections degraded, the images became more pixelated<br />
as the batteries powering the little cameras began to run low. Consequently the<br />
batteries had to be changed in the little cameras several times throughout the evening.<br />
In these moments the projector projected the stand-by mode, which consists of a blue<br />
screen – I felt incomplete. Needles to say the projections were not perfectly rendered<br />
images. I could tell that these moments disorientated, ruptured and fragmented the<br />
participants’ relationship with the screen. However, this did not deter them from<br />
looking to the screen to see. They stayed looking, waiting.<br />
CROWD AND BEAT FADE. ENTER WIND AND RAIN.<br />
Or, I could align the between with hear-say – and here I have to rely on conjecture –<br />
the between means a moment which separates, and to paraphrase Helene Cixous, this<br />
separation, happens across thousands of years and oceans which stop/prevent a<br />
9<br />
phone call – that prevent us from picking up the receiver , prevent us from speaking.<br />
This is really what I am getting at:<br />
WIND AND RAIN FADE.<br />
In the words of Clarice Lispector in Agua Viva, ‘I looked at the chair and this time it<br />
was as if it had looked and seen.’<br />
10 – and it is with this confrontation in view that I<br />
address the disjuncture between the subject and the object – of repetition and mimesis<br />
to bridge the feminine uttered in praxis – speaking an absence 11 , the feminine<br />
speaking practice.<br />
ENTER CROWD AND BEAT.<br />
The participants decidedly fumbled around inside me, choosing to look to the screen<br />
to navigate through me, tripping up over the wires, stumbling backwards and<br />
knocking into various props that I was made up of. They were lead by their hand,<br />
8 ‘Metaphorizing has to reckon with this quasi-morphology, these quasi-morphemes (not necessarily<br />
linguistic), has to compromise with them, even as it contravenes them. Its operation is not so simple. It<br />
transgresses, an in transfixing the form, or rather its formations, while it presents another form as<br />
present. It simulates the crossing through mirrors…’ Irigaray L, To Speak is Never Neutral,<br />
Continuum, London – New York, (2002), p. 148<br />
9 Cixous H, Let her Letter Go, Lecture given at Queen Mary University of London, 8 th of February<br />
2008<br />
10 Cixous H, Reading with Clarice Lispector, Harvester Wheatsheaf, London - Sydney, (1990), p. 23<br />
11 ‘Historically, the discourse of absence is carried on by the woman […] It is woman who gives shape<br />
to absence, elaborates its fiction, for she has time to do so; she weaves and she sings; the Spinning<br />
Songs express both immobility (by the hum of the Wheel) and absence (far away, rhythms of travel,<br />
sea surges, cavalcades).’ Barthes R, A Lover’s Discourse, Penguin Books, London, (1990), p. 14<br />
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well, the little camera on their hand. Pointing it about inside me, but as they did so<br />
they didn’t look at where they were pointing. They pointed it and looked at the screen.<br />
That’s why there was a lot of bumping into my spare parts. The slowness was like<br />
they were not present inside the bit of me with all the props, but like they were present<br />
with the screen.<br />
CROWD AND BEAT FADE. ENTER WIND.<br />
I have to conjure another semblance of Bataille, and this time with Irigaray, to call on<br />
the feminine’s perpetual absenting, in both their names…her ephemeral accents that<br />
fragment in voice, the eternal feminine that cannot be pinned down in an appearance.<br />
By all accounts the feminine remains ‘fixed in oblivion … waiting to come to life’ 12 ,<br />
suspended waiting to be, intuiting, whilst he is one, the feminine works from his<br />
narcissistic point of return…<br />
WIND FADE.<br />
‘When Edward fell back dead, a void opened in her, a long shudder ran down her,<br />
which lifted her up like an angel. Her naked breasts stood up in an imaginary church<br />
where the feeling of the irretrievable emptied her. Standing, near to the dead man,<br />
absent, outside herself, in a slow ecstasy, overwhelmed. Edward, as he died, had<br />
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begged her to strip herself naked.’<br />
ENTER WIND.<br />
I enter this dialogue with you, which is also with myself, already knowing that this is<br />
impossible in itself, and the impossibility of the topic of which I speak – is already<br />
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enunciated as follows, one which ‘my experience as a woman ’ should enable me to<br />
validate a claim – yet this is so difficult to holdfast to, considering the feminines’<br />
