divine-mercy-in-my-soul

651 O Incomprehensible God, how great is Your mercy! It surpasses the combined
understanding of all men and angels. All the angels (107) and all humans have
emerged from the very depths of Your tender mercy. Mercy is the flower of love.
God is love, and mercy is His deed. In love it is conceived; in mercy it is revealed.
Everything I look at speaks to me of God‟s mercy. Even God‟s very justice speaks
to me about His fathomless mercy, because justice flows from love.
652 There is one word I heed and continually ponder; it alone is everything to me; I live
by it and die by it, and it is the holy will of God. It is my daily food. My whole soul
listens intently to God‟s wishes. I do always what God asks of me, although my
nature often quakes and I feel that the magnitude of these things is beyond my
strength. I know well what I am of myself, but I also know what the grace of God
is, which supports me.
653 (108) April 25, 1936. Walendow. On that day, the suffering in my soul was more
severe than ever before. From early morning, I felt as if my body and soul had
separated. I felt that God‟s presence had penetrated my whole being; I felt all the
justice of God within me; I felt I stood alone before God. I thought: one word from
my spiritual director would set me entirely at peace; but what can I do? – he is not
here. However, I decided to seek light in holy confession. When I uncovered my
soul to the priest, 134 he was afraid to continue hearing my confession, and that
caused me even greater suffering. When I see that a priest is fearful, I do not
obtain any inner peace. So I have decided that only to my spiritual director will I
open my soul in all matters, from the greatest to the least, and that I will follow his
directions strictly.
654 Now I understand that confession is only the confessing (109) of one‟s sins, and
spiritual guidance is a different thing altogether. But this is not what I want to
speak about. I want to tell about a strange thing that happened to me for the first
time. When the confessor started talking to me, I did not understand a single word.
Then I saw Jesus Crucified and He said to me, It is in My Passion that you must
seek light and strength. After the confession, I meditated on Jesus‟ terrible
Passion, and I understood that what I was suffering was nothing compared to the
Savior‟s Passion, and that even the smallest imperfection was the cause of this
terrible suffering. Then my soul was filled with very great contrition, and only then I
sensed that I was in the sea of the unfathomable mercy of God. Oh, how few
words I have to express what I am experiencing! I feel I am like a drop of dew
engulfed in the depths of the bottomless ocean of divine mercy.
655 (110) + May 11, 1936. I came to Cracow. I was happy that at last I shall be able
to carry out all that the Lord Jesus was demanding.
Once, when I was speaking with Father A…. [Andrasz] and had told him
everything, I received this answer: “Sister, pray till the day of the Feast of the Most
Sacred Heart and add some mortification to the prayer, and on the Feast of the
Sacred Heart I will give you an answer.” But one day, I heard this voice in my soul:
Fear nothing; I am with you. After these words, I felt such an urgency within me
that, without waiting for the Feast of the Sacred Heart, I said during confession that
I was going to leave the Congregation immediately. Father answered, “Sister,
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