divine-mercy-in-my-soul

1462 January 6, 1938. Today, when the chaplain [Father Theodore] brought the Lord Jesus,
a light issued from the Host, its light striking my heart and filling me with a great fire of
love. Jesus was letting me know that I should answer the inspirations of grace with
more faithfulness, and that my vigilance should be more subtle.
1463 + The Lord also gave me to know that many bishops were considering the question of
this Feast, as well as a certain lay person. Some were enthusiastic about this work of
God, while others regarded it with disbelief; but in spite of everything, the result was
great glory for the (69) work of God. Mother Irene and Mother Mary Joseph were giving
some kind of a report to these dignitaries, but they were being questioned, not so much
about the work, as about myself. 227 As regards the work itself, there was no doubt,
since the glory of God was already being proclaimed.
1464 I feel much better today. I was glad I would be able to meditate more during the Holy
Hour. Then I heard a voice: You will not be in good health. Do not put off the
Sacrament of Penance, because this displeases Me. Pay little attention to the murmurs
of those around you. This surprised me, because I am feeling better today, but I gave it
no more thought. When the sister switched off the light, I began the holy Hour. But
after a while something went wrong with my heart. I suffered in silence until eleven
o‟clock, but then I began to feel so bad that I woke up Sister N. [probably Sister
Fabiola], who is my roommate, and she gave me some drops, which brought me a little
relief so that I could lie down. I now understand the Lord‟s warning. I decided to call
any priest at all, the next day, and to open (70) the secrets of my soul to him. But that
was not all, for while I was praying for sinners and offering all my sufferings for them,
the Evil Spirit could not stand that.
1465 Taking the form of an apparition he said, “Do not pray for sinners, but for yourself, for
you will be damned.” Paying no attention to Satan, I continued to pray with redoubled
fervor for sinners. The Evil Spirit howled with fury, “Oh, if I had power over you!” and
disappeared. I saw that my suffering and prayer shackled Satan and snatched many
souls from his clutches.
1466 Jesus, lover of human salvation, draw all souls to the divine life. May the greatness of
Your mercy be praised here on earth and in eternity. O great lover of souls, who in
Your boundless compassion opened the salutary fountains of mercy so that weak souls
may be fortified in this life‟s pilgrimage, Your mercy runs through our life like a golden
thread and maintains in good order the contact of our being with God. For He does not
need anything to make Him happy; so everything is (71) solely the work of His mercy.
My senses are transfixed with joy when God grants me a deeper awareness of that
great attribute of His; namely, His unfathomable mercy.
1467 January 7, 1938. First Friday of the month. This morning during Mass, for a brief while,
I saw the suffering Savior. What struck me was that Jesus was so peaceful amidst His
great sufferings. I understood that this was a lesson for me on what my outward
behavior should be in the midst of my various sufferings.
1468 For quite a long while, I felt pain in my hands, feet and side. Then I saw a certain sinner
who, profiting from my sufferings, drew near to the Lord. All this for starving souls that
they may not die of starvation.
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