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express this mercy of God, all this would be nothing in comparison with what it is in
reality. O Jesus, make my heart sensitive to all the sufferings of my neighbor, whether
of body or of soul. O my Jesus, I know that You act toward us as we act toward our
neighbor.
My Jesus, make my heart like unto Your merciful Heart. Jesus, help me to go through
life doing good to everyone.
693 (133) September 14, [1936]. The Archbishop [Jalbrzykowski] of Vilnius visited us.
Although he stayed with us for a very short time, I still had a chance to talk with this
worthy priest about the work of mercy. He showed himself very favorably disposed to
this cause of mercy: “Sister, be completely at peace; if this is within the plans of divine
providence, it will come about. In the meantime, Sister, pray for a clearer outward
sign. Let the Lord Jesus give you a clearer knowledge of this. I beg you to wait a little
while longer. The Lord Jesus will arrange the circumstances in such a way that
everything will turn out all right.”
694 September 19, 1936. When we left the doctor‟s 137 [office] and stepped into the
sanatorium chapel for a moment, I heard these words in my soul: My child, just a
few more drops in your chalice; it won‟t be long now. Joy (134) filled my soul; this
was the first call from my beloved Spouse and Master. My heart melted, and there
was a moment when my soul was immersed in the whole sea of God‟s mercy. I felt
that my mission was beginning in all its fullness. Death destroys nothing that is good.
I pray most of all for souls that are experiencing inner sufferings.
695 Once, I received light concerning two sisters. I understood that it is not possible for a
person to act in the same manner towards everyone. There are some people who
have a strange way of making friends with others. And then, as friends and under the
pretext of that friendship, they manage to draw the person out, word by word. Then,
when the right moment comes, they use those very same words to hurt that person.
My Jesus, how strange is human frailty! Your love, Jesus, gives the soul this great
prudence in its dealings with others.
696 (135) + September 24, 1936.
Mother Superior [Irene] ordered me to say one decade of the rosary in place of all the
other exercises, and to go to bed at once. As soon as I lay down I fell asleep, for I
was very tired. But a while later, I was awakened by suffering. It was such a great
suffering that it prevented me from making even the slightest movement; I could not
even swallow my saliva. This lasted for about three hours. I thought of waking up the
novice sister 138 who shared my room, but then I thought, “She cannot give me any
help, so let her sleep. It would be a pity to wake her.” I resigned myself completely to
the will of God and thought that the day of my death, so much desired, had come. It
was an occasion for me to unite myself with Jesus, suffering on the Cross. Beyond
that, I was unable to pray. When the suffering ceased, I began (136) to perspire. But
I still could not move, as the pain would return at each attempt. In the morning, I felt
very tired, though I felt no further physical pain. Still, I could not get up to attend
Mass. I thought to myself, if after such suffering death does not come, then how great
the sufferings of death must be!
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