divine-mercy-in-my-soul

Bid me to stay in this convent, I will stay; bid me to undertake the work, I will undertake it;
leave me in uncertainty about the work until I die, be blessed; give me death when,
humanly speaking, my life seems particularly necessary, be blessed. Should You take
me in my youth, be blessed; should You let me live to a ripe old age, be blessed. Should
You give me health and strength, be blessed; should you confine me to a bed of pain for
my whole life, be blessed. Should you give only failures and disappointments in life, be
blessed. Should You allow my purest intentions to be condemned, be blessed. Should
You enlighten my mind, be blessed. Should You leave me in darkness and all kinds of
(24) torments, be blessed.
From this moment on, I live in the deepest peace, because the Lord Himself is carrying
me in the hollow of His hand. He, Lord of unfathomable mercy, knows that I desire Him
alone in all things, always and everywhere.
1265 Prayer. O Jesus, stretched out upon the cross, I implore You, give me the grace of doing
faithfully the most holy will of Your Father, in all things, always and everywhere. And
when this will of God will seem to me very harsh and difficult to fulfill, it is then I beg You,
Jesus, may power and strength flow upon me from Your wounds, and may my lips keep
repeating, “Your will be done, O Lord.” O Savior of the world, Lover of man‟s salvation,
who in such terrible torment and pain forget Yourself to think only of the salvation of
souls, O most compassionate Jesus, grant me the grace to forget myself that I may live
totally for souls, helping You in the work of salvation, according to the most holy will of
Your Father……..
1266 (25) August 5, [1937]. 209 The Lord let me know how much our dear Mother Superior
[Irene] is defending me against…. Not only by prayer but also by deed. Thank You,
Jesus, for this grace. It will not go unrequited in my heart; when I am with Jesus, I do not
forget about her.
1267 September 6, 1937. Today, I begin a new assignment. I go from the garden to the desert
of the gate. 210 I went in to talk to the Lord for a while. I asked Him for a blessing and for
graces to faithfully carry out the duties entrusted to me. I heard these words: My
daughter, I am always with you. I have given you the opportunity to practice deeds
of mercy which you will perform according to obedience. You will give Me much
pleasure if, each evening, you will speak to Me especially about this task. I felt that
Jesus had given me a new grace in relation to my new duties; but, despite this, I have
locked myself deeper in His Heart.
1268 (26) Today I felt more ill, but Jesus has given me many more opportunities on this day to
practice virtue. It so happened that I was busier than usual, and the sister in charge of
the kitchen made it clear to me how irritated she was that I had come late for dinner,
although it was quite impossible for me to have come sooner. At any rate, I felt so unwell
that I had to ask Mother Superior to allow me to lie down. I went to ask Sister N. to take
my place, and again I got a scolding: “What is this, Sister, you‟re so exhausted that
you‟re going back to bed again! Confound you with all this lying in bed!” I put up with all
that, but that wasn‟t the end. I still had to ask the sister who was in charge of the sick to
bring me my meal. When I told her this, she burst out of the chapel into the corridor after
me to give me a piece of her mind: “Why on earth are you going to bed, Sister, etc……” I
asked her not to bother bringing me anything. (27) I am writing all this very briefly
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