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394 During the renewal of the vows, 91 I saw the Lord Jesus on the Epistle side [of the
altar], wearing a white garment with a golden belt and holding a terrible sword in
His hand. This lasted until the moment when the sisters began to renew their
vows. Then I saw resplendence beyond compare and, in front of this brilliance, a
white cloud in the shape of a scale. Then Jesus approached and put the sword on
one side of the scale, and it fell heavily towards the ground until it was about to
touch it. Just then, the sisters finished renewing their vows. Then I saw Angels
who took something from each of the sisters and placed it in a golden vessel
somewhat in the shape of a thurible. When they had collected it from all the sisters
and placed the vessel on the other side of the scale, it immediately outweighed
and raised up the side on which the sword had been laid. At that moment, a flame
issued forth from the thurible, and it reached all the way to the brilliance. Then I
heard a voice coming from the brilliance: Put the sword back in its place; the
sacrifice is greater. Then Jesus gave us His blessing, and all I had seen
vanished. The sisters had already begun to receive Holy Communion. When I
received Holy Communion, my soul was filled with such great joy that I am unable
to describe it.
395 [February] 15, 1935. A visit for a few days to my family home 92 to see my dying
mother.
When I learned that my mother was seriously ill and near death, and that she had
asked that I come home, as she wanted to see me once more before dying, a host
of emotions were awakened in my heart. As a child who sincerely loves its mother,
I wanted very much to fulfill her wish. But I left this to God and resigned myself
completely to His will. Paying no heed to the ache in my heart, I followed God‟s
will. On the morning of my name day, February fifteen, (166) Mother Superior
gave me a second letter from my family and granted me permission to go to my
parents‟ home to fulfill the wish and request of my dying mother. I began at once
to make the necessary preparations for the journey and left Vilnius in the evening.
I offered the whole night for my seriously ill mother, that God might grant her the
grace of losing none of the merits of her suffering.
396 My traveling companions were very kind; several women of the Sodality of Mary
were in the same compartment with me. I sensed that one of them was suffering
greatly and fighting a difficult battle in her soul. I began to pray in spirit for this
soul. At eleven o‟clock these women went to another compartment for a chat,
leaving only the two of us behind in the carriage. I could feel that my prayer was
causing this soul‟s struggle to become even fiercer. I did not console her, but
prayed all the more fervently. Finally, the lady turned to me and asked if she was
obliged to fulfill a certain promise which she had made to God. At that moment, I
received inner knowledge of the promise and replied, “You are absolutely obliged
to keep it, or else you will be miserable for the rest of your life. This thought will
pursue you everywhere and give you no peace.” Surprised at my answer, she
opened her soul to me.
She was a schoolteacher. When she was about to take her examinations, she had
promised God that if she did well in her examinations she would devote herself to
His service; that is, enter a religious congregation. She passed the examinations
very well. “But,” she said, “when I entered into the hustle and bustle of the world, I
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