HIDDEN SIN THE TORTURERS WHO ARE THEY? © Mahdokt Walter
HIDDEN SIN THE TORTURERS WHO ARE THEY? © Mahdokt Walter
HIDDEN SIN THE TORTURERS WHO ARE THEY? © Mahdokt Walter
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<strong>HIDDEN</strong> <strong>SIN</strong><br />
<strong>THE</strong> <strong>TORTURERS</strong><br />
<strong>WHO</strong> <strong>ARE</strong> <strong>THE</strong>Y?<br />
<strong>©</strong> <strong>Mahdokt</strong> <strong>Walter</strong><br />
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I am <strong>Mahdokt</strong>, an ex occultic satanic witch who spent 40 years of my life in rebellion and disobedience to YHWH<br />
Yahushua, I say this with no pride at all, none, but with deep shame. I bless Him daily for calling me on 4 April 2007<br />
at the age of 52; I can never, ever stop thanking Him for His Gracious and Undeserved Love for one fallen woman.<br />
The very first lesson I had to learn after Him calling me was the lesson of forgiveness. This was very hard for me to<br />
do as I was in charge for so long and I decided all my life who was deserving of my forgiveness and who not. I<br />
realized intellectually that I had to forgive those who trespassed against me, but my heart and my head refused to<br />
work together. My new heart pulled one way and my intellect the other way in total opposition to each other.<br />
Every time I prayed I paid lip service saying I forgive this one or that one who trespassed against me, a whole list of<br />
names and each time I did this I was reminded of exactly what they had done to me as a human being. Believe me<br />
when I tell you that Hasatan does not want any of us to forgive anybody else, unforgiveness is a stronghold in your<br />
spirit of this evil entity.<br />
I prayed/spoke to my Father YHWH Yahushua daily through much prayer and Scripture and I told Him I had<br />
forgiven them, but each day from deep inside, the names of my transgressors would come back to haunt me. I did not<br />
know at the time how the Ruach Ha Kodesh operated and that He will remind you of those things you need to<br />
confess.<br />
This inner fight lasted for a long time into my new life, approximately 18 months; it was a terrible time for me as a<br />
human being, as I was torn into two spiritually by the forces operating inside of me at the time. The old evil woman<br />
that I was all my life with her heart of stone, and the new woman called by YHWH Yahushua with a heart of flesh.<br />
But YHWH Yahushua is full of Grace and Loving-kindness towards a sinner that repents and with much patience He<br />
helped me through His Ruach to realize that forgiveness must be granted to my transgressors with my heart, my<br />
soul, my spirit, my mind, my emotions and my body; If I desired to be forgiven my own sins and many iniquities over<br />
the span of 52 years, I had to forgive them first, wholly and completely, casting it away from myself into the Light as<br />
He casts our sins away from Himself once confessed and repented.<br />
If I desired to be free of the many things that haunted me as a child, as a woman, as a wife and as a mother, the<br />
molestation, the rape, the madhouse, the rejection, the humiliation, my child's molestation and suffering, adultery,<br />
witchery, murder, drug and alcohol abuse, physical abuse, violence and deceit and all the other bad things that ever<br />
happened to me, I had to forgive FIRST.<br />
He taught me through this simple parable hereunder my final lesson in forgiveness and many times the past four<br />
years in conversation with others I have been amazed how few of these people know what this parable actually says<br />
to us. I will comment at each verse as I understand it in my spirit: and may the Light He deposited in me and the<br />
understanding be of service to you this day.<br />
YHWH Yahushua is the Master in this parable to me, the servant I see as myself and I owe Him a lot more that I could<br />
ever hope to repay; as do all of us. So also I begged Him to forgive me my debts in many prayers and with rivers of<br />
tears and He because of His Compassion let me go free.<br />
Mat 18:24 And when he had begun to settle, one was brought to him who owed him ten thousand talents,<br />
Mat 18:25 but as he was unable to pay, his master commanded that he be sold, with his wife and children<br />
and all that he had, and payment to be made.<br />
Mat 18:26 Then the servant fell down before him, saying, ‘Master, have patience with me, and I shall pay you<br />
all.’<br />
Mat 18:27 And the master of that servant was moved with compassion, released him, and forgave him the<br />
debt.<br />
This so typical of who I was and how I operated at the time, I did not forgive my trespassers, I clung onto the pain<br />
and the hurt and the evil memories for all I was worth and Hasatan kept reminding me of what they had done to me<br />
as I reminded them of what they had done to me in turn and with every opportunity.<br />
I kept them all in bondage to me by my unforgiveness and hardened heart, I was so much better than them, wasn't I?<br />
So their respective misdeeds played on my mind and I decided on keeping them bound in the prison of my hatred, I<br />
forgave with my lips but my heart was not in it.<br />
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But at night lying in my bed the Ruach would bring them gently into my conscience as I prayed, reminding me that I<br />
had unfinished business with them, it took me a long time to heed His Voice, deaf to the very end, so typical of the<br />
human condition, the great I AM we think we are.<br />
Mat 18:28 And that servant went out and found one of his fellow servants who owed him a hundred pieces of<br />
