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Chapter 4 • Nicola Mai<br />
9 (e) Could you explain what it means for you to experience suffering?<br />
How do you know that someone is distressed?<br />
106<br />
Well, it’s a change, but let me tell you what it’s like back home. I get up<br />
in the morning, early, make coffee for my husband, go to the cattle, at<br />
ten I go to the field, I come back in the evening, I don’t get tired. When<br />
I come home, my children gather around me like chicken. Commodity,<br />
plenty of food on the table, and here... How can I not be worse off? See<br />
for yourself?. One toilet, one bathroom, children are noisy half way<br />
through the night, food...We have food, whoever gave it to us, I thank<br />
him. I don’t work anywhere, I don’t have anything, neither does my<br />
husband, only those two sons work, so that these children could... And<br />
how can I be well then, days only get worse, you’re helpless. Before, I<br />
work all day – nothing. Now – I go to the village, my legs hurt. I don’t<br />
work, the organism doesn’t work, and slowly, slowly, it will whither<br />
before it’s your due, parts just die out. I just stand and I think of the<br />
worse. Until now, I hoped I’d go back, now I see there’s no hope. [(S6):<br />
Serb woman, aged 59, married, mother of two, housewife from a rural<br />
environment, currently living with her husband in a collective accommodation<br />
centre].<br />
First, there is no regularity in sleeping and eating. It lasted for days. You<br />
can’t realize that all of that has happened to you. Then worrying, shock,<br />
stress until it cooled down… until months have passed. You couldn’t<br />
believe it, but then you get stabilized even more than you would have<br />
expected. Then you meet somebody and you fall down again, or you<br />
remember this or that. It is always present, you can’t get rid of it completely,<br />
and yet you have to look ahead, because you know the essence,<br />
that you can’t look back, but ahead. There you go. [(V12): Serb woman,<br />
aged 54, shop assistant, mother of two children, from a middle-sized<br />
urban environment].<br />
Well, people mainly don’t speak about it. They are mainly silent, probably<br />
when they are alone, then they play that film. I don’t know how they<br />
behave. I personally don’t think much about it, about Kosovo. So I<br />
always think about something else… People don’t speak about it much,<br />
very little. I think that it is some kind of defence, people don’t want to<br />
return to it in this way. [(V10): Montenegrin woman, aged 34, architect,<br />
from an urban environment. She was attacked by a group of Albanian<br />
children when she was nine months pregnant].<br />
You know, we were all traumatized. Especially my folks, who were there<br />
until November, and my mother did not leave the house for the last three<br />
months, she could not go, she could do nothing, do you understand? The<br />
little food they had, my brother brought in. This was a traumatic experience…<br />
[(V15) Serb woman, 25, from a urban environment. Her Albanian<br />
neighbour had helped her by bringing five of his brothers to testify in<br />
front of KLA soldiers that her brother had not participated in the Serbian<br />
national army during the war].