One of Our Conquerors - World eBook Library

George Meredith
He noticed approvingly her avoidance of an allusion to the
‘Delphica’ of Mr. Durance’s incomprehensible serial story, or
whatever it was; which, as he had shown her, annoyed him,
for its being neither fact nor fun; and she had insisted on the
fun; and he had painfully tried to see it or anything of a meaning;
and it seemed to him now, that he had been humiliated
by the obedience to her lead: she had offended by her harping
upon Delphica. However, here it was unmentioned. He held
the letter out to seize it in the large, entire.
Her handwriting was good, as good as the writing of the
most agreeable lady on earth. Dudley did not blame her for
letting the lady be deceived in her—if she knew her position.
She might be ignorant of it. And to strangers, to chance
acquaintances, even to friends, the position, of the loathsome
name, was not materially important. Marriage altered
the view. He sided with his family.
He sided, edgeing away, against his family. But a vision of
the earldom coming to him, stirred reverential objections,
composed of all which his unstained family could protest in
religion, to repudiate an alliance with a stained house, and
the guilty of a condonation of immorality. Who would have
imagined Mr. Radnor a private sinner flaunting for one of
the righteous? And she, the mother, a lady—quite a lady;
having really a sense of duty, sense of honour! That she must
be a lady, Dudley was convinced. He beheld through a porous
crape, woven of formal respectfulness, with threads of
personal disgust, the scene, striking him drearly like a distant
great mansion’s conflagration across moorland at midnight,
of a lady’s breach of bonds and plunge of all for love.
How had it been concealed? In Dudley’s upper sphere, everything
was exposed: Scandal walked naked and unashamedfigurante
of the polite world. But still this lady was of the
mint and coin, a true lady. Handsome now, she must have
been beautiful. And a comprehensible pride (for so would
Dudley have borne it) keeps the forsaken man silent up to
death: … grandly silent; but the loss of such a woman is
enough to kill a man! Not in time, though! Legitimacy evidently,
by the mother’s confession, cannot protect where it is
wanted. Dudley was optically affected by a round spot of the
world swinging its shadow over Nesta.
He pitied, and strove to be sensible of her. The effort
succeeded so well, that he was presently striving to be in-
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