slippery (dis)appearances .<br />
ENTER RAIN.<br />
Stammering spells – spell binding, spelling out this script envisioned as a feminine<br />
rhetorical summoning. Staggering across a mystic babbling at the brook of De<br />
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Beauvoir, yes - I am calling on the mystic of The Second Sex; as an allusion to a<br />
metaphor which is already redundant, casting a mantra spool of Judeo-Christian-<br />
European values across a well tooled lectern.<br />
ENTER CROWD.<br />
And here at the bank of bluffing words, buffering meanings and riddling citations this<br />
narration attempts to do – to enact what I am about to say. To frame, which already<br />
12 Irigaray L, Speculum of the other woman, Cornell University Press, New York, (1985), p. 138<br />
13 Bataille G, The Dead Man, Marion Boyars Publishers, New York – London, (1989), p. 1<br />
14 Irigaray L, Conversations and Teaching book launch, ICA, 9 th of September 2008.<br />
15 De Beauvoir S, The Second Sex, Vintage, London, (1997), pp. 679 - 687<br />
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means to limit 16 , a contingency plan (this monologue, if all else fails I managed to fix<br />
this speech somewhere) that already fails again at the gate of Cixous’<br />
ENTER BEAT.<br />
oh so prescriptive ecriture feminine which I, now, derisively, can still only undermime…<br />
all the while falling short of authenticity.<br />
And, yes, yes, for the feminine to know the feminine has to appear to see – through the<br />
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body, through touch….more gentle still - more aptly, seeing through a caress . I<br />
mean the body as a subject or object, with premonition coming from the body as a<br />
medium, a clairvoyant, foreseeing through caressing bodies that not only seek the<br />
mirror in the Other.<br />
ENTER TORENTIAL RAIN.<br />
Positing the meeting between bodies as a moment of exchange, a reflection - one that<br />
fraternises with seduction, opulence and the unreliability of the mirror between<br />
bodies that speak,<br />
and when I say speaking I also mean reflecting - appearing.<br />
CROWD, BEAT, WIND AND VOICE FADE.<br />
TORENTIAL RAIN FADE.<br />
Appearance and Apparatus<br />
I will begin again here with the problem of entering, of entering into this speech,<br />
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through a porthole – the beginning - a chasm. To no longer watch myself attempting<br />
16 ‘All the future is concentrated in that sheet of light, a universe within the mirror’s frame; outside<br />
these narrow limits, things are disordered chaos.’ De Beauvoir S, The Second Sex, Vintage, London,<br />
(1997), p. 643<br />
17 ‘Thus I never see in that which I touch or am touched. What is at play in the caress does not see<br />
itself. The in-between, the middle, the medium of the caress does not see itself. In the same way and<br />
differently, I do not see that which allows me to see, that which touches me with light and air so that I<br />
see some “thing”.’ Irigaray L, An Ethics of Sexual Difference, Continuum, London-New York, (2004),<br />
p. 135<br />
18 ‘At the moment of beginning, even before beginning, slowing down, adagio, and even lento, lento,<br />
one knows, yes one knows that one will always have to begin again.<br />
That is to say deploy or multiply the beginnings.<br />
Which will be each time unique. I will always have to begin again.’ Derrida J, H.C. for Life, That Is to<br />
Say…, Stanford University Press, Stanford, California, (2006) pp. 1<br />
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another beginning, beyond surveillance of myself here, in a live time exchange.<br />
Departing now from the safety of this form, arguing for an instance which might<br />
analogously be interpreted as a feminine methodology through my art practice.<br />
Across and over – across a ravine of cheap rock blocked metaphors and chip-chop<br />
ensembles, pawning catchphrase feminist writing equivalents of the body and the<br />
blood – of embodiment and musings. As a way of entering what is irrevocable in<br />
voice and the apparatus – shaping surveillance – caught in an attempt to produce<br />
knowledge that marries the strategies of echoing the feminine with looking at the<br />
feminine. These themes attempt to conjure the appearance of the feminine using<br />
audio, (Be Speak: Authenticating Voices), and video, (f)low visibility), not only as<br />
cheap techno trickery, but, as an exemplary phantasm of her. I remain, seeking,<br />
speaking the feminine’s absenting to provoke a presence 19 in the feminine’s reflective<br />
multiplicities and fragmentations, towards articulating the moment of her appearance.<br />
