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ightness to brightness, an unchanging light, but never monotonous, always new
though never changing. O Holy Trinity, make yourself known to souls!
593 O my Jesus, nothing is better for the soul than humiliations. In contempt is the
secret of happiness, when the soul recognizes that, of itself, it is only
wretchedness and nothingness, and that whatever it possesses of good is a gift of
God. When the soul sees that everything is given it freely and that the only thing it
has of itself is its own misery, this is what sustains it in a continual act of humble
prostration before the majesty of God. And God, seeing the soul in such a
disposition, pursues it with His graces. As the soul continues to immerse itself
more deeply into the abyss of its nothingness and need, God uses His
omnipotence to exalt it. If there is a truly happy soul upon earth, it can only be (57)
a truly humble soul. At first, one‟s self-love suffers greatly on this account, but
after a soul has struggled courageously. God grants it much light by which it sees
how wretched and full of deception everything is. God alone is in its heart. A
humble soul does not trust itself, but places all its confidence in God. God defends
the humble soul and lets Himself into its secrets, and the soul abides in
unsurpassable happiness which no one can comprehend.
594 One evening, one of the deceased sisters, who had already visited me a few times,
appeared to me. The first time I had seen her, she had been in great suffering,
and then gradually these sufferings had diminished; this time she was radiant with
happiness, and she told me she was already in heaven. She told me that God had
tried (58) our house with tribulation because Mother General [Michael] had given in
to doubts, not believing what I had said about this soul. And further, as a sign that
she only now was in heaven, God would bless our house. Then she came closer
to me, embraced me sincerely and said, “I must go now.” I understood how closely
the three stages of a soul‟s life are bound together; that is to say, life on earth, in
purgatory and in heaven [the Communion of Saints].
595 I have noticed many times that God tries certain people on account of those things
about which He spoke to me, for mistrust displeases Jesus. Once, when I saw that
God had tried a certain Archbishop [Jalbrzykowski] because he was opposed to
the cause and distrustful of it, I felt sorry for him and pleaded with God for him, and
God relieved his suffering. God is very displeased with lack of trust in Him, and
this is why some souls lose many graces. Distrust (59) hurts His most sweet
Heart, which is full of goodness and incomprehensible love for us. A priest should
sometimes be distrustful in order to better ascertain the genuineness of gifts
bestowed on a given soul; and when he does so in order to direct the soul to
deeper union with God, his will be a great and incomprehensible reward indeed.
But there is a great difference between this and disrespect and distrust of divine
graces in a soul simply because one cannot comprehend and penetrate these
things with one‟s mind, and this latter is displeasing to the Lord. I greatly pity souls
who encounter inexperienced priests.
596 Once, a certain priest [Father Sopocko 124 ] asked me to pray for him. I promised to
pray, and asked for mortification. When I received permission for (60) a certain
mortification, I felt a great desire to give up all the graces that God‟s goodness
would intend for me that day in favor of that priest, and I asked the Lord Jesus to
deign to bestow on me all the sufferings and afflictions, both exterior and spiritual,
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