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and you haven‟t even learned the catechism. So how do you know?” To this He
answered, I know; I know all things. And with that, He disappeared.
428 But I could no longer get to sleep; my mind became exhausted by thinking about
the things I had seen. O human souls, how late you learn the truth! O abyss of
God‟s mercy, pour yourself out as quickly as possible over the whole world,
according to what You Yourself have said.
May, 1935. A Certain Moment.
429 When I became aware of God‟s great plans for me, I was frightened at their
greatness and felt myself quite incapable of fulfilling them, and I began to avoid
interior conversations with Him, filling up the time with vocal prayer. I did this out
of humility, but I soon recognized it was not true humility, but rather a great
temptation from the devil. When, on one occasion, instead of interior prayer, I took
up a book of spiritual reading, I heard these words spoken distinctly and forcefully
within my soul, You will prepare the world for My final coming. These words
moved me deeply, and although I pretended (179) not to hear them, I understood
them very well and had no doubt about them. Once, being tired out from this battle
of love with God, and making constant excuses on the grounds that I was unable
to carry out this task, I wanted to leave the chapel, but some force held me back
and I found myself powerless. Then I heard these words, You intend to leave the
chapel, but you shall not get away from Me, for I am everywhere. You cannot
do anything of yourself, but with Me you can do all things.
430 When, in the course of the week, I went to see my confessor [Father Sopocko],
and revealed the condition of my soul to him, especially the fact that I was avoiding
interior conversation with God, I was told that I must not shrink from interior
conversation with God, but should listen intently to the words He speaks to me.
431 I followed my confessor‟s advice, and at the first meeting with the Lord, I fell at
Jesus‟ feet and, with a grief-stricken heart, apologized for everything. Then Jesus
lifted me up from the ground and sat me beside Him and let me put my head on
His breast, so that I could better understand and feel the desires of His most sweet
Heart. Then he spoke these words to me, My daughter, have fear of nothing; I
am always with you. All your adversaries will harm you only to the degree
that I permit them to do so. You are my dwelling place and my constant
repose. For your sake I will withhold the hand which punishes; for your sake
I bless the earth.
432 At that very moment, I felt some kind of fire in my heart. I feel my senses
deadening and have no idea of what is going on around me. I feel the Lord‟s gaze
piercing me through and through. I am very much aware of His greatness and my
misery. An extraordinary suffering pervades my soul, together with a joy I cannot
compare to anything. If eel powerless in the embrace of God. I feel that I am in
Him and that I am dissolved in Him like a drop of water in the ocean. I cannot
express what takes place within me; after such interior prayer, I feel strength and
power to practice the most difficult virtues. I feel dislike for all things that the world
holds in esteem. With all my soul I desire silence and solitude.
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