Guided by my conception of Irigaray’s critique of the visible<br />
20 and notion of<br />
reflection 21 , I will flesh-out the themes which were flashed through in the audio<br />
further, concluding through my ongoing analysis of (f)low visibility. Instrumentalising<br />
Irigaray’s renegotiation of the relationship between the visual and seeing as<br />
necessarily produced with the body’s other senses through the interior and exterior<br />
landscape 22 . Irigaray posits the body as a sensory medium, as a clairvoyant body that<br />
intuits through the bodily senses holistically. Irigaray’s notion of reflection is defined<br />
as an occurrence between subjects which fragments in the exchange with the other. I<br />
resituate reflection as a process which occurs between the subject and object, positing<br />
these as bodies that fragment and allow for a collapse, an instance of unity. A<br />
relationship which, crucially, affects the body’s convivial reflection and exchange of<br />
the interior and exterior landscape, and so, my conception of reflection situates the<br />
subject and object in a reflective liaison which is not limited by a divide between the<br />
interior and exterior landscape, but is in a constant merging, meeting and rupture of<br />
exchanges. That facilitates a summoning, a convening, between feminine bodies that<br />
are in a processual collapse and so actioning her appearance.<br />
The watching that happened between the participants, the scene, the props of (f)low<br />
visibility, were enlarged from the participants’, and the props with miniature cameras,<br />
point of view on the screen. The participants looked to the screen to guide the camera<br />
and in turn the projected moving images led the participants’ camera. A symmetry<br />
was formed, an intuitive symbiotic relationship between the apparatus and the<br />
participant – in which the camera and the lens – manifested as another kind of eye, as<br />
a foreigner to the body, as an alien body, at once extending from, and affixed to the<br />
19 Rose J, Sexuality in the Field of Vision, Verso, London – New York, (2005), pp. 225-233<br />
20 Irigaray L, An Ethics of Sexual Difference, The Athlone Press, London, (1993), pp. 151-184<br />
21 Irigaray L, To Speak is Never Neutral, Continuum, London – New York, (2002), pp. 148 - 149<br />
22 ‘And it remains that I only see by the touch of the light and my eyes are situated in my body. I am<br />
touched and enveloped by the felt before seeing it.<br />
The question is perhaps that of “situating” or of the translation into my interior landscape. It is the felt<br />
that should conduct me there. Can I transform, transmute the sensible into some inwardness? How so?<br />
What will be lacking from this intimate landscape? It will always be incomplete. With regard to the<br />
movement of my eyes, they do not take place uniquely within the visible universe: they also happen in<br />
the living crypt of my body and my flesh.’ Irigaray L, An Ethics of Sexual Difference, The Athlone<br />
Press, London, (1993), p. 165<br />
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ody of the participant. (The miniature camera and participants surveyed the scene,<br />
through a collaborative surveillance that re-veiled the scene.)<br />
Considering the participants’ relationship to the apparatus in (f)low visibility, the<br />
visual field might be said to be over-there in relation to the seer, the watcher – in a<br />
separation – but in the course of this distancing there is another more proximate<br />
instance. Namely, the reactive reciprocity between the participants’ camera<br />
orientation and the images produced on the screen. A moment which linked,<br />
connected and took the seer with the viewing field and vice versa. For example, when<br />
the participant entered the installation, they waved their hand wearing the miniature<br />
camera in order to identify which screen they were in control of – intuiting the space<br />
around them – they moved and oriented through both the space that they were in and<br />
the visual plain of the screen. A doubling was in action on the split between the space<br />
itself and the representational space of the screen. A kind of reactive relationship was<br />
formed between the participant and the apparatus. Occasionally looking at the camera<br />
to reposition it and then faithfully returning back to the screen. A mirroring was in<br />
action in this instance in the installation, a necessity of reflection that intuits one body<br />
with the other body, collapsing these bodies through mutual reciprocity. The question<br />
is: who was directing who? A limitless body, unlimited by separation, which ebbs<br />
