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with God, I felt I was especially loved and, in turn, I loved with all my soul. A great
mystery took place during that adoration, a mystery between the Lord and myself. It
seemed to me that I would die of love [at the sight of] His glance. I spoke much with the
Lord, without uttering a single word. And the Lord said to me, You are the delight of My
Heart; from today on, every one of your acts, even the very smallest, will be a
delight to My eyes, whatever you do. At that moment I felt transconsecrated. My
earthly body was the same, but my soul was different; God was now living in it with the
totality of His delight. This is not a feeling, but a conscious reality that nothing can
obscure.
138 A great mystery has been accomplished between God and me. Courage and strength
have remained in my soul. When the time of adoration came to an end, I came out and
calmly faced everything I had feared so much before. When I came out into the corridor,
a great suffering and humiliation, at the hands of a certain person, was awaiting me. I
accepted it with submission to a higher will and snuggled closely to the Most Sacred
Heart of Jesus, letting Him know that I was ready for that for which I had offered myself.
Suffering seemed to spring out of the ground. Even Mother Margaret herself was
surprised. For others, many things passed unnoticed, for indeed it wasn‟t worth paying
any attention to them; but in my case, nothing passed unnoticed; each word was
analyzed, each step watched. One sister said to me, “Get ready, (65) Sister, to receive a
small cross, at the hands of Mother Superior. I feel sorry for you.” But as for me, I
rejoiced at this in the depths of my soul and had been ready for it for a long time. When
she saw my courage, she was surprised. I see now that a soul cannot do much of itself,
but with God it can do all things. Behold what God‟s grace can do. Few are the souls
that are always watchful for divine graces, and even fewer of such souls who follow those
inspirations faithfully.
139 Still, a soul which is faithful to God cannot confirm its own inspirations; it must submit
them to the control of a very wise and learned priest; and until it is quite certain, it should
remain distrustful. It should not, on its own initiative alone, put its trust in these
inspirations and all other higher graces, because it can thus expose itself to great losses.
Even though a soul may immediately distinguish between false inspirations and those of
God, it should nevertheless be careful, because many things are uncertain. God is
pleased and rejoices when a soul distrusts Him for His own sake; because it loves Him, it
is prudent and itself asks and searches for help to make certain that it is really God who is
acting within it. And once a well-instructed confessor has confirmed this, the soul should
be at peace and give itself up to God, according to His directions; that is, according to the
directions of the confessor.
140 Pure love is capable of great deeds, and it is not broken by difficulty or adversity. As it
remains strong in the midst of great difficulties, so too it perseveres in the toilsome and
drab life of each day. It knows that only one thing is needed to please God: to do even
the smallest things out of great love – love, and always love.
Pure love never errs. Its light is strangely plentiful. It will not do anything that might
displease God. It is ingenious at doing what is more pleasing to God, and no one will
equal it. It is happy when it can empty itself and burn like a pure offering. The more it
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