divine-mercy-in-my-soul

Would not for a moment fill Your place for me, O God.
With one glance, I penetrated the whole world,
And I found no other love like the love of my heart.
Therefore I looked into the world of eternity –
Because this one is too small for me.
My heart has desired the love of the Immortal One.
My heart has sensed that I am a royal child,
That I have found myself in exile, in a foreign land.
I see that the heavenly palace is my home;
Only there will I feel as in my own fatherland.
You Yourself have drawn my soul to You, O Lord;
O Eternal Word, You Yourself have stooped to me,
Giving my soul a deeper knowledge of Yourself.
Behold, the mystery of love for which You have created me!
Pure love has made me strong and brave.
I fear neither the seraphim nor the cherubim, standing with sword in hand,
(25) And I pass over with ease where others tremble,
Because there is nothing to fear, there where love is the guide.
And suddenly the eye of my soul came to rest upon You,
O Lord Jesus Christ, stretched upon the Cross.
Here is my Love, with whom I will rest in my grave,
This is my Bridegroom, my incomprehensible Lord and God.
[Here occurs a bigger space in the Diary.]
1633 (26) March 10, [1938]. Continuous physical suffering. I am on the cross with Jesus. On one
occasion, M. Superior [Irene] said to me, “It is a lack of love of neighbor on your part, Sister,
that you eat something and then you suffer and disturb the others during their night‟s rest.”
Yet I know for sure that these pains which occur in my intestines are not all caused by food.
The doctor [probably Dr. Silberg] has said the same thing. These sufferings come from the
body itself, or rather are a visitation of the Lord. Nevertheless, after that remark I resolved to
suffer in secret and not to ask for help, because it is of no avail anyway, since I throw up the
medicines that are given to me.
Many a time, I have managed to suffer through attacks that were known only to Jesus. The
pains are so violent and severe that they cause me to lose consciousness. When they cause
me to faint, and I am drenched in cold sweat, then they gradually begin to go away.
Sometimes they last (27) three hours or more. O my Jesus, may Your holy will be done; I
accept everything from Your hand. If I accept the delights and raptures of love to the point of
becoming oblivious to what is going on around me, it is only right that I should accept with
love these sufferings which cause me to faint.
1634 When the doctor 241 came, I could not go down to the parlor to see him, like the other sisters,
but asked that he come to my cell, because I could not go down due to a certain difficulty.
After a while, he came to the cell and, having examined me, said, “I‟ll tell everything to the
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