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484 On a certain occasion, I understood how very displeased God is with an act,
however commendable, that does not bear the stamp of a pure intention. Such
deeds incite God to punishment rather than to reward. May such deeds be as few
as possible in our lives; indeed, in religious life, there should be none at all.
485 I accept joy or suffering, praise or humiliation with the same disposition. I remember
that one and the other are passing. What does it matter to me what people say
about me? I have long ago given up everything that concerns my person. My
name is host – or sacrifice, not in words but in deeds, in the emptying of myself
and in becoming like You on the Cross, O Good Jesus, my Master!
486 (201) Jesus, when You come to me in Holy Communion, You who, together with
the Father and the Holy Spirit, have deigned to dwell in the little heaven of my
heart, I try to keep You company throughout the day, I do not leave You alone for
even a moment. Although I am in the company of other people or with our wards,
my heart is always united to Him. When I am asleep I offer Him every beat of my
heart; when I awaken I immerse myself in Him without saying a word. When I
awaken I adore the Holy Trinity for a short while and thank God for having deigned
to give me yet another day, that the mystery of the incarnation of His Son may
once more be repeated in me, and that once again His sorrowful Passion may
unfold before my eyes. I then try to make it easier for Jesus to pass through me to
other souls. I go everywhere with Jesus; His presence accompanies me
everywhere.
487 In the sufferings of soul or body, I try to keep silence, for then my spirit gains the
strength that flows from the Passion of Jesus. I have ever before my eyes His
sorrowful Face, abused and disfigured, His divine Heart pierced by our sins and
especially by the ingratitude of chose souls.
488 Twice I was exhorted to make myself ready for sufferings awaiting me in Warsaw.
The first warning was given interiorly by a voice I heard, and the second took place
during Holy Mass. Before the elevation, I saw the Lord Jesus on the Cross and He
said to me, Prepare yourself for sufferings. I thanked the Lord for the grace of
this warning and said to Him, “I am certainly not going to suffer more than You, my
Savior.” However, I took this to heart and kept strengthening myself through
prayer and little sufferings so that I would be able to endure it when the greater
ones come.
(202) October 19, 1935.
Trip from Vilnius to Cracow for an Eight-day Retreat.
489 On Friday evening during the rosary, when I was thinking about tomorrow‟s journey
and about the importance of the matter which I was to present to Father
Andrasz, 101 fear seized me at the sight of my misery and incapability, and of the
greatness of God‟s work. Crushed by this suffering, I submitted myself to the will
of God. At that moment, I saw Jesus, in a bright garment, near my kneeler. He
said, Why are you afraid to do My will? Will I not help you as I have done
thus far? Repeat every one of My demands to those who represent Me on
earth, but do only what they tell you to do. At that, a certain strength entered
my soul.
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