divine-mercy-in-my-soul

459 Throughout that entire meditation I saw the Lord Jesus on the altar, in a white
garment, His hand holding the notebook in which I write these things. Throughout
the entire meditation Jesus kept turning the pages of the notebook and remained
silent; however, my heart could not bear the fire that was enkindled in my soul.
Despite the great effort of my will to take control of myself and not let others see
what was going on in my soul, toward the end of the meditation I felt that I was
completely beyond my own control. Then Jesus said to me, You have not written
everything in the notebook about My goodness towards humankind; I desire
that you omit nothing; I desire that your heart be firmly grounded in total
peace.
460 O Jesus, my heart stops beating when I think of all You are doing for me! I am
amazed at You, Lord, that You would stoop so low to my wretched soul! What
inconceivable means You take to convince me!
461 This is the first time in my life that I have made such a retreat. I understand in a
special and clear way every single word that Father speaks, for I have first
experienced it all in my soul. I now see that Jesus will not leave in doubt any soul
that loves Him sincerely. Jesus wants the soul that is in close communion with
Him to be filled with peace, despite sufferings and adversities.
462 Now I understand well that what unites our soul most closely to God is self-denial;
that is, joining our will to the will of God. This is what makes the soul truly free,
contributes to profound recollection of the spirit, and makes all life‟s burdens light,
and death sweet.
463 (192) Jesus told me that if I should have any doubts regarding the feast or the
founding of the Congregation, - or regarding anything else about which I have
spoken in the depths of your soul, I will reply immediately through the mouth
of this priest.
464 During a meditation on humility, an old doubt returned: that a soul as miserable as
mine could not carry out the task which the Lord was demanding [of me]. Just as I
was analyzing this doubt, the priest who was conducting the retreat interrupted his
train of thought and spoke about the very thing I was having doubts about; namely,
that God usually chooses the weakest and simplest souls as tools for His greatest
works; that we can see that this is an undeniable truth when we look at the men He
chose to be His apostles; or again, when we look at the history of the Church and
see what great works were done by souls that were the least capable of
accomplishing them; for it is just in this way that God‟s works are revealed for what
they are, the works of God. When my doubt had completely disappeared, the
priest resumed his conference on humility.
465 Jesus, my Life, how well I feel that You are transforming me into Yourself, in the
secrecy of my soul where the senses can no longer perceive much. O my Savior,
conceal me completely in the depths of Your Heart and shield me with Your rays
against everything that is not You. I beg You, Jesus, let the two rays that have
issued from Your most merciful Heart continuously nourish my soul.
466 (193) Time of Confession
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