divine-mercy-in-my-soul

The first attribute which the Lord gave me to know is His holiness. His holiness is so
great that all the Powers and Virtues tremble before Him. The pure spirits veil their faces
and lose themselves in unending adoration, and with one single word they express the
highest form of adoration; that is – Holy….. The holiness of god is poured out upon the
Church of God and upon every living soul in it, but not in the same degree. There are
souls who are completely penetrated by God, and there are those who are barely alive.
The second kind of knowledge which the Lord granted me concerns His justice. His
justice is so great and penetrating that it reaches deep into the heart of things, and all
things stand before Him in naked truth, and nothing can withstand Him.
The third attribute is love and mercy. And I understood that the greatest attribute is love
and mercy. It unites the creature with the Creator. This immense love and abyss of
mercy are made known in the Incarnation of the Word and in the Redemption [of
humanity], and it is here that I saw this as the greatest of all God‟s attributes.
181 Today I was cleaning the room of one of the sisters. Although I was trying to clean it with
utmost care, she kept following me all the time and saying, “You‟ve left a speck of dust
here and a spot on the floor there.” At each of her remarks I did each place over a dozen
times (91) just to satisfy her. It is not work that makes me tired, but all this talking and
excessive demands. My whole day‟s martyrdom was not enough for her, so she went to
the Directress and complained, “Mother, who is this careless sister who doesn‟t know how
to work quickly?” The next day, I went again to do the same job, without trying to explain
myself. When she started driving me, I thought, “Jesus, one can be a silent martyr; it is
not the work that wears you out, but this kind of martyrdom.”
182 I learned that certain people have a special gift for vexing others. They try you as best
they can. The poor soul that falls into their hands can do nothing right; her best efforts
are maliciously criticized.
+Christmas Eve.
Today I was closely united with the Mother of God. I relived her interior sentiments. In
the evening, before the ceremony of the breaking of the wafer, I went into the chapel to
break the wafer, in spirit, with my loved ones, and I asked the Mother of God for graces
for them. My spirit was totally steeped in God. During the Midnight Mass [“Pasterka” or
Shepherds‟ Mass], I saw the Child Jesus in the Host, and my spirit was immersed in Him.
Although He was a tiny Child, His majesty penetrated my soul. I was permeated to the
depths of my being by this mystery, this great abasement on the part of God, this
inconceivable emptying of Himself. These sentiments remained vividly alive in my soul all
through the festive season. Oh, we shall never comprehend this great self-abasement on
the part of God; the more I think of it, [unfinished thought].
183 One morning after Holy Communion, I heard this voice, I desire that you accompany
Me when I go to the sick. I answered that I was quite willing, but after a moment of
reflection I started wondering how I was going to do so; the sisters of the second choir 61
do not accompany the Blessed Sacrament. It is always the sister-directresses who go.
(92) I thought to myself: Jesus will find a way. Shortly afterwards, Mother Raphael sent
for me and said, “Sister, you will accompany the Lord Jesus when the priest goes to visit
the sick.” And all through the time of my probation I carried the light, accompanying the
Lord and, as a knight of Jesus, I always tried to gird myself with an iron belt, 62 for it would
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