divine-mercy-in-my-soul

266 Today I received a great and incomprehensible grace, a purely interior one, for which I
will be grateful to God throughout this life and in eternity……
267 Jesus told me that I please Him best by meditating on His sorrowful Passion, and by such
meditation much light falls upon my soul. He who wants to learn true humility should
reflect upon the Passion of Jesus. When I meditate upon the Passion of Jesus, I get a
clear understanding of many things I could not comprehend before. I want to resemble
You, O Jesus, - You crucified, tortured, and humiliated. Jesus, imprint upon my heart and
soul Your own humility. I love You, Jesus, to the point of madness, You who were
crushed with suffering as described by the prophet [cf. Isaiah 53:2-9], as if he could not
see the human form in You because of Your great suffering. It is in this condition, Jesus,
that I love You to the point of madness. O eternal and infinite God, what has love done to
You?....
268 October 11, 1933.-Thursday.- I tried to make a Holy Hour, but began it with great
difficulty. A certain yearning started to tear at my heart. My mind was dimmed so that I
could not understand the simplest forms of prayer. And so passed by an hour of prayer,
or rather of struggle. I resolved to pray for a second hour, but my inner suffering
increased – great (120) dryness and discouragement. I resolved to pray for a third hour.
In the third hour, which I resolved to spend kneeling without any support, my body started
to clamor for rest. But I in no way relented. I stretched out my arms and though I spoke
no words, I persisted by sheer will. After a while, I took the ring off my finger and asked
Jesus to look at the ring, that sign of our eternal union, and I offered Jesus the feelings I
had on the day of perpetual vows. After a while, I feel my heart inundated with a wave of
love. A sudden recollection of spirit, the senses quiet down, and God‟s presence
pervades my soul. I know only this: that it is Jesus and I. I saw Him just as He had
appeared to me in that instant after my perpetual vows, when I was likewise making a
Holy Hour. Jesus was suddenly standing before me, stripped of His clothes, His body
completely covered with wounds, His eyes flooded with tears and blood, His face
disfigured and covered with spittle. The Lord then said to me, The bride must resemble
her Betrothed. I understood these words to their very depth. There is no room for doubt
here. My likeness to Jesus must be through suffering and humility. See what love of
human souls has done to Me. My daughter, in your heart I find everything that so
great a number of souls refuses Me. Your heart is My repose. I often wait with
great graces until towards the end of prayer.
269 Once, when I had finished a novena to the Holy Spirit for the intention of my confessor
[Father Sopocko], the Lord answered, I made him known to you even before your
superiors had sent you here. As you will act towards your confessor, so I will act
toward you. If you conceal something from him, even though it be the least of My
graces, I too will hide Myself from you, and you will remain alone. And so I followed
God‟s wish, and a deep peace filled my soul. Now I understand how the Lord defends
confessors and how He protects them.
(121) Advice of the rev. Dr. Sopocko.
270 Without humility, we cannot be pleasing to God. Practice the third degree of humility; 76
that is, not only must one refrain from explaining and defending oneself when reproached
with something, but one should rejoice at the humiliation.
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