HIDDEN SIN THE TORTURERS WHO ARE THEY? © Mahdokt Walter

HIDDEN SIN
THE TORTURERS
WHO ARE THEY?
© Mahdokt Walter
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I am Mahdokt, an ex occultic satanic witch who spent 40 years of my life in rebellion and disobedience to YHWH
Yahushua, I say this with no pride at all, none, but with deep shame. I bless Him daily for calling me on 4 April 2007
at the age of 52; I can never, ever stop thanking Him for His Gracious and Undeserved Love for one fallen woman.
The very first lesson I had to learn after Him calling me was the lesson of forgiveness. This was very hard for me to
do as I was in charge for so long and I decided all my life who was deserving of my forgiveness and who not. I
realized intellectually that I had to forgive those who trespassed against me, but my heart and my head refused to
work together. My new heart pulled one way and my intellect the other way in total opposition to each other.
Every time I prayed I paid lip service saying I forgive this one or that one who trespassed against me, a whole list of
names and each time I did this I was reminded of exactly what they had done to me as a human being. Believe me
when I tell you that Hasatan does not want any of us to forgive anybody else, unforgiveness is a stronghold in your
spirit of this evil entity.
I prayed/spoke to my Father YHWH Yahushua daily through much prayer and Scripture and I told Him I had
forgiven them, but each day from deep inside, the names of my transgressors would come back to haunt me. I did not
know at the time how the Ruach Ha Kodesh operated and that He will remind you of those things you need to
confess.
This inner fight lasted for a long time into my new life, approximately 18 months; it was a terrible time for me as a
human being, as I was torn into two spiritually by the forces operating inside of me at the time. The old evil woman
that I was all my life with her heart of stone, and the new woman called by YHWH Yahushua with a heart of flesh.
But YHWH Yahushua is full of Grace and Loving-kindness towards a sinner that repents and with much patience He
helped me through His Ruach to realize that forgiveness must be granted to my transgressors with my heart, my
soul, my spirit, my mind, my emotions and my body; If I desired to be forgiven my own sins and many iniquities over
the span of 52 years, I had to forgive them first, wholly and completely, casting it away from myself into the Light as
He casts our sins away from Himself once confessed and repented.
If I desired to be free of the many things that haunted me as a child, as a woman, as a wife and as a mother, the
molestation, the rape, the madhouse, the rejection, the humiliation, my child's molestation and suffering, adultery,
witchery, murder, drug and alcohol abuse, physical abuse, violence and deceit and all the other bad things that ever
happened to me, I had to forgive FIRST.
He taught me through this simple parable hereunder my final lesson in forgiveness and many times the past four
years in conversation with others I have been amazed how few of these people know what this parable actually says
to us. I will comment at each verse as I understand it in my spirit: and may the Light He deposited in me and the
understanding be of service to you this day.
YHWH Yahushua is the Master in this parable to me, the servant I see as myself and I owe Him a lot more that I could
ever hope to repay; as do all of us. So also I begged Him to forgive me my debts in many prayers and with rivers of
tears and He because of His Compassion let me go free.
Mat 18:24 And when he had begun to settle, one was brought to him who owed him ten thousand talents,
Mat 18:25 but as he was unable to pay, his master commanded that he be sold, with his wife and children
and all that he had, and payment to be made.
Mat 18:26 Then the servant fell down before him, saying, ‘Master, have patience with me, and I shall pay you
all.’
Mat 18:27 And the master of that servant was moved with compassion, released him, and forgave him the
debt.
This so typical of who I was and how I operated at the time, I did not forgive my trespassers, I clung onto the pain
and the hurt and the evil memories for all I was worth and Hasatan kept reminding me of what they had done to me
as I reminded them of what they had done to me in turn and with every opportunity.
I kept them all in bondage to me by my unforgiveness and hardened heart, I was so much better than them, wasn't I?
So their respective misdeeds played on my mind and I decided on keeping them bound in the prison of my hatred, I
forgave with my lips but my heart was not in it.
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But at night lying in my bed the Ruach would bring them gently into my conscience as I prayed, reminding me that I
had unfinished business with them, it took me a long time to heed His Voice, deaf to the very end, so typical of the
human condition, the great I AM we think we are.
Mat 18:28 And that servant went out and found one of his fellow servants who owed him a hundred pieces of
money. And he laid hands on him and took him by the throat, saying, ‘Pay me what you owe!’
Mat 18:29 Then his fellow servant fell down at his feet and begged him, saying, ‘Have patience with me, and I
shall pay you all.’
Mat 18:30 But he would not, and went and threw him into prison till he should pay the debt.
