''Vladimir Nabokov's Comic Quest for Reality' - Nottingham eTheses

''Vladimir Nabokov's Comic Quest for Reality' - Nottingham eTheses ''Vladimir Nabokov's Comic Quest for Reality' - Nottingham eTheses

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- 54 - quite firmly in his own death and pretends that it is only his disembodied spirit that goes about the ordinary affairs of life, that speaks to and talks about people. Yet such is the underlying comic for- mula of this "twinkling tale. "2 It is also the necessary precondition for the quest the narrator sets out to undertake. From the moment at which he moves into the house at 5 Peacock Street and gets to know a group of emigre Russians, he does not talk much about himself any more. At least, he pretends that he is only present as the narrating "I" that watches what is going on, that observes people and comments on them. He does talk a lot about a cer- tain Smurov, a young man who is a newcomer to the group. He watches him closely and attentively; he notes how other people react to him, and he sets him- self the aim of "[digging] up the true Smurov" (59), "the type, the model, the original" (58). It does not'take one long to realize that he him- self is Smurov. He has always watched himself; he has never been able to stop doing so, even when he desperately wanted to, and behind this obsession, it seems, has been a constant preoccupation with the riddle of his own personality and, in fact, his whole existence: ... I was always exposed, always wide-eyed; even in sleep I did not cease to watch over myself, understanding nothing of my existence, growing crazy at the thought being of not able to stop being aware of myself-... (16-17) If his suicide has not freed him of his obsession, it has yet given him a kind of freedom he did not

- 55 - have before: after the suicidal act he is no longer wrapped up in his own self, watching his every thought and action from inside, self-consciously and "with sympathy" (35), that is, emotionally, but he looks upon himself as upon another person, detachedly, soberly, as an "onlooker", and "with curiosity instead of sympathy" (35). With the suicide, then, he has not killed himself physically, but, as his own words imply, he has killed (or: for the time being, has shed) the emotional part of himself, that part which always made him suffer. Looking at Smurov, he is, as it were, looking at himself from the outside, interested, curious, striving to find out about himself and his existence, and all the while talking about himself in the third person. His quest foreshadows to a certain degree Sebastian's and V's search for the "real" Sebastian Knight, for in addition to watching himself, the narrator tries to gain knowledge about himself by observing and spying on, other persons' reactions to him. He is soon puzzled because his image takes on new aspects all the time. The pictures that the others form of Smurov differ widely from one another, they even exclude one another. Marianna sees in him "a brutal and brilliant officer of the White Army" (59), Weinstock suspects him of being a dangerous spy (57- 58). For Gretchen and the janitor's wife he is "a foreign poet", "a spiritual gentleman" (78); he is "an adventurer", "a Don Juan, a Casanova" (76) for Weinstock, but "a rascal", "a sexual lefty" (85) for

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quite firmly in his own death and pretends that it<br />

is only his disembodied spirit that goes about the<br />

ordinary affairs of life, that speaks to and talks<br />

about people. Yet such is the underlying comic <strong>for</strong>-<br />

mula of this "twinkling tale. "2<br />

It is also the necessary precondition <strong>for</strong> the quest<br />

the narrator sets out to undertake. From the moment<br />

at which he moves into the house at 5 Peacock Street<br />

and gets to know a group of emigre Russians, he does<br />

not talk much about himself any more. At least, he<br />

pretends that he is only present as the narrating "I"<br />

that watches what is going on, that observes people<br />

and comments on them. He does talk a lot about a cer-<br />

tain Smurov, a young man who is a newcomer to the<br />

group. He watches him closely and attentively; he<br />

notes how other people react to him, and he sets him-<br />

self the aim of "[digging] up the true Smurov" (59),<br />

"the type, the model, the original" (58).<br />

It does not'take one long to realize that he him-<br />

self is Smurov. He has always watched himself; he<br />

has never been able to stop doing so, even when he<br />

desperately wanted to, and behind this obsession, it<br />

seems, has been a constant preoccupation with the<br />

riddle of his own personality and, in fact, his whole<br />

existence:<br />

...<br />

I was always exposed, always wide-eyed;<br />

even in sleep I did not cease to watch over<br />

myself, understanding nothing of my existence,<br />

growing crazy at the thought<br />

being<br />

of not<br />

able to stop being aware of myself-... (16-17)<br />

If his suicide has not freed him of his obsession,<br />

it has yet given him a kind of freedom he did not

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