divine-mercy-in-my-soul

1257 I had undertaken to make a novena for the intention of seeing him, but I did not even
finish it before God granted me that grace.
1258 O my Jesus, how poorly I took advantage of this grace, but that did not depend on me,
though from another point of view, it did so very much.
1259 + During this conversation, I came to know his anguished soul. This crucified soul
resembles the Savior. Where he expects, with good reason, to find consolation, he finds
the cross. He lives among many friends, but has no one but Jesus. This is how God
strips the soul He especially loves.
1260 (20) Today I heard these words: My daughter, be always like a little child towards
those who represent Me, otherwise you will not benefit from the graces I bestow on
you through them.
1261 September 1, 1937. I saw the Lord Jesus, like a king in great majesty, looking down upon
our earth with great severity; but because of his Mother‟s intercession He prolonged the
time of His mercy.
1262 September 3. First Friday of the month. During Holy Mass, I became united with God.
Jesus gave me to know that even the smallest thing does not happen on earth without His
will. After having seen this, my soul entered into an unusual repose; I found myself
completely at peace as to the work in its full extent. God can deal with me as He pleases,
and I will bless Him for everything.
1263 (21) Up to now, I have been wondering, with some fear, where these inspirations would
lead me. My fear increased when the Lord made known to me that I was to leave this
Congregation. This is the third year passing by since that time, and my soul has felt, in
turns, enthusiasm and an urge to act – and then I have a lot of courage and strength –
and then again, when the decisive moment to undertake the work draws near, I feel
deserted by God, and because of this an extraordinary fear pervades my soul, and I see
that it is not the hour intended by God to initiate the work. These are sufferings about
which I don‟t even know how to write. God alone knows what I put up with, day and night.
It seems to me that the worst torments of the martyrs would be easier for me to bear than
what I am going through, though without the shedding of a drop of blood. But all this is for
souls, for souls, Lord……
1264 (22) Act of total abandonment to the will of God, which is for me, love and mercy itself.
Act of Oblation
Jesus-Host, whom I have this very moment received into my heart, through this union
with You I offer myself to the heavenly Father as a sacrificial host, abandoning myself
totally and completely to the most merciful and holy will of my God. From today onward,
Your will, Lord, is my food. Take my whole being; dispose of me as You please.
Whatever Your fatherly hand gives me, I will accept with submission, peace and joy. I
fear nothing, no matter in what direction You lead me; helped by Your grace I will carry
out everything You demand of me. I no longer fear any of Your inspirations nor (23) do I
probe anxiously to see where they will lead me. Lead me, O God, along whatever roads
You please; I have placed all my trust in Your will which is, for me, love and mercy itself.
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