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more than survivor's talk, because no one who's dead can tell you what they<br />
were feeling before they died, especially from high falls.<br />
"Yeah, doc, I saw everything I ever done flash before my eyes. Saw my<br />
gramps, who died in '72, saw crippled little Janey Hathaway from kindergarten,<br />
saW Billy what's-his-name get sucked into the hay baler on Christmas Eve, saw<br />
Tammy before she got fat, saw Ray before he got skinny, saw ... "<br />
Survivor talk, usually followed by a white light, some ghosts of Aunt<br />
Regina, cousin Artemus and other assorted figures, and then darkness. Some<br />
survivors say they hear God telling them that, by golly, it isn't their time yet<br />
and to go on back and have some fun a little while longer. As for Merrik, he<br />
doesn't see his life flash before him, doesn't see his long-dead Uncle Rizzo hold<br />
ing out a comforting hand, doesn't hear the voice of God.<br />
What Merrik sees is the fractured cliff face rushing past as he falls eight<br />
hundred feet to the bottom of the canyon.<br />
If there's a bright spot to this particular fall, it's that Merrik's body has<br />
twisted around so that he's facing upward, or mostly upward, toward the sky<br />
and clouds. And he's thankful for that, because the last thing he wants to see<br />
are the oncoming rocks of the canyon floor. Had he seen them, he wouldn't<br />
have liked them, though they are cool with their spiky points and wavering red<br />
orange color. Not what someone wants to land on after an eight hundred foot<br />
plunge, that's for goddamn sure.<br />
Merrik watches the cliff face rush past, but he doesn't scream or cry or<br />
carry on. At first, he thinks that might be a strange reaction, seeing as how<br />
death is seconds away. But he took loads of pills this morning, and they've<br />
given him a different perspective. Yeah sure, okay, he slipped at the worst place<br />
a person could slip. And yeah, he should have worn crampons, but dammit,<br />
they sounded too much like tampons. He isn't sure what a crampon even looks<br />
like, but if it looks anything like a tampon, well, to hell with them and to hell<br />
with the rangers for suggesting he wear them. Merrik bets that the rangers<br />
don't have to face the likes of Jo-Jo and Ron and Amir five days a week.<br />
Merrik considers adjusting his body so that he can actually see what's<br />
waiting for him at the bottom. Exactly why he wants to do that, he isn't sure,<br />
but he thinks it might be part of his new need to see things he has never seen<br />
before. How often do you get to see the ground rushing up at you at fifty miles<br />
an hour? Besides, he reasons, people are curious. Why else would they spend<br />
lots of money on backpacks and boots, only to slip and fall to their deaths<br />
before getting the chance to put them to the test?<br />
That's Merrik's biggest gripe at the moment - the one thing that has<br />
him really steamed. He spent all that money, and for what? So that he can fall off<br />
a cliff? Does that sound even remotely fair? Jesus, he could have done that with<br />
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