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321 A sudden illness – a mortal suffering. It was not death, that is to say, a passing over
to real life, but a taste of the sufferings of death. Although it gives us eternal life,
death is dreadful. Suddenly, I felt sick, I gasped for breath, there was darkness before
my eyes, my limbs grew numb – and there was a terrible suffocation. Even a moment
of such suffocation is extremely long…… There also comes a strange fear, in spite of
trust. I wanted to receive the last sacraments, but it was extremely difficult to make a
confession even though I desired to do so. A person does not know what he is
saying; not finishing one thing, he begins another.
Oh, may God keep every soul from delaying confession until the last hour! In
understood the great power of the priest‟s words when they are poured out upon the
sick person‟s soul. When I asked my spiritual father whether I was ready to stand
before the Lord and whether I could be at peace, I received the reply “You can be
completely at peace, not only right now but after each weekly confession.” Great is
the divine grace that accompanies these words of the priest. The soul feels power
and courage for battle.
322 O my Congregation, my mother, how sweet it is to live in you, but it is even better to
die in you!
323 After I received the last sacraments, there was a definite improvement. I remained
alone. This lasted for half and hour and then came another attach; but this one was
not so strong, as the doctor intervened.
I united my sufferings with the sufferings of Jesus and offered them for myself and for
the conversion of souls who do not trust in the goodness of God. Suddenly, my cell
was filled with black figures full of anger and hatred for me. One of them said, “Be
damned, you and He who is within you, for you are beginning to torment us even in
hell.” As soon as I said, “And the Word was made flesh and dwelt among us,” the
figures vanished in a sudden whir.
324 The next day, I felt very weak, but experienced no further suffering. After Holy
Communion, I saw the Lord Jesus just as I had seen Him during one adoration. The
Lord‟s gaze pierced my soul through and through, and not even the least speck of
dust escaped His notice. And I said to Jesus, “Jesus, I thought You were going to
take me.” And Jesus answered, My will has not yet been fully accomplished in
you; you will still remain on earth, but not for long. I am well pleased with your
trust, but your love should be more ardent. (138) Pure love gives the soul
strength at the very moment of dying. When I was dying on the cross, I was not
thinking about Myself, but about poor sinners, and I prayed for them to My
Father. I want your last moments to be completely similar to Mine on the cross.
There is but one price at which souls are brought, and that is suffering united to
My suffering on the cross. Pure love understands these words; carnal love will
never understand them.
325 1934. On the day of the Assumption of the Mother of God, I did not assist at Holy
Mass. The woman doctor 80 did not allow me; but I prayed fervently in my cell. After a
short time, I saw the Mother of God, unspeakably beautiful. She said to me, My
daughter, what I demand from you is prayer, prayer, and once again prayer, for the
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