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Chapter 2 • Annie Lafontaine<br />
received financial support, and was obliged to go “home” to whatever had<br />
become of his former life. His return to Kosovo made Suzana very happy.<br />
In her words:<br />
I had problems in my family… I was [during the years she was studying<br />
in the 1990s] sad because of my brothers...they were away...and sometimes<br />
I felt... “why should I study”, ...[there] is a saying in Kosovo that<br />
goes “if my brothers are not studying why should I, as a girl study”... you<br />
know... I thought like that and I wanted my brothers to be here and [I<br />
wanted] to study with them... because my elder brother stopped studies<br />
and he wanted to go out of Kosova.<br />
The absence of Suzana’s brothers was a great source of pain for her, not<br />
only because she missed them, but also because it changed her social and<br />
familial position. She felt obliged to stay with her parents in the absence<br />
of their sons. While her only sister married, Suzana remained by her<br />
parents’ side. Even at the age of 29, she felt responsible for being with<br />
them, despite the fact that most girls in Kosovo are married by then, and<br />
living with their husband’s family. Because her brothers were not present,<br />
Suzana felt she could not marry, at least not until their return. By the summer<br />
of 2000, her brother did return from England, but not being able to<br />
find a job that would satisfy him, he immediately thought of leaving again.<br />
After eight years spent abroad, he could no longer bear the life of Kosovo:<br />
a small salary, the constant proximity of the family members, the absence<br />
of the “order”, both material and political, that he had found in England.<br />
The economic and social constraints were too rigid for him. In Kosovo, he<br />
had the choice of pursuing a good salary (1,000 DEM a month), as a security<br />
guard with an NGO (a job that did not interest him), or trying to find<br />
work at a restaurant, as he had in England, for little pay. For him, the<br />
Kosovo that had survived the war was no better than the Kosovo he had<br />
left behind. He therefore left again, and his renewed sudden absence<br />
pushed his mother to a breakdown that led to physical sickness, which<br />
again prevented Suzana from marrying.<br />
Collective suffering<br />
Suzana never tried to leave Kosovo in search of her brothers. In her words:<br />
“I wanted them here… I never dreamed to go abroad even I had chance to<br />
go… but I didn’t want, I wanted to be here and see what [was] going on”.<br />
On March 28, 1999, Suzana was forcefully expelled from her home, along<br />
with her parents and cousins. Together, they drove to the Macedonian border,<br />
trying to escape Kosovo. They were made to wait there, in the Sharr<br />
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