divine-mercy-in-my-soul

I feel the complete decay of my organism,
Although I am still living and working.
Death will be no tragedy for me,
Because I have long felt it.
Although it is very unpleasant for nature
To constantly smell one‟s own corpse,
Yet it is not so terrible when the soul is filled with God‟s light,
Because in it faith, hope, love and contrition are awakened.
Daily I make great efforts
To take part in community life,
Thereby gaining graces for souls‟ salvation,
Shielding them by my sacrifice from the fire of hell.
For the salvation of even a single soul
Is worth the sacrifice of a lifetime
And the bearing of the greatest sacrifices and torments,
Seeing how great the glory it gives God.
1436 (54) + Lord, although You often make known to me the thunders of Your anger, Your
anger vanishes before lowly souls. Although You are great, Lord, You allow Yourself to
be overcome by a lowly and deeply humble soul. O humility, the most precious of
virtues, how few souls possess you! I see only a semblance of this virtue everywhere,
but not the virtue itself. Lord, reduce me to nothingness in my own eyes that I may find
grace in Yours.
1437 + Christmas Eve [1937]. After Holy Communion, the Mother of God gave me to
experience the anxious concern she had in Her heart because of the Son of God. But
this anxiety was permeated with such fragrance of abandonment to the will of god that I
should call it rather a delight than an anxiety. I understood how my soul ought to accept
the will of God in all things. It is a pity I cannot write this the way I experienced it. My
soul was plunged in deep recollection all day long. Nothing could tear me away from
this recollection, neither duties, nor the business I had with lay people.
1438 (55) Before supper, I went into the chapel for a moment to break the wafer spiritually
with those beloved persons, so dear to my heart, though far away. First, I steeped
myself in a profound prayer and asked the Lord for graces for them all as a group and
then for each one individually. Jesus gave me to know how much this pleased Him, and
my soul was filled with even greater joy to see that God loves in a special way those
whom we love.
1439 + After I had gone into the refectory, during the reading, my whole being found itself
plunged in God. Interiorly, I saw God looking at us with great pleasure. I remained
alone with the Heavenly Father. At that moment, I had a deeper knowledge of the
Three Divine persons, whom we shall contemplate for all eternity and, after millions of
years, shall discover that we have just barely begun our contemplation. Oh, how great
is the mercy of God, who allows man to participate in such a high (56) degree in His
317