divine-mercy-in-my-soul

Blood was spilled. Let them not fear to approach Me; they are most in need of My
mercy.
1276 September 16, 1937. I wanted very much to make a Holy Hour before the Blessed
Sacrament today, but God‟s will was otherwise. At eight o‟clock I was seized with such
violent pains that (31) I had to go to bed at once. I was convulsed with pain for three
hours; that is, until eleven o‟clock at night. No medicine had any effect on me, and
whatever I swallowed I threw up. At times, the pains caused me to lose consciousness.
Jesus had me realize that in this way I took part in His Agony in the Garden, and that He
Himself allowed these sufferings in order to offer reparation to God for the souls murdered
in the wombs of wicked mothers. I have gone through these sufferings three times now.
They always start at eight o‟clock in the evening and last until eleven. No medicine can
lessen these sufferings. When eleven o‟clock comes, they cease by themselves, and I
fall asleep at that moment. The following day, I feel very weak.
This happened to me for the first time when I was at the sanatorium. The doctors couldn‟t
get to the bottom of it, and no injection or medicine helped me at all (32) nor did I myself
have any idea of what the sufferings were about. I told the doctor that never before in my
life had I experienced such sufferings, and he declared he did not know what sort of pains
they are. But now I understand the nature of these pains, because the Lord Himself has
made this known to me…… Yet when I think that I may perhaps suffer in this way again, I
tremble. But I don‟t know whether I‟ll ever again suffer in this way; I leave that to God.
What it pleases God to send, I will accept with submission and love. If only I could save
even one soul from murder by means of these sufferings!
1277 On the day after these sufferings, I can sense the condition of souls and their disposition
towards God; I am pervaded with true knowledge.
1278 I received Holy Communion in the manner of the angels, so to speak. My soul is filled
with God‟s light and nourishes itself from Him. (33) My feelings are as if dead. This is a
purely spiritual union with God; it is a great predominance of spirit over nature.
1279 The Lord gave me knowledge of the graces which He has been constantly lavishing on
me. This light pierced me through and through, and I came to understand the
inconceivable favors that God has been bestowing on me. I stayed in my cell for a long
act of thanksgiving, lying face down on the ground and shedding tears of gratitude. I
could not rise from the ground because, whenever I tried to do so, God‟s light gave me
new knowledge of His grace. It was only at the third attempt that I was able to get up. As
His child, I felt that everything the heavenly Father possessed was equally mine. He
Himself lifted me from the ground up to His Heart. I felt that everything that existed was
exclusively mine, but I had no desire for it all, because God alone is enough for me.
1280 (34) Today I learned with what aversion the Lord comes to a certain soul in Holy
Communion. He goes to that heart as to a dark prison, to undergo torture and affliction. I
kept begging His pardon and offering atonement for the offense.
1281 The Lord made known to me that I would see my brother [Stanley 211 ], but I could not
understand how this would happen or why he should come to visit me. I knew that God
had given him the grace of a religious vocation, but why should he be coming to visit me?
However, I put aside these thoughts and believed that if the Lord had given me to know
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