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He also had an unusual attraction to H.H.<br />
the Dalai Lama and would spontaneously<br />
chant Om Mani Peme Hung and think of His<br />
Holiness as a Buddha without anyone telling<br />
him to do so. Rinpoche also used to pray to<br />
Manjushri to do better at school. Certainly<br />
none of his classmates prayed to a Buddha<br />
for their school work!<br />
There were other examples of Rinpoche’s<br />
unusual connection to the Dharma. As<br />
a child, he used to see a red lady in his<br />
imagination and would think, “This practice<br />
can take us from this world fast”. Many<br />
times, he would miss the school bus because<br />
he had spent the previous night secretly<br />
reading Dharma books under his blanket (so<br />
his mother wouldn’t catch him). Reluctant<br />
to walk to school in the rain, he would pray<br />
to Medicine Buddha, reciting Om Mani Peme<br />
Hung as he did not know any other mantras.<br />
The rain would stop, and only start again just<br />
as Rinpoche arrived at school! Once, he even<br />
dreamt that the Medicine Buddha appeared<br />
from the sky and stopped other children<br />
from teasing him!<br />
With such powerful imprints from<br />
previous lives, it is not surprising that<br />
Rinpoche would meet his first Guru, the<br />
highly realised Master of Vajrayogini practice<br />
and Abbot-Emeritus of Sera Monastery, H.E.<br />
Kensur Lobsang Tharchin, at Rashi Gempil<br />
Ling (RGL), a Mongolian temple just 10<br />
minutes from his home in Howell, New Jersey.<br />
Sera Mey Kensur Lobsang<br />
Tharchin Rinpoche, the<br />
abbot of Rashi Gempil<br />
Ling and Rinpoche’s first<br />
Guru who gave him his<br />
first Dharma teachings.<br />
From that point onwards, Rinpoche would<br />
spend every free moment at RGL, helping<br />
out, mowing the lawn, washing the dishes<br />
and cleaning. He had a strong desire to work<br />
in the temple and serve his Guru. Attracted to<br />
the wrathful deities, he would spend hours in<br />
the gompa praying to Palden Lhamo.<br />
Of those years in RGL, Rinpoche says,<br />
“I would die to get teachings. I would<br />
tremble with excitement, anticipation<br />
and glee before teachings and initiations.<br />
I would sit there through the whole thing<br />
with my breath held. When it finished, I was<br />
depressed because I loved the Dharma and<br />
I didn’t know what was waiting for me at<br />
home.”<br />
Despite his parents’ opposition to his<br />
Dharma practice, Rinpoche would borrow<br />
Dharma books which he would read<br />
voraciously. He would also call up Michael<br />
Roach, another student of Kensur Rinpoche,<br />
and talk for hours to clarify Dharma<br />
questions.<br />
It was here in RGL that Rinpoche met<br />
H.H. the Dalai Lama for the first time, from<br />
whom he received the oral transmission of<br />
Om Mani Peme Hung and the Eight Verses<br />
of Thought Transformation. After many<br />
requests, Rinpoche also finally received his<br />
first initiation from Kensur Rinpoche; it was<br />
of the “red lady” of his dreams, Vajrayogini.<br />
“My first initiation – I was so excited<br />
for weeks. And also afterwards. Even now<br />
I’m excited when I talk about it! It’s like a<br />
tightness in my chest, that I can’t breathe,”<br />
Rinpoche shares now.<br />
However, in the midst of such excitement<br />
and joy, there was a certain sadness for<br />
Rinpoche for he could not share any of<br />
this with his family, who were completely<br />
unsupportive of his Dharma practice. He<br />
had to keep it all a secret, with devastating<br />
consequences – physical and emotional<br />
abuse, and being grounded – if found out. At<br />
one time, his mother even started spreading<br />
unfounded rumours among Mongolians<br />
about his Guru, Kensur Lobsang Tharchin<br />
Rinpoche.<br />
His foster parents were strictly opposed<br />
to his passion for Dharma and Rinpoche<br />
received the harshest physical and<br />
psychological punishment every time he was<br />
caught at the temple or reciting mantras in<br />
his room.<br />
Everything having to do with Dharma<br />
practice had to be a secret; Rinpoche had to<br />
hide his Manjushri statue in his bedside table<br />
and read Dharma books under the covers<br />
by torchlight; even mantras were recited<br />
secretly and quietly. He had to lie to his<br />
parents every time he went to see his Guru<br />
or to the temple, saying that he was meeting<br />
friends or cousins.<br />
His parents wanted him to study, attend<br />
college, start a family and just pray once<br />
in a while. But although he excelled in his<br />
studies, Rinpoche had a severe dislike of<br />
going to school, finding it a waste of time.<br />
He would constantly pray to do Dharma and<br />
to be a monk. The urge to look for a cave,<br />
meditate and do mantras was overpowering<br />
and consistent.<br />
In spite of the difficulties, Rinpoche<br />
never gave up. He reflects, “I got caught a<br />
few times and was severely beaten for it. But<br />
I kept lying for years. If I went to the temple<br />
and got beaten once, it was worth it. Lying is<br />
bad karma, but not getting Dharma is even<br />
more bad karma.”<br />
Things at home were never easy, but Rinpoche<br />
always found solace in the Dharma.<br />
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