Surely many of those who pained me during my life must have said many a prayer asking forgiveness and praying for
me, YHWH Yahushua heard these prayers, and I think in my mind these prayers reported my unforgiveness to Him.
Mat 18:31 And when his fellow servants saw what had been done, they were deeply grieved, and came and
reported to their master all that had taken place.
Through His Ruach He called daily for me to forgive by bringing their names up during prayer as I had the audacity
to ask daily that He forgive me as I forgive them that trespassed against me, such a hypocrite I was. Rightly telling me
that I was wicked to my very core all of my living days. Justly He reminded me that He forgave me the debt I could
never repay.
Mat 18:32 Then his master called him and said to him, ‘Wicked servant! I forgave you all that debt seeing you
begged me.
This was the first statement that really hit me between the eyes so to speak, compassion? Who ever had compassion
for me was my first thought, nobody, I suffered and bled alone all the days of my life. And then I realised I had found
compassion on 4 April 2007 when He called me, that night I found compassion for the first time in my life and I
remembered how wonderful it felt.
And I started thinking on compassion, I started thinking of my life and all I had done even unto those who
transgressed against me and I finally realised that in order to get compassion I first had to give compassion, what a
breakthrough this was for me, Light!
Mat 18:33 Should you not also have had compassion on your fellow servant, as I also had compassion on
you?
And with the following verse I finally learned that the internal spiritual struggle I was subject to because of my
unforgiveness was allowing the evil one to still operate inside of me, pulling my strings, still making me dance to his
tune. By my own free choice I was still allowing him access to my spirit.
Also this verse is hardly ever noticed by christians reading it, in many a conversation I have asked many a person if
they know of this verse and if they understood exactly what it said, I found a few who understood, most of them did
not understand at all.
Read with clarity and understanding EXACTLY WHO gives you as a person over to the torturers! It is none other than
YHWH Yahushua! He created them, the torturers, the evil ones, they are all subject to His Authority, as He sent one
over King Shaul, so He sends them over us if we are rebellious, disobedient and unforgiving! We deserve this don't
we?
What and who are the torturers you might ask me and I will answer and tell you they are the following and many
more, look around in your own life, you will identify your torturers as I identified my own:
Depression, thoughts on suicide, attempts at suicide, eating disorders, illness and diseases, adultery, homosexuality,
drug and drink abuse, materialism, unforgiveness, rebellion, disobedience, witchery, paganism, divorce, mental
anguish, incest, molestation, abuse of any kind, violence, bloodshed, murder and mayhem, being given over to your
fleshly desires and many more.
WE DESERVE THIS AND WORSE: For setting our SELF on a pedestal!
Mat 18:34 And his master was wroth, and delivered him to the torturers until he should pay all that was due
to him.
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Mat 18:35 “So also My heavenly Father shall do to you if each of you, from his heart, does not forgive his
brother his trespasses.”
He will forgive if you forgive! If you refuse you can pray until you are BLUE in the face HE WILL NOT FORGIVE YOU
STOP bull*&^%%^$$ yourself!
Mat 6:14 for if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father shall also forgive you.
Mat 6:15 but if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither shall your Father forgive your trespasses.
Reading the following verse I finally understood what the soft Voice within was trying to teach me when I prayed by
bringing my transgressors up in my spirit and I cried, how I cried because I was such a stupid woman!
As this realization hit me, so the forgiveness from my heart FLOODED my being, it was awesome and wonderful and I
have not enough words to tell you what it feels like to be free of a lifetime of hatred and fear, many evil hurtful
memories, unbelievable spiritual pain and agony!
Mar 11:25 and whenever you stand praying, if you hold whatever against anyone, forgive, so that your
Father in the heavens shall also forgive you your trespasses.
Mar 11:26 but if you do not forgive, neither shall your Father in the heavens forgive your trespasses.
We all know how many times we are to forgive right! Seventy times seven times even if in one day if necessary! We
cannot harbor Light and darkness in His temple! We are either of the Light or the dark! Time to choose!
I do not know what to do if my transgressor does not repent; I just pray for him / her and leave their salvation in the
hands of YHWH Yahushua, if He desires to call them He will. I just forgive, forgive, and set free in His Awesome
Name; it is such a wonderful feeling!
Luk 17:3 Take heed to yourselves. If your brother sins against you, rebuke him, and if he repents, forgive
him.
Luk 17:4 And if he sins against you seven times in a day, and seven times in a day comes back to you, saying,
‘I repent,’ you shall forgive him.”
See what is written here! The "retaining" is BONDAGE in my old language! The language of the evil one!
Unforgiveness is bondage on yourself and bondage on the transgressor, don’t allow Hasatan to do this to you!
Joh 20:23 If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven them; if you retain the sins of any, they have been
retained.
