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hour and to wait for Mother Superior, who was to pass by there after recreation, 64 and I
was to accuse myself of various things which she had told me to say. Although I had no
idea of these things being on my soul, I was obedient and waited for Mother Superior for
a full half hour. Each sister who passed by looked at me with a smile. When I accused
myself before Mother Superior [Raphael], she sent me to my confessor. When I made my
confession, the priest saw immediately that this was something that did not come from my
own soul and that I had not the faintest idea of such things. He was very surprised that
this person had dared to take upon herself to give such orders.
197 O Church of God, you are the best mother, you alone can rear a soul and cause it to
grow. Oh, how great is my love and respect for the Church, that best of all mothers!
198 On one occasion the Lord said to me, My daughter, your confidence and love restrain
My justice, and I cannot inflict punishment because you hinder Me from doing so.
Oh, how great is the power of a soul filled with confidence!
199 When I think of my perpetual vows and Who it is that wants to be joined with me, for
hours I become absorbed in the thought of Him. How can this be; You are God and I – I
am Your creature. You, the Immortal King and I, a beggar and misery itself! But now all
is clear to me; (97) Your grace and Your love, O Lord, will fill the gulf between You,
Jesus, and me.
200 O Jesus, how deeply it hurts the soul when it is always trying to be sincere and they
accuse it of hypocrisy and behave with mistrust toward it. O Jesus, You also suffered like
this to make satisfaction to Your Father.
201 I want to hide myself so that no creature might know my heart. Jesus, You alone know
my heart and possess it whole and entire. No one knows our secret. We understand
each other mutually with one look. From the moment we came to know each other I have
been happy. Your greatness is my fullness. O Jesus, when I am in the last place, lower
than the postulants, even the youngest of them, then I feel that I am in my proper place. I
did not know that the Lord had put so much happiness in these drab little corners. Now I
understand that even in prison there can burst forth from a pure heart the fullness of love
for You, O Lord! External things mean nothing to pure love; it cuts through them all.
Neither prison doors nor the gates of heaven are strong enough to stop it. It reaches God
Himself, and nothing can quench it. It knows no obstacles; it is free like a queen and has
free access to all places. Death itself must bow its head before it…….
202 My sister [Wanda 65 ] came to see me today. When she told me of her plans, I was horrorstricken.
How is such a thing possible? Such a beautiful little soul before the Lord, and
yet, great darkness had come over her, and she did not know how to help herself. She
had a dark view of everything. The good God entrusted her to my care, and for two
weeks I was able to work with her. But how many sacrifices this soul cost me is known
only to God. For no other soul did I bring so many sacrifices and sufferings and prayers
before the throne of God as I did for her soul. (98) I felt that I had forced God to grant
her grace. When I reflect on all this, I see that it was truly a miracle. Now I can see how
much power intercessory prayer has before God.
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