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939 There is an exception [to this], and that is when God Himself directs the person, but the
director (288) will immediately recognize that the person in question is being guided by
God Himself. God will allow him to know this clearly and distinctly, and such a person
should be even more under the director‟s control than anyone else. In this case, the
director does not so much guide and point out the road along which the soul is to journey;
but rather, he judges and confirms that the soul is following the right path and is being led
by a good spirit.
In this situation, the director should be not only holy, but also experienced and prudent,
and the soul should give priority to his opinion over that of God Himself, for then the soul
will be safe from illusions and deviations. A soul that will not fully submit its inspirations to
the strict control of the Church; that is, to the director, clearly shows by this that a bad
spirit is guiding it. The director should be extremely prudent in such cases and test the
soul‟s obedience. Satan can even clothe himself in a cloak of humility, but he does not
know how to ear the cloak of obedience (289) and thus his evil designs will be disclosed.
But the director should not be overly afraid of such a soul, because if God puts that
special soul in his care, He will also give him great divine light regarding it, for otherwise
how could he deal wisely with the great mysteries which take place between the soul and
God.
940 I myself suffered a great deal and was much tried in this respect. Therefore, I am writing
only about what I myself have experienced. It was only after many novenas, prayers and
penances that God sent me a priest who understood my soul. Oh, there would be many
more saintly souls if there were more experienced and saintly confessors. Many a soul,
earnestly striving for sanctity, cannot manage by itself during times of trial and abandons
the road to perfection.
941 O Jesus, give us fervent and holy priest! Oh, how great is the dignity of the priest, but at
the same time, how great is his responsibility! Much has been given you, O priest, but
much will also be demanded of you………
942 (290) February 11, [1937]. Today is Friday. During Mass, I suffered pain in my body: in
my hands, my feet and my side. Jesus is sending me this kind of suffering that I may
make reparation for sinners. The pain is brief, but very severe. I do not suffer for more
than a couple of minutes, but the impression remains for along time and is very vivid.
943 + Today, I feel such desolation in my soul that I do not know how to explain it even to
myself. I would like to hide from people and cry endlessly. No one understands a heart
wounded by love, and when such a heart feels itself abandoned interiorly, no one can
comfort it. O souls of sinners, you have taken the Lord away from me, but all right, all
right; you get to know how sweet the Lord is, and let the whole sea of bitterness flood my
heart. I have given all my divine comforts to you.
944 + There are moments when I mistrust myself, when I feel my own weakness and
wretchedness in the most profound depths of my own being, and I have noticed that I can
endure such moments only by trusting in the infinite mercy (291) of God. Patience,
prayer and silence – these are what give strength to the soul. There are moments when
one should be silent, and when it would be inappropriate to talk with creatures; these are
the moments when one is dissatisfied with oneself, and when the soul feels as weak as a
little child. Then the soul clings to God with all its might. At such times, I live solely by
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