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53 I was very upset by this. I thought that I would get myself free from everything, and it
turned out quite the opposite – an explicit command to follow the requests of Jesus. And
now, still another torment, as I had no permanent confessor. Even if I went to the same
confessor for a certain period of time, I could not open my soul to him in respect to these
graces, and this caused me ineffable pain. So I asked Jesus to give these graces to
someone else, because I did not know how to make use of them and was only wasting
them. “Jesus, have mercy on me; do not entrust such great things to me, as You see that
I am a bit of dust and completely inept.”
But the goodness of Jesus is infinite; He had promised me visible help here on earth, and
a little while later I received it (20) in Vilnius, in the person of Father Sopocko. I had
already known him before coming to Vilnius, thanks to an interior vision. One day I saw
him in our chapel between the altar and the confessional and suddenly heard a voice in
my soul say, This is the visible help for you on earth. He will help you carry out My
will on earth.
54 +One day, tired out with all these uncertainties, I asked Jesus, “Jesus, are You my God or
some kind of phantom? Because my Superiors say that there are all sorts of illusions and
phantoms. If You are my Lord, I beg You to bless me.” Then Jesus made a big sign of
the cross over me and I, too, signed myself. When I asked pardon of Jesus for this
question, He replied that I had in no way displeased Him by this question and that my
confidence pleased Him very much.
55 1933 Spiritual Counsel given Me
by Father Andrasz, S.J.
First: You must not turn away from these interior inspirations, but always tell everything
to your confessor. If you recognize that these interior inspirations refer to your own self;
that is to say, they are for the good of your soul or for the good of other souls, I urge you
to follow them; and you must not neglect them, but always do so in consultation with your
confessor.
Second: If these inspirations are not in accord with the faith or the spirit of the Church,
they must be rejected immediately as coming from the evil spirit.
Third: If these inspirations do not refer to souls, in general, nor specifically to their good,
you should not take them too seriously, and it would be better to even ignore them.
But you should not make this decision by yourself, either one way or the other, as you can
easily be led astray despite these great favors from God. Humility, humility, and ever
humility, as we can do nothing of ourselves; all is purely and simply God‟s grace.
You say to me that God demands great trust from souls; well then, you be the first to
show this trust. And one more word – accept all this with serenity.
(21) Words of one of the confessors: “Sister, God is preparing many special graces for
you, but try to make your life as clear as crystal before the Lord, paying no attention to
what anyone else thinks about you. Let God suffice you; He alone.”
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