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"No." Joey stared out the window determinedly, as if she were scanning the landscape<br />
for signs of change. "We got there, and I felt empty and lonely all the time, like I was<br />
suffocating. And then I kind of found myself with Dawson again, only it felt like . . . "<br />
"It felt like what?"<br />
Joey chuckled bitterly. "It felt like we were still fifteen. It was strange. Everything was<br />
different, but nothing was different. I had dragged myself all the way across the country,<br />
and I had brought with me the one thing I needed to leave behind if I was ever really<br />
going to figure anything out for myself."<br />
"You didn't seem this unhappy when you were home for Thanksgiving, or even when I<br />
saw you last week."<br />
"Last week, I think I knew it was ending. Some part of me saw that there was an end in<br />
sight, and that I'd be home soon. It was like it put me at peace against my will. As far as<br />
Thanksgiving, well, I was going crazy, actually, but I didn't exactly want everybody to<br />
know."<br />
"Everybody?"<br />
Joey nodded acknowledgement. "I didn't want Pacey to know."<br />
Jen's heart quickened, but she just smiled with the understanding Joey would expect.<br />
Joey didn't even seem to be talking to Jen anymore. She had leaned back into her own<br />
mind, clearing out thoughts that had been the only company she'd had during a<br />
sleepless stint camped out at a series of airline counters. "I had been so afraid to see<br />
him anyway, because I knew that as soon as I saw him, I was going to break open. I<br />
was terrified that I would start crying the minute I laid eyes on him, so I tried not to pay<br />
any attention to him, and I tried to hide a little, but then there was this ridiculous incident<br />
at that party we went to. He and I ended up in the bathroom putting a band-aid on my<br />
hand, and I swear I almost told him that I was going home with him whether he liked it or<br />
not."<br />
"You didn't, though."<br />
"No, I didn't." Joey shrugged. "I figured that if he had wanted to be with me, he would<br />
have said something before I left. He knew I was going away with Dawson, he knew<br />
what day I was leaving, and he knew that part of me didn't want to go, so when he let me<br />
leave, I decided that I needed to accept the fact that he didn't care that much whether I<br />
left or stayed. It wasn't like I was completely surprised <strong>by</strong> it. I had done too much and<br />
waited too long. So when I saw him at Thanksgiving and he touched my hand, I really<br />
wanted to just give everything away and tell him I hated California, tell him I didn't love<br />
Dawson, and tell him . . . that I loved him so much that being without him felt like being<br />
alone in the world."<br />
"Wow," Jen breathed, her mind's eye wandering involuntarily to the sight of her foot at<br />
Pacey's lips. "Why didn't you tell him any of that?"