For the happy man! - Collected writings DEPRESSION: Ed Atkins
For the happy man! - Collected writings DEPRESSION: Ed Atkins
For the happy man! - Collected writings DEPRESSION: Ed Atkins
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droxyurea, Hydrea, Idarubicin, Idamycin, Ifosfamide, IFEX,<br />
Irinotecan, CPT-11, Camptosar, Methotrexate, Rheumatrex<br />
Dose Pack, Mitomycin, Mutamycin, Mitotane, Lysodren,<br />
Mitoxantrone, Novantrone, Paclitaxel, Taxol, Topotecan,<br />
Hycamtin, Vinblastine, Velban, Vincristine, Oncovin,<br />
Vincasar, Vincrex, Vinorelbine, Navelbine. All <strong>the</strong> gang.)<br />
You surge forward, stumbling, weeping, still clutching <strong>the</strong><br />
brochure, clearly delirious, poor thing. Under <strong>the</strong> influence;<br />
any autopsy ignorant of your condition would have<br />
a field day. Luckily, at <strong>the</strong> hospice, <strong>the</strong>y know full well.<br />
[...]<br />
Later on, in <strong>the</strong><br />
sunlight. Shin-<br />
Dead trees.<br />
forest. Cool<br />
height BRUME.<br />
You’re a state.<br />
hanging in rib-<br />
covered in shit.<br />
Your clo<strong>the</strong>s<br />
bons and you’re<br />
Falling to your knees, you begin to fill your cardboard trug<br />
with <strong>the</strong> various fungi poking through <strong>the</strong> decaying forest<br />
floor (conocybe, predominantly – along with a few morels,<br />
a cep and – careful – a jade-gilled death cap), eating <strong>the</strong> odd<br />
one. Meanwhile, <strong>the</strong> tumour shuffles around Sainsbury’s,<br />
pushing a demi-sized trolley before it, picking up everything<br />
from <strong>the</strong> shopping list you provided earlier: avocados,<br />
broccoli, cabbage, cauliflower, carrots, chilli, an assortment of<br />
cruciferous vegetables in general, figs, flax, garlic, grapefruit,<br />
red seedless grapes (<strong>the</strong> convalescent’s archetypal foodstuff),<br />
kale, liquorice, some sad looking button mushrooms, mixed<br />
nuts, oranges, lemons, papayas, a punnet of raspberries, a