2Co 2:10 and whom you forgive any matter, I do also. For indeed, if I have forgiven any matter, I have
forgiven that one for your sakes in the sight of Messiah,
He will take advantage of you, the evil one, he never misses the chance to kill, to lie to steal or to destroy!
2Co 2:11 lest Satan should take advantage of us, for we are not ignorant of his thoughts.
Such awesome instructions He left us, please heed them to the best of your ability, and become free in Him the way
He set me free when I learned my lessons on forgiveness.
Eph 4:32 and be kind towards one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as Elohim also forgave you
in Messiah.
Col 3:1If, then, you were raised with Messiah, seek the matters which are above, where Messiah is, seated at
the right hand of Elohim.
Col 3:2 Mind the matters above, not those on the earth.
Col 3:3 for you have died and your life has been hidden with Messiah in Elohim.
Col 3:4 When the Messiah, who is our life, is manifested, then you also shall be manifested with Him in
esteem.
Col 3:5 Therefore put to death your members which are on the earth: whoring, uncleanness, passion, evil
desire and greed of gain, which is idolatry.
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Col 3:6 Because of these the wrath of Elohim is coming upon the sons of disobedience, 1 Footnote: 1 Eph. 2:2,
Eph. 5:6.
Col 3:7 in which you also once walked when you lived in them.
Col 3:8 but now, also put off all these: displeasure, wrath, evil, blasphemy, filthy talk from your mouth.
Col 3:9 Do not lie to each other, since you have put off the old man 1 with his practices, Footnote: 1 Rom. 6:6,
Eph. 4:22.
Col 3:10 and have put on the new one who is renewed in knowledge according to the likeness of Him who
created him,
Col 3:11 where there is not Greek and Yehuḏite, circumcised and uncircumcised, foreigner, Scythian, slave,
free, but Messiah is all, and in all.
Col 3:12 Therefore, as chosen ones of Elohim, set-apart and beloved, put on compassion, kindness,
humbleness of mind, meekness, patience,
Col 3:13 bearing with one another, and forgiving each other if anyone has a complaint against another,
indeed, as Messiah forgave you so also should you.
Col 3:14 but above all these put on love, which is a bond of the perfection.
Col 3:15 and let the peace of Elohim rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one Body, and be
filled with thanks.
Col 3:16 Let the Word of Messiah 1 dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom,
singing with pleasure in your hearts to the Master in psalms and songs of praise and spiritual songs.
Footnote: 1 John 12:48, Dt. 18:19, Rev. 19:13.
Col 3:17 and whatever you do in word or deed, do all in the Name of the Master עשוהי, giving thanks to Elohim
the Father through Him.
Col 3:18 Wives, subject yourselves to your own husbands, as is proper in the Master.
Col 3:19 Husbands love your wives and do not be bitter toward them.
Col 3:20 Children, obey your parents in all, for this is well-pleasing to the Master.
Col 3:21 Fathers, do not provoke your children, lest they become discouraged.
Col 3:22 Servants, obey your masters according to the flesh in all respects, not with eye-service, as menpleasers,
but in sincerity of heart, fearing Elohim.
Col 3:23 and whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Master and not to men,
Col 3:24 knowing that from the Master you shall receive the reward of the inheritance. It is the Master,
Messiah, you serve.
Col 3:25 But he who does wrong shall be repaid for the wrong which he has done, and there is no partiality.
None of us deserves the offer He made for us, none of us qualify for His Love or Compassion, we are all sinners and in
us there is no good, Scripture tells us the heart of man harbor's deceit.
Those who transgressed against you might not deserve your forgiveness in your own mind, but think on this one
question:
Why should YHWH Yahushua forgive you anything, why do you deserve forgiveness, what makes you so
special, EGO perhaps or and overinflated worth of SELF?
If you can answer this honestly, you are well on your way to becoming as free as I am this day and Him only do I
praise for that this day. Truly it is wonderful to remember each and everything that I lived through to get to this
point in my life. I thank Him today for each and every experience I ever had in my life, the good and the bad, because
of that I can today in my own small way reach out to others still caught in the lie.
He took the pain of my past upon Him, leaving me only the testimony of His unfailing Love and Compassion on one
lost and blinded sinner. Never will I stop praising Him for this. Today I am so free I fear no evil memory, no death or
man, demon, evil spirit or Hasatan himself, I fear but YHWH Yahushua my King and my Judge, Redeemer and Loving
Father. May His Peace be upon you all as it is on me amein and as always, the last Word from YHWH Yahushua;
Acts chapters 26 - 27.
YHWH Nissi!
Mahdokt Walter
Bondservant to Yahushua Ha Moschiach
mahdokt@gmail.com
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