Infant and Child Sexuality: A Sociological Perspective - Ipce
Infant and Child Sexuality: A Sociological Perspective - Ipce
Infant and Child Sexuality: A Sociological Perspective - Ipce
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Coming home from play one day I (about nine<br />
years old) happened upon my sister (about eight)<br />
in the basement of our home on the sofa, manipulating<br />
herself through her clothes. She showed<br />
me how to add pressure to the sides of my labia<br />
to gain a ‘funny feeling.’ At first I felt no<br />
satisfaction in it, but after a month of practice<br />
<strong>and</strong> experimenting, I obtained by first<br />
orgasm.... I am very grateful to my sister for<br />
introducing masturbation to me.<br />
The content of one’s fantasy while masturbating is in large part<br />
dependent upon the nature of one’s experience up until that time. The<br />
following cases illustrate this. In the first case to follow a boy<br />
traces the development of his masturbatory fantasy from fantasy not involving<br />
girls through fantasy involving non-coital involvement with<br />
girls, through coitus, fellatio, cunnilingus, <strong>and</strong> oral intercourse. All<br />
of this is interwoven with some torture fantasy--masochism, sadism--<br />
which is not uncommon for the child who has had inaccurate knowledge or<br />
limited experience on which to build positive masturbatory fantasy. The<br />
second case (a girl) also shows progression in fantasy as well as some<br />
fantasized sadism.<br />
When I first started to masturbate I didn’t have<br />
much interest in girls. Therefore, my fantasies<br />
during masturbation did not involve girls. Usually,<br />
I tended to have masochistic fantasies. I<br />
would imagine that I was being tortured <strong>and</strong><br />
twist or stretch my penis, so there was a degree<br />
of pain as well as pleasure. Sometimes I would<br />
also push things up my rectum, such as the end<br />
of a toothbrush, that would also add to my “torture”<br />
fantasy. Possibly I felt that because I<br />
should not be getting pleasure out of it. Therefore,<br />
the only way I could justify it was to be<br />
torturing myself.<br />
As I got older, girls began to be a greater<br />
<strong>and</strong> greater part of my fantasy. At first I would<br />
just think of girls I liked at school <strong>and</strong> masturbate<br />
at the same time. I never really thought<br />
of sexual intercourse with girls because I did<br />
not underst<strong>and</strong> exactly what interaction you<br />
could have with girls. This was during the seventh<br />
<strong>and</strong> eighth grade period.<br />
As I picked up information from peers <strong>and</strong> the<br />
occasional “dirty” book, I began to imagine having<br />
sex play <strong>and</strong> intercourse with the girls in<br />
my fantasies. Quite often I would imagine a<br />
“bondage” situation. The girl was often helpless<br />
<strong>and</strong> I would be forcing myself on her. Sometimes<br />
I would imagine that I was the captive <strong>and</strong><br />
the girl or girls were taking advantage of me. I<br />
attribute this to my not knowing how to interact<br />
with girls or get their attention. So I felt<br />
that only by forcing myself on them could I ever<br />
have sex.<br />
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