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mortal agony. And while the executioners had been scourging Him, Jesus had
been silent and looking into the distance; but when those other souls I mentioned
scourged Him, Jesus closed His eyes, and a soft but most painful moan escaped
from His Heart. And Jesus gave me to know in detail the gravity of the malice of
the ungrateful souls: You see, this is a torture greater than My death. Then my
lips too fell silent, and I began to experience (186) the agony of death, and I felt
that no one would comfort me or snatch me from that state but the One who had
put me into it. Then the Lord said to me, I see the sincere pain of your heart
which brought great solace to My Heart. See and take comfort.
446 Then I saw the Lord Jesus nailed to the cross. When He had hung on it for a
while, I saw a multitude of souls crucified like Him. Then I saw a second multitude
of souls, and a third. The second multitude was not nailed to [their] crosses, but
were holding them firmly in their hands. The third were neither nailed to [their]
crosses nor holding them firmly in their hands, but were dragging [their]crosses
behind them and were discontent. Jesus then said to me. Do you see these
souls? Those who are like Me in the pain and contempt they suffer will be
like Me also in glory. And those who resemble Me less in paid and contempt
will also bear less resemblance to Me in glory.
Among the crucified souls, the most numerous were those of the clergy. I also saw
some crucified souls whom I knew, and this gave me great joy. Then Jesus said to
me, In your meditation tomorrow, you shall think about what you have seen
today. And immediately Jesus disappeared on me.
447 Friday. I was ill and could not attend Holy Mass. At seven o‟clock in the morning I
saw my confessor celebrating Holy Mass, during which I saw the Child Jesus.
Toward the end of Mass, the vision disappeared, and I found myself back in my
cell as before. Indescribable joy took hold of me because, although I could not go
to Mass in our chapel, I had assisted at it in a church which was far distant. Jesus
has a remedy for everything.
(187) July 30, 1935.
448 Feast of St. Ignatius. I prayed fervently to this Saint, reproaching him for looking
on and not coming to my aid in such important matters as doing the will of God. I
said to him, “You, our Patron, who were inflamed with the fire of love and zeal for
the greater glory of God, I humbly beg you to help me to carry out God‟s
designs.” 97 This was during Holy Mass. Then I saw Saint Ignatius at the left side
of the altar, with a large book in his hand. And he spoke these words to me, “My
daughter, I am not indifferent to your cause. This rule can be adapted, and it can
be adapted to this Congregation.” And gesturing with his hand toward the big
book, he disappeared. I rejoiced greatly at the fact of how much the saints think of
us and of how closely we are united with them. Oh, the goodness of God! How
beautiful is the spiritual world, that already here on earth we commune with the
saints! All day long, I could feel the presence of this dear Patron Saint.
August 5, 1935. The Feast of Our Lady of Mercy.
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