outwards and inwards, situates the collapse between the interior and exterior<br />
landscape as coming from a feeling body. For watching oneself – the scene that one is<br />
in, necessarily requires the apparatus, namely the mirror, which reflects, and the<br />
screen, which in this case projects, and of course the intuitive feminine body that sees<br />
before it necessarily looks as another form of envisioning.<br />
The participants in the installation, preferred to see outside themselves and back<br />
towards themselves through the wires, the pixels, the lenses, and the play of light on<br />
the screen in the darkened room. Watching the screen, they got stuck, spell-bound and<br />
mesmerised; the participants bumped into each other, tripped-up and fell over in a<br />
tangle of wires, props and each other. Their participation was fragmented by various<br />
sorts of interruptions, e.g. from other participants entering and exiting the installation,<br />
and the power failure of the miniature cameras, to putting the cameras in dark spaces<br />
interrupting the images on the screen, etc. Even though these ruptures occurred onscreen<br />
and off-screen the participant never failed to wait, to look back towards the<br />
moving images – the participant escaped into the apparatus. Again, I drawstring<br />
together these techno-frenzied responsive artworks as reflecting a multiplicity of<br />
manifestations in another rendition: the audio, the screen – as another premonition.<br />
(As I intuit today a thousand years ago, on another map navigating this text as a<br />
wordy pictograph, I want to incite this moment as one of reflexivity, of feminine<br />
appearance).<br />
*Escaping towards the construction of the apparatus, preferring the technological<br />
rendering of the real to the real.*<br />
The installation evoked a moment which touched as an interlocutor between apparatus<br />
and participant – a touch which brushed through the other’s reciprocity, caressing in a<br />
shared momentum. Though these bodies collapsed, the collapse was mobilised by<br />
interruptions between participants’ and the apparatus, these ruptures marked the<br />
fragment with the moments that mesmerised and led each body into the other body,<br />
affording abounding configurations, bonds and ensembles between bodies, and so<br />
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caressing on a temporal collapse, on an instance of exchange inciting the feminine<br />
appearance.<br />
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Leena Kela<br />
Performing Goldilocks<br />
I will speak about a performance series I created and performed in 2007 and 2008<br />
called Goldilocks Peep Show. First I will describe the textual background, the fairy<br />
tale, and then I will talk about the structure of the performance. After that I will speak<br />
about my personal experiences that also form a background for the work. Lastly I will<br />
say a few words about the mythical and theoretical aspects of the performance. While<br />
I’m talking I will show you some photos from different versions of the Goldilocks<br />
performance series, which started in 2003.<br />
Goldilocks and the Three Bears<br />
The fairy tale ‘Goldilocks and the Three Bears’ forms a basis for the Goldilocks<br />
performances, along with an interpretation relating to my personal history and<br />
experiences. In the story a little girl named Goldilocks breaks into the house of Father<br />
Bear, Mother Bear and Baby Bear. Curious, she explores their house, first tasting their<br />
porridge, which is cooling off on the table in three different bowls. Father Bear’s<br />
porridge is too hot for her; Mother Bear’s too cold; but Baby Bear’s is just perfect and<br />
she eats it all. Then she sits on their three different chairs. Father’s is too hard,<br />
Mother’s too soft, but luckily Baby Bear’s is just right–until suddenly the chair breaks<br />
under her. She tries out their beds. Father Bear’s bed is way too hard for her, Mother’s<br />
bed too soft, but finally she falls asleep on Baby Bear’s bed, which is just like her<br />
own bed at home. When the bears arrive back home, the little intruder wakes up and<br />
escapes through the window. There is no obvious teaching in the story.<br />
Goldilocks Peep Show<br />
In Goldilocks Peep Show my character, Goldilocks, is inside a performance booth or a<br />
room, depending on the context of the performance. The term peep show refers to a<br />
presentation of pornographic films or a live sex show using a coin- or bill-operated<br />
gadget, which opens the peeping slot, shuts it after a short time, and requires more<br />
money to be deposited for continuation. In her peep show Goldilocks is inside the<br />
