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mortification; but there was a mortification of the will in that I was not doing [simply]
what I like, but what I was told to do, and it is in this that interior mortification consists.
When I left the confessional and started to recite my penance, I heard these words: I
have granted the grace you asked for on behalf of that soul, but not because of
the mortification you chose for yourself, but because of the act of complete
obedience to My representative did I grant grace to that soul for whom you
interceded and begged mercy. Know that when you mortify your own self-will,
then Mine reigns within you.
366 O my Jesus, be patient with me. I will be more careful in the future. I will rely, not
upon myself, but upon Your grace and Your very great goodness to miserable me.
367 (154) +On one occasion, Jesus gave me to know that when I pray for intentions which
people are wont to entrust to me, He is always ready to grant His graces, but souls do
not always want to accept them: My Heart overflows with great mercy for souls,
and especially for poor sinners. If only they could understand that I am the best
of Fathers to them and that it is for them that the Blood and Water flowed from
My Heart as from a fount overflowing with mercy. For them I dwell in the
tabernacle as King of Mercy. I desire to bestow My graces upon souls, but they
do not want to accept them. You, at least, come to Me as often as possible and
take these graces they do not want to accept. In this way you will console My
Heart. Oh, how indifferent are souls to so much goodness, to so many proofs of
love! My Heart drinks only of the ingratitude and forgetfulness of souls living in
the world. They have time for everything, but they have no time to come to Me
for graces.
So I turn to you, you – chosen souls, will you also fail to understand the love of
My Heart? Here, too, My Heart finds disappointment; I do not find complete
surrender to My love. So many reservations, so much distrust, so much
caution. To comfort you, let Me tell you that there are souls living in the world
who love Me dearly. I dwell in their hearts with delight. But they are few. In
convents too, there are souls that fill My Heart with joy. They bear My features;
therefore the Heavenly Father looks upon them with special pleasure. They will
be a marvel to Angels and men. Their number is very small. They are a defense
for the world before the justice of the Heavenly Father and a means of obtaining
mercy for the world. The love and sacrifice of these souls sustain the world in
existence. The infidelity of a soul especially chosen by Me wounds My Heart
most painfully. Such infidelities are swords which pierce My Heart.
368 (155) January 29, 1935. This Tuesday morning during meditation, I had an interior
vision of the Holy Father saying Mass. After the Pater Noster, he talked to Jesus
about that matter which Jesus had ordered me to tell him. Although I have not spoken
to the Holy Father personally, this matter was taken care of by someone else [Father
Sopocko 87 ]; at this moment, however, I knew by interior knowledge that the Holy
Father was considering this matter, which will soon come to pass in accordance with
the desires of Jesus.
369 Before the eight-day retreat, I went to my spiritual director and asked him for certain
mortifications for the time of the retreat. However, I did not receive permission for
everything I asked for, but for some things only. I received permission for one hour of
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