divine-mercy-in-my-soul

702 August 13, 1936. Tonight God‟s presence is pervading me, and in an instant I come
to know the great holiness of God. Oh, how the greatness of God overwhelms me! I
then come to know the whole depth of my nothingness. This is a great torment, for
this knowledge is followed by love. The soul bounds forward vehemently toward God,
and the two loves come face to face: the Creator and the creature; (141) one little
drop seeks to measure itself with the ocean. At first, the little drop wants to enclose
the infinite ocean within itself; but at the same moment, it knows itself to be just one
small drop, and thus it is vanquished, and it passes completely into God like a drop
into the ocean. At first, this moment is a torment, but so sweet that, on experiencing it,
the soul is happy.
703 At present, the topic of my particular examen is my union with the Merciful Christ!
This practice gives me unusual strength; my heart is always united with the One it
desires, and its actions are regulated by mercy, which flows from love.
704 I spend every free moment at the feet of the hidden God. He is my Master; I ask Him
about everything; I speak to Him about everything. Here I obtain strength and light;
here I learn everything; here I am given light on how to act toward my neighbor. From
the time (142) I left the novitiate, I have enclosed myself in the tabernacle together
with Jesus, my Master. He Himself drew me into the fire of living love on which
everything converges.
705 September 25. I suffer great pain in my hands, feet and side, the places where Jesus‟
body was pierced. I experience these pains particularly when I meet with a soul who
is not in the state of grace. Then I pray fervently that the mercy of God will embrace
that soul.
706 [September] 29. On the Feast of Saint Michael the Archangel, I saw by my side that
great Leader, who spoke these words to me: “The Lord has ordered me to take
special care of you. Know that you are hated by evil; but do not fear – “”Who is like
God!‟ “ And he disappeared. But I feel his presence and assistance.
707 (143) October 2, 1936. The First Friday of the month. After Holy Communion, I
suddenly saw the Lord Jesus, who spoke these words to me: Now I know that it is
not for the graces or gifts that you love me, but because My will is dearer to you
than life. That is why I am uniting Myself with you so intimately as with no other
creature.
708 At that moment, Jesus disappeared. My soul was filled with the presence of God. I
know that the gaze of the Mighty One rests upon me. I plunged myself completely in
the joy that flows from God. I continued throughout the whole day without interruption,
thus immersed in God. In the evening, I fell as if into a faint and a strange sort of
agony. My love wants to equal the love of the Mighty One. It is drawn to Him so
vehemently that it is impossible, without some special grace from God, to bear the
vastness of such a grace in this life. But I see clearly that Jesus Himself is sustaining
me and strengthening me and making me capable of communing with Him. In all this,
the soul is particularly active.
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