divine-mercy-in-my-soul

815 Jesus, my Love, today gave me to understand how much He loves me, although there
is such an enormous gap between us, the Creator and the creature; and yet, in a way,
there is something like equality: loves fills up the gap. He Himself descends to me
and makes me capable of communing with Him. I immerse myself in Him, losing
myself as it were; and yet, under His loving gaze, my soul gains strength and power
and an awareness that it loves and is especially loved. It knows that the Mighty One
protects it. Such prayer, though short, benefits the soul greatly, and whole hours of
ordinary prayer do not give the soul that light which is given by a brief moment of this
higher form of prayer.
816 (207) + This afternoon, I had my first open-air rest [on the sunny veranda at the
sanatorium]. Sister Felicia 151 visited me today and brought a few necessary things
and some lovely apples and words of greeting from our beloved Mother Superior and
dear sisters.
December 13, [1936]. Confession before Jesus.
817 When I reflected that I had not been to confession for more than three weeks, I wept
seeing the sinfulness of my soul and certain difficulties. I had not gone to confession
because the circumstances made it impossible. On the day of confessions, I had
been confined to bed. The following week, confessions were in the afternoon, and I
had left for the hospital that morning. This afternoon, Father Andrasz came into my
room and sat down to hear my confession. Beforehand, we did not exchange a single
word. I was delighted because I was extremely anxious to go to confession. As
usual, I unveiled my whole soul. Father gave a reply to each little detail. I felt
unusually happy to be able (208) to say everything as I did. For penance, he gave me
the Litany of the Holy Name of Jesus. When I wanted to tell him of the difficulty I have
in saying this litany, he rose and began to give me absolution. Suddenly his figure
became diffused with a great light, and I saw that it was not Father A., but Jesus. His
garments were bright as snow, and He disappeared immediately. At first, I was a little
uneasy, but after a while a kind of peace entered my soul; and I took note of the fact
that Jesus heard the confession in the same way that confessors do; and yet
something was wondrously transpiring in my heart during this confession; I couldn‟t at
first understand what it signified.
818 December 16, [1936]. I have offered this day for Russia. I have offered all my
sufferings and prayers for that poor country. After Holy Communion, Jesus said to
me, I cannot suffer that country any longer. Do not tie my hands, My daughter.
(209) I understood that if it had not been for the prayers of souls that are pleasing to
God, that whole nation would have already been reduced to nothingness. Oh, how I
suffer for that nation which has banished God from its borders!
819 + O inexhaustible spring of Divine Mercy, pour yourself out upon us! Your goodness
knows no limits. Confirm, O Lord, the power of Your mercy over the abyss of my
misery, for You have no limit to Your mercies. Wonderful and matchless is Your
mercy, astonishing the human and angelic mind.
820 My Guardian Angel told me to pray for a certain soul, and in the morning I learned that
it was a man whose agony had begun that very moment. The Lord Jesus makes it
known to me in a special way when someone is in need of my prayer. I especially
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