divine-mercy-in-my-soul

433 (180) May, 1935. During a Forty Hours Devotion I saw the face of the Lord Jesus
in the Sacred Host which was exposed in the monstrance. Jesus was looking with
kindness at everyone.
434 I often see the Child Jesus during Holy Mass. He is extremely beautiful. He
appears to be about one year old. Once, when I saw the same Child during Mass
in our chapel, I was seized with a violent desire and an irresistible longing to
approach the altar and take the Child Jesus. At that moment, the Child Jesus was
standing by me on the side of my kneeler, and He leaned with His two little hands
against my shoulder, gracious and joyful, His look deep and penetrating. But when
the priest broke the Host, Jesus was once again on the altar, and was broken and
consumed by the priest.
After Holy Communion, I saw Jesus in the same way in my heart and felt Him
physically in my heart throughout the day. Unconsciously, a most profound
recollection took possession of me, and I did not exchange a word with anyone. I
avoided people as much as I could, always answering questions regarding my
duties, but beyond that, not a word.
June 9, 1935. Pentecost.
435 As I was walking in the garden in the evening, I heard these words: By your
entreaties, you and your companions shall obtain mercy for yourselves and
for the world. I understood that I would not remain in the Congregation in which I
am at the present time. 95 I saw clearly that God‟s will regarding me was otherwise.
But I kept making excuses before God, telling Him that I was unable to carry out
this task. “Jesus, You know very well what I am” [I said], and I started enumerating
my weaknesses to the Lord, hiding behind them so that He would agree that I was
unable to carry out (181) His plans. Then I heard these words: Do not fear; I
Myself will make up for everything that is lacking in you. But these words
penetrated me to my depths and made me even more aware of my misery, and I
understood that the word of the Lord is living and that it penetrates to the very
depths. I understood that God demands a more perfect way of life of me.
However, I kept using my incompetence as an excuse.
436 June 29, 1935. When I talked to my spiritual director [Father Sopocko] about
various things that the Lord was asking of me, I thought he would tell me that I was
incapable of accomplishing all those things, and that the Lord Jesus did not use
miserable souls like me for the works He wanted done. But I heard words [to the
effect] that it was just such souls that God chooses most frequently to carry out His
plans. This priest is surely guided by the Spirit of God; he has penetrated the
secrets of my soul, the deepest secrets which were between me and God, about
which I had not yet spoken to him, because I had not understood them myself, and
the Lord had not clearly ordered me to tell him. The secret is this: God demands
that there be a congregation which will proclaim the mercy of God to the world and,
by its prayers, obtain it for the world. When the priest asked me if I had not had
any such inspirations, I replied that I had not had any clear orders; but at that
instant a light penetrated my soul, and I understood that the Lord was speaking
through him.
131