divine-mercy-in-my-soul

1785 Mother Superior [Irene] visited me today, but only for a short while. When she looked
around, she said that everything was too pretty here. It is true, the sisters are trying to
make my stay in the sanatorium pleasant. But all this beauty does not lessen my
sacrifice, which God alone can see and which will cease only when my heart stops
beating. Neither the beauty of the whole earth, nor even of heaven itself, can blur the
torture of my soul, which is real at each moment (134) though so deeply interior. It will
end when You Yourself, Author of my suffering, say, “Enough.” There is nothing that
could lessen my sacrifice.
First Friday after Corpus Christi. [June 17, 1938]
1786 Right away, on the Friday after Corpus Christi, I felt so unwell that I thought the long-for
moment was approaching. I had a high fever and spat up much blood during the night.
Yet, I did go to receive the Lord Jesus in the morning, but I could not stay for the Holy
Mass. In the afternoon, my temperature dropped suddenly to 35.8° C. I felt so weak
that it was as if everything inside me were dying. But when I steeped myself in
profound prayer, I understood that it was not yet the moment of deliverance, but only a
closer call from my Bridegroom.
1787 When I met with the Lord, I said to Him, (135) “You are fooling me, Jesus; You show me
the open gate of heaven, and again You leave me on earth.” The Lord said to me,
When, in heaven, you see these present days, you will rejoice and will want to see
as many of them as possible. I am not surprised, My daughter, that you cannot
understand this now, because your heart is overflowing with pain and longing for
Me. Your vigilance pleases Me. Let My word be enough for you; it will not be
long now.
And my soul found itself once again in exile. I lovingly united myself to the will of God,
submitting myself to His gracious decrees.
1788 + The conversations that I hear in this place about worldly matters make me so tired
that I nearly faint. The sisters who nurse me have noticed this, because it shows
outwardly.
1789 (136) + Today 253 I saw the glory of God which flows from the image. Many souls are
receiving graces, although they do not speak of it openly. Even though it has met up
with all sorts of vicissitudes, God is receiving glory because of it; and the efforts of
Satan and of evil men are shattered and come to naught. In spite of Satan‟s anger, The
Divine Mercy will triumph over the whole world and will be worshipped by all souls.
1790 I have come to know that, in order for God to act in a soul, it must give up acting on its
own; otherwise, God will not carry out his will in it.
1791 When a great storm was approaching, I began to say the chaplet. Suddenly I heard the
voice of an angel: “I cannot approach in (137) this storm, because the light which
comes from her mouth drives back both me and the storm.” Such was the angel‟s
complaint to God. I then recognized how much havoc he was to have made through
this storm; but I also recognized that this prayer was pleasing to God, and that this
chaplet was most powerful.
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