E. A. Koetting - staticfly.net

CHArTER THIRTEEN
DARK ASCENT
there something that is more important to you than your Magickal and
personal development? If the answer is affirmative, then there is little
that you can do aside from dabble until you either drift back into
spiritual slumber or choose to Ascend above the everyday prison. If the
answer is a shouted "NO!" however, then there is obviously something
in your world that could use adjustment. Anything that is not necessary
which consumes the time that could be better spent Becoming something
more than a slave needs to be discarded or destroyed. If the parasitic
tick will not release when it is shaken, it must be burned out.
"Why am I still struggling?"
Even while proclaiming their personal freedom and their hard
won ability to walk a path that is much different than most, the Black
Magician may often find that others in his life are either acth'ely or
indirectly keeping him from Becoming all that he is. Sometimes a
spouse or other relationship partner does not fully understand the
Sinister Path, and mistakes your Temple for a place where you retreat
to, rather than the place wherein you create your reality. E'-en more
subtly and more difficult to detect is the effect that others may ha,'e on
your ability to pulse with Power throughout your daily life, afraid that
others will strike at what they fear; and they do strike, but as they do
they know that their fear is not misplaced. This is the reason that the
Neophyte often presents himself as "evil" or "dark: with black clothing,
piercings, and cosmetics, intentionally making himself ugly and
undesirable: it is far easier than being sinister and evil, walking into a
room and stopping people's breath with an aura of Darkness, becoming
that which they can only portray through costumes. That Darkness
can be had and manifested in your presence at all times, however,
regardless of image or appearance - once the Black Magician ceases to
halt its flow when he is around others. Either his fear or the object of his
fear needs to be destroyed in order to Become his self, unrestrained.
Most often, however, the enemy is within. in the form of fear,
lack of confidence, psychological rivets to dying belief systems or
variable morals codes, feelings of powerlessness in the face of oppression,
or other illusions cast on the self by the inferior parts of the brain. Most
often, this is why you are still struggling. These obstacles, whether
self-created, self-perpetuated, or entirely external. need to be destroyed
entirely, turned to sulfur in the Lake of Fire.
In his Ascent, the Black Magician is moving towards a being­
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