For the happy man! - Collected writings DEPRESSION: Ed Atkins
For the happy man! - Collected writings DEPRESSION: Ed Atkins For the happy man! - Collected writings DEPRESSION: Ed Atkins
ible but pre-digested and wretched remnants, heaved from the filtration system of a municipal pool. A huge wet wig. I wanted to ask you about toughness in limp-mattressed bed with delicacy, sensitivity. An eyelash, mainlined to the mammal brain via some particularly susceptible blue prong of the nervous system. Nevertheless stiff, tough – capable of repelling flecks of alien matter, of supporting tar-heavy smears of mascara. Resilient, I should have said. As in, resilience being testament to sensitivity alongside indomitability. A paragon of humanity, perhaps. As in, sex, I suppose. I wanted to ask whether you had considered the eyelash as an incision? – A second urethral opening, perhaps. Lasered. Or incised with an obsidian blade. For the conveyance of other substances from the body. Words, for example. Guilt also, of course. Both presumably viscous. Painfully passed. Or substances more pertinent to the particularities of the eyelash: rheum, tar, etc. LOVE! –An excess to be vented. TEARS! –A kind of covert weeping possible. Darkening the underwear, away from PRYING eyes. An underlining. An emphatic strikethrough. As in: an error maintained as visible in order not to make
the same mistake again. The dead eyelash as a surrogate for my mired sight, my gross intimacy – – a slung fuck, of course. All of the senses confounded in the dark proximity. (Apologies.) There is a collapse here, and not just of my once sturdy rib cage, my once taut skin, my once fizzing eyes. –A collapse of experience, of sensible apprehension. –A collapse from coherency into incomprehensibility. A tourettic attack in the middle of the high street. We are at once yanked, limbs and rancid fluids trailing, between our chalk-lined positions there, impossibly heavy on the linoleum – and here, clinging to the screen, held by static and faith. I wanted to ask how you would have pictured my face? –As a possible source for the eyelash. Whether my face would be animated or still; in a diorama of close-up details or whole. –My rendering HERE is something of a hash of these possibilities. As in: Dead matter animated by jolts of mains electricity; the face entire is shown, but the skin, the hair, those distinctive moles and marks – all of that in some sort of abject close-up. Crude, somehow, but horribly correct. Incontrovertible. Which is why, you say, reality is no longer the
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ible but pre-digested and wretched remnants, heaved from<br />
<strong>the</strong> filtration system of a municipal pool.<br />
A huge wet wig.<br />
I wanted to ask you about toughness in limp-mattressed<br />
bed with delicacy, sensitivity.<br />
An eyelash, mainlined to <strong>the</strong> mammal brain via some<br />
particularly susceptible blue prong of <strong>the</strong> nervous system.<br />
Never<strong>the</strong>less stiff, tough – capable of repelling flecks<br />
of alien matter, of supporting tar-heavy smears of mascara.<br />
Resilient, I should have said.<br />
As in, resilience being testament to sensitivity alongside<br />
indomitability. A paragon of hu<strong>man</strong>ity, perhaps.<br />
As in, sex, I suppose.<br />
I wanted to ask whe<strong>the</strong>r you had considered <strong>the</strong><br />
eyelash as an incision?<br />
– A second urethral opening, perhaps. Lasered. Or<br />
incised with an obsidian blade.<br />
<strong>For</strong> <strong>the</strong> conveyance of o<strong>the</strong>r substances from <strong>the</strong><br />
body.<br />
Words, for example. Guilt also, of course. Both<br />
presumably viscous. Painfully passed.<br />
Or substances more pertinent to <strong>the</strong> particularities of<br />
<strong>the</strong> eyelash: rheum, tar, etc.<br />
LOVE! –An excess to be vented.<br />
TEARS! –A kind of covert weeping possible. Darkening<br />
<strong>the</strong> underwear, away from PRYING eyes.<br />
An underlining.<br />
An emphatic strikethrough.<br />
As in:<br />
an error maintained as visible in order not to make