performance space. The audience stands outside the room and watches the<br />
performance through a little hole on the front wall. The spectator has to pay in order<br />
to see the performance. A one-minute viewing costs one coin; by paying more the<br />
spectator can watch longer. The performance is given for one audience member at<br />
time and every spectator will see a different part of the performance.<br />
The acts Goldilocks is performing can be erotic or less so, varying from the<br />
provocative and offensive to being even dull and endearing. Sometimes Goldilocks<br />
might be standing with honey dripping along her leg. Or she might be lying down on<br />
the floor with apples gushing out from between her legs. Or she might mimic a<br />
striptease and reveal her very hairy back, armpit or pussy to the viewer. She might<br />
demonstrate sexual intercourse as or with a bear. Or appear as half-bear-half-human<br />
character; the head of a bear on a girl's body, or the body of a bear with a girl's head.<br />
Or she might behave animalistically. She can sense the viewer and become scared,<br />
defiant, aggressive, curious, demanding, servile, or arrogant. Or there might be no<br />
Goldilocks at all in the room, just a bear who is manically rocking himself back and<br />
forth on the floor. Or staring straight at the viewer. Or dancing seductively.<br />
The audience can see the performer, but the performer can’t see who is watching her.
The performance is intimate, but at the same time anonymous on the spectator’s part.<br />
After the performance, most of the spectators I have talked with haven't wanted to tell<br />
me what part of the performance or what kind of action they saw. Most wanted to<br />
keep it their own private secret, perhaps since some of the actions might have been<br />
embarrassing to watch, let alone describe. I found that very interesting, since it made<br />
me—the performer—an outsider, as it was too intrusive to even ask the spectator to<br />
share his or her experience with me. After few attempts I learned to respect this as the<br />
nature of the performance, where the spectator is allowed to keep his or her<br />
anonymity even after the performance is over. The performance is a shared moment,<br />
an encounter, but anonymous. We can share something very intimate and exceptional<br />
together, but that happens only in that particular moment and when the moment is<br />
over, we no longer recognise each other. Like in a confession booth. Or in a sex show,<br />
in the original notion of a peep show.<br />
In Goldilocks Peep Show the money deposited in order to see the performance<br />
is more symbolic than a real fee. It can be any coin and mostly I have received the<br />
smallest, 5 cent coins. The spectator has to make his or her own decision of how<br />
much they want to pay in order to see, using the coins they happen to have in their<br />
pocket. But only the action of payment allows them to take a look and watch longer<br />
and if they don’t put out more money, they won’t know what happens next. The<br />
spectator gives the impulse to keep the performance going, and the action is<br />
performed for his or her eyes only.<br />
While watching the viewer can also listen to the fairy tale on headphones, but<br />
all instances of the word ‘bear’ are replaced with the word ‘other,’ so the main<br />
characters in this story are Father Other, Mother Other and Baby Other, and of course<br />
Goldilocks. On the back wall of the performance booth there is a video projection,<br />
which works as a stage set and places Goldilocks in different environments. For<br />
example, Goldilocks in the bed with Father Bear, Goldilocks eating honey with<br />
erotically charged gestures, or Goldilocks running fast in the woods trying to escape<br />
the unknown chaser.<br />
In the first version of the performance the room was otherwise quite empty.<br />
Only the objects needed for the action were visible. In later versions, the room was<br />
filled with trees and the performance seemed to take place in a forest.<br />
The peep show performance attempts to deconstruct the major juxtapositions<br />
between culture and nature, human and animal, and between masculine and feminine<br />
behaviour. Bears have, through the times, been seen as characters with courage,<br />
power, and strength, and it is with these same qualities Goldilocks now challenges<br />
them. In Peep Show Goldilocks appears as an erotic, naughty Lolita who exhibits<br />
herself by playing with the gaze of the viewer and at the same time reveals its<br />
voyeuristic nature. A feminine ‘other,’ Goldilocks is a girly girl with golden blond<br />
hair who at times changes into a half human half bear type of character, dominates<br />
