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cheeks and haven't-dozed-a-nano<br />
second in 26 consecutive hours eye<br />
glaze for a potential Charlie Whitman<br />
redux, and figure I've got just enough<br />
gas & food & beer $$$ to reach Las<br />
Vegas. I hold in my T-shirt pocket the<br />
address of the son I abandoned 6<br />
years before and his mother, with<br />
whom I had spent a few sweet com<br />
forting nights not so long ago but<br />
never knew really, but who is now the<br />
very Lotto ticket to all of my future<br />
character and purpose ...<br />
My name is Abel and so-named is my<br />
little boy. He'll probably want to<br />
bring his gnarled and tarnished bullet<br />
to school for Show & Tell. He is, it<br />
dawns upon me, as I drive thru<br />
Victorville, not far off the age of the<br />
Latino boy shot-dead in the stairwell<br />
of the UT Li-berry tower, as daddy<br />
called it, by the firer of my ballistic<br />
memento (tho my recollection of same<br />
tragic moment in time comes via the<br />
Kurt Russell-led MOW I saw some<br />
years back while waiting for my un<br />
employment benefits to once again<br />
run dry and so might not be 100% on-<br />
7<br />
target, pun intended all the way.) I'm<br />
listening to a block of the Stones on<br />
KLOS as I cruise east on the I-15, ass<br />
deep in the midst, as I intimate, of my<br />
19 th Nervous Breakdown. I have, tho,<br />
Sympathy for the Devil, and I hope like<br />
my momma did when she was<br />
shivering behind that Austin Texas<br />
bench in fear for her very life that my<br />
new family will, alas, take pity on me<br />
and Gimme (the) Shelter I so<br />
desperately desire & need.