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After a short but fervent prayer, I saw Father Sopocko for a second time, in our chapel,
between the confessional and the altar. I was in Cracow at that time. These two
visions bolstered up my spirit, all the more when I found him to be just as I had seen
him in the visions, once at Warsaw during my third probation, and a second time at
Cracow. O Jesus, I thank you for this great gift! And now when I hear people
sometimes say that they have no confessor; that is to say, a director, fear takes hold of
me, because I know very well how much harm I myself experienced when I did not have
this help. It is so easy to go astray when one has no guide!
62 O life so dull and monotonous, how many treasures you contain! When I look at
everything with the eyes of faith, no two hours are alike, and the dullness and monotony
disappear. The grace which is given me in this hour will not be repeated in the next. It
may be given me again, but it will not be the same grace. Time goes on, never to return
again. Whatever is enclosed in it will never change; it seals with a seal for eternity.
63 (25) + Father Sopocko must be well loved by God. I say this because I myself have
experienced how much God defends him at certain moments. When I see this, I rejoice
greatly that God has such chosen ones.
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64 When I came to Vilnius for two months to replace a sister who had gone for her third
probation [Sister Peter, who worked in the kitchen], I stayed a little longer than two
months. One day, the Mother Superior [Irene 34 ], wanting to give me a bit of pleasure,
gave me permission to go, together with another sister, 35 to Calvary to “walk the paths,”
as they say. I was delighted. Although it was not very far, it was Mother Superior‟s
wish that we should go by boat. That evening Jesus said to me, I want you to stay
home. I answered, “Jesus, everything is ready for us to leave tomorrow morning; what
am I to do now?” The Lord answered, This trip will be harmful to your soul. I replied
to Jesus, “You can find a way out. Arrange things in such a way that Your will may be
done.” At that moment the bell announced the time for sleep. I gave Jesus a parting
glance and went to my cell.
Next morning the weather was beautiful, and my companion was filled with joy at the
prospect of the great pleasure we would have in getting to see everything. But as for
me, I was sure we would not go, even though there were no obstacles for far.
We were to receive Holy Communion earlier and leave right after the thanksgiving. But
during the time of Communion, all of a sudden, the weather changed. Clouds covered
the sky, and the rain came down in torrents. Everyone was astounded at such a
sudden change in the weather.
(26) Mother Superior said to me, “I am so sorry you cannot go, Sisters!” I answered,
“Dear Mother, it doesn‟t really matter that we cannot go; it was God‟s will that we stay
home.” However, no one knew that it was Jesus‟ express desire that I stay home. I
spent the whole day in recollection and meditation, thanking the Lord for having kept me
home. That day, God granted me many heavenly consolations.
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65 One time during the novitiate, when Mother Directress sent me to work in the wards‟
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