both physically and sexually, and by doing so breaks out from the assumed behaviour<br />
of a good girl. On the other hand, the bear as an animal ‘other’ already goes over the<br />
nature/culture division by having a strong mythical history as sacred, worshipped, and<br />
feared animal, but also by symbolising the cuddly softness of a teddy bear.<br />
Personal Background of the Performance<br />
I grew up in North-East Finland. There were many bears living in the area<br />
around my home town and new bears would also cross the border from the Russian<br />
side, looking for new hunting territory. I grew up among endless stories of bears: how
some friend or relative of someone met a bear face-to-face in the woods, how the<br />
bears may come near your house or summer cottage and dumpster dive your garbage,<br />
how the bears can tease or even kill your dogs, since the bears have become so<br />
arrogant that they don’t respect the barking dogs anymore. The common message is<br />
that one ought to fear the bears, not only in the forests, but even in your own<br />
backyard. For me the bear represented the worst threat.<br />
I used to have nightmares of bears as a child. In my dreams the bear was always<br />
after me. And he even came into our home. He would scratch our front door with his<br />
strong nails, until the door broke open. Or he’d bite his way through the wall into my<br />
bedroom. Or he’d run after me on my home street, while I tried to manage to get<br />
home before he caught me. I always woke up before I was caught. These nightmares<br />
were not something occasional. I remember having them weekly throughout my<br />
childhood and even when I grew older. I had them until I started to work with bears in<br />
my performances and adopted the character of Goldilocks six years ago.<br />
On the other hand, I remember that I loved the stories—usually told by older<br />
women—describing an encounter with a bear. A woman is picking berries in the<br />
forest. While she is bending over in order to reach the berries, she suddenly gets a<br />
feeling that someone is looking at her. It is the bear, a huge male, watching her,<br />
staring straight at her large arse. The bear, an animal, looks at her. One second feels<br />
like ten minutes before she manages to get her feet moving and runs as fast as she can<br />
to escape. And the woman always manages to escape.<br />
Probably the stories are pure fantasy, since it is said that it is not that unusual to<br />
be seen by a bear, but to see a bear in the forest is extremely exceptional. The bear<br />
smells or sees the human from very far off, and just walks away, without the human<br />
ever knowing such a scene took place. But in these women’s stories, the bear looks at<br />
the woman. There is a tension in between them, erotic tension.<br />
A bear is reminiscent of a human in its bodily posture. Bears and people are<br />
often about equally tall when standing on their two feet. Bears can look like people<br />
more than any other mammal who goes along on four legs. It is easy to identify with a<br />
bear.<br />
In ancient Finnish mythology the bear was considered to be the son of a god.<br />
People were not allowed to call him a bear, so they came up with many paraphrases in<br />
order to talk about him or to him. He was called an Apple of the Forest, a Honey Paw,<br />
and many other names, which were all soft variations on the idea of a bear. Some<br />
people could also change themselves into a bear and back into a human simply by<br />
walking around a tree enough times. Then there was a story of a woman, who bore<br />
half hairy children with a bear. She lived in the bear cave and raised her half-hairy,<br />
half-human children, who could choose to be either bears or humans. Bear myths also<br />
claim that the bears only attack men, not women. When a woman meets a bear in the<br />
forest, she should show her bare arse or genitals to the bear, so that the bear sees that<br />
he is facing a woman and therefore will leave her untouched. A man the bear would<br />
kill.<br />
There are peep shows of bears arranged near my hometown. By paying 140<br />
euros the audience is taken into a small hut in the middle of the forest, where one can<br />
watch bears all through the night. The hut is well camouflaged and there are few<br />
peeping holes on the wall. The audience must stay very quiet. After a while, the bears<br />
arrive. The organiser of these peep shows promises a 99 percent guarantee that the<br />
bears will come, and not just one bear, but many. This guarantee has created a<br />
problem, because they use carcasses in order to attract the bears. By visiting this ‘bear<br />
kiosk’ every night all through the summer, the bears become familiar with people.
They associate the human smell with easy food. So after people stop feeding them,<br />
they come closer to villages and people’s houses in order to find something to eat.<br />
The locals, of course, consider them to be hairy hooligans, which they don’t need to<br />
tolerate.<br />
So for me a bear is still a source of many stories. The bears attract and frighten<br />
me, but through the performances I have found a way to operate in their natural and<br />
mythical world. I would still pee my pants, if I met a bear face-to-face in the forest. I<br />
think almost anyone would.<br />
Theoretical Implications of the Fairy tale and the Peep Show Performance<br />
But what is the moral of the story of Goldilocks and Three Bears? Is it suggesting the<br />
sort of person whom one should identify with, between the hard and hot father, the<br />
soft and cold mother, or with someone who is most like you? Is it teaching that one<br />
should encounter the other with curiosity and at the same time with respect? Or is it<br />
promoting respect towards privacy and the property of others? Why aren’t the bears<br />
teaching a lesson to the naughty Goldilocks? Does she represent an ignorant human<br />
being, who dominates the animals and nature around her by using them as an<br />
amusement park to make her little boring life bit more exiting and interesting?<br />
In the fairy tale Goldilocks has beautiful golden hair. But what does her<br />
blondness represent? Our brave blond Goldilocks breaks into the house of dark furry<br />
bears. In European fairy tales blond hair marked heroes and heroines. But is she a<br />
heroine? Goldilocks comes from a civilised, cultured world, and by getting lost in the<br />
forest she accidentally finds a house of the three bears, a house for animals in the<br />
middle of wild nature. And she is so bold that she decides to break into the house,<br />
take advantage of their property, and leave the destruction after her upon being<br />
discovered by the bears. One of my early goals in the Goldilocks performance series<br />
was to find some sort of punishment for her. But I never really succeeded. Her<br />
original action was so arrogant.<br />
In Goldilocks Peep Show Goldilocks has sexual intercourse with (presumably)<br />
Father Bear, and by doing so she is replacing the place of Mother Bear. She is the size<br />
of Baby Bear, but she has no interest towards him. Baby Bear represents a child,<br />
whereas Goldilocks represents a half-hairy woman in a child’s dress. She is also the<br />
desire towards the animal, the desire to become an animal. She changes herself into a<br />
bear and back. She might become Goldilocks in bear’s dress; at times she is bit less<br />
human and bit more animal in her behaviour. She is an anthropomorphic animal and<br />
an animal human. She is in between.<br />
In traditions of Western philosophy, an animal is wholly other to a human<br />
being. Their lack of language separates us, since the animals are unable to respond.<br />
This subordinates animals to human beings in Cartesian thinking. In the Goldilocks<br />
performances I would rather like to think about how we consider the animal in<br />
ourselves. In addition to our physical needs, we have our survival instincts, which we<br />
share with animals. We have our materiality, our flesh and blood that wants to stay<br />
alive. And to stay alive, we need the other living beings. The body is both human and<br />
animal. Ethical life and ethical relationship to the other also includes animals. For me<br />
the story of Goldilocks and the Three Bears calls us to question our ethical<br />
relationship with the animals outside and inside of us.<br />
In the peep show performance Goldilocks plays with another human being as<br />
the other. The spectator is on the other side of the wall, watching her through the<br />
peephole. She flirts with the gaze, she needs the gaze, since when no one is watching,<br />
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nothing happens in her performance booth. She cannot know who is watching, since<br />
for her the audience outside the performance booth is a sort of unknown. But she<br />
knows there is someone there when the peeping slot opens up. If she wants, through<br />
the peephole she can see the eye watching her, but she knows nothing about the<br />
person that the gaze belongs to. As a performer of Goldilocks I have managed to feel<br />
very intimate with the invisible person on the other side of the wall. I have sometimes<br />
spent moments just breathing together with the spectator and felt that something<br />
really happened in between our two bodies. The wall in between doesn’t necessary<br />
prevent us from sharing the same space and bodily intimacy, even though the<br />
anonymity remains.<br />
So, when the coin drops into the coin box, Goldilocks begins her act.