money. And he laid hands on him and took him by the throat, saying, ‘Pay me what you owe!’<br />
Mat 18:29 Then his fellow servant fell down at his feet and begged him, saying, ‘Have patience with me, and I<br />
shall pay you all.’<br />
Mat 18:30 But he would not, and went and threw him into prison till he should pay the debt.<br />
Surely many of those who pained me during my life must have said many a prayer asking forgiveness and praying for<br />
me, YHWH Yahushua heard these prayers, and I think in my mind these prayers reported my unforgiveness to Him.<br />
Mat 18:31 And when his fellow servants saw what had been done, they were deeply grieved, and came and<br />
reported to their master all that had taken place.<br />
Through His Ruach He called daily for me to forgive by bringing their names up during prayer as I had the audacity<br />
to ask daily that He forgive me as I forgive them that trespassed against me, such a hypocrite I was. Rightly telling me<br />
that I was wicked to my very core all of my living days. Justly He reminded me that He forgave me the debt I could<br />
never repay.<br />
Mat 18:32 Then his master called him and said to him, ‘Wicked servant! I forgave you all that debt seeing you<br />
begged me.<br />
This was the first statement that really hit me between the eyes so to speak, compassion? Who ever had compassion<br />
for me was my first thought, nobody, I suffered and bled alone all the days of my life. And then I realised I had found<br />
compassion on 4 April 2007 when He called me, that night I found compassion for the first time in my life and I<br />
remembered how wonderful it felt.<br />
And I started thinking on compassion, I started thinking of my life and all I had done even unto those who<br />
transgressed against me and I finally realised that in order to get compassion I first had to give compassion, what a<br />
breakthrough this was for me, Light!<br />
Mat 18:33 Should you not also have had compassion on your fellow servant, as I also had compassion on<br />
you?<br />
And with the following verse I finally learned that the internal spiritual struggle I was subject to because of my<br />
unforgiveness was allowing the evil one to still operate inside of me, pulling my strings, still making me dance to his<br />
tune. By my own free choice I was still allowing him access to my spirit.<br />
Also this verse is hardly ever noticed by christians reading it, in many a conversation I have asked many a person if<br />
they know of this verse and if they understood exactly what it said, I found a few who understood, most of them did<br />
not understand at all.<br />
Read with clarity and understanding EXACTLY <strong>WHO</strong> gives you as a person over to the torturers! It is none other than<br />
YHWH Yahushua! He created them, the torturers, the evil ones, they are all subject to His Authority, as He sent one<br />
over King Shaul, so He sends them over us if we are rebellious, disobedient and unforgiving! We deserve this don't<br />
we?<br />
What and who are the torturers you might ask me and I will answer and tell you they are the following and many<br />
more, look around in your own life, you will identify your torturers as I identified my own:<br />
Depression, thoughts on suicide, attempts at suicide, eating disorders, illness and diseases, adultery, homosexuality,<br />
drug and drink abuse, materialism, unforgiveness, rebellion, disobedience, witchery, paganism, divorce, mental<br />
anguish, incest, molestation, abuse of any kind, violence, bloodshed, murder and mayhem, being given over to your<br />
fleshly desires and many more.<br />
WE DESERVE THIS AND WORSE: For setting our SELF on a pedestal!<br />
Mat 18:34 And his master was wroth, and delivered him to the torturers until he should pay all that was due<br />
to him.<br />
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Mat 18:35 “So also My heavenly Father shall do to you if each of you, from his heart, does not forgive his<br />
brother his trespasses.”<br />
He will forgive if you forgive! If you refuse you can pray until you are BLUE in the face HE WILL NOT FORGIVE YOU<br />
STOP bull*&^%%^$$ yourself!<br />
Mat 6:14 for if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father shall also forgive you.<br />
Mat 6:15 but if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither shall your Father forgive your trespasses.<br />
Reading the following verse I finally understood what the soft Voice within was trying to teach me when I prayed by<br />
bringing my transgressors up in my spirit and I cried, how I cried because I was such a stupid woman!<br />
As this realization hit me, so the forgiveness from my heart FLOODED my being, it was awesome and wonderful and I<br />
have not enough words to tell you what it feels like to be free of a lifetime of hatred and fear, many evil hurtful<br />
memories, unbelievable spiritual pain and agony!<br />
Mar 11:25 and whenever you stand praying, if you hold whatever against anyone, forgive, so that your<br />
Father in the heavens shall also forgive you your trespasses.<br />
Mar 11:26 but if you do not forgive, neither shall your Father in the heavens forgive your trespasses.<br />
We all know how many times we are to forgive right! Seventy times seven times even if in one day if necessary! We<br />
cannot harbor Light and darkness in His temple! We are either of the Light or the dark! Time to choose!<br />
I do not know what to do if my transgressor does not repent; I just pray for him / her and leave their salvation in the<br />
hands of YHWH Yahushua, if He desires to call them He will. I just forgive, forgive, and set free in His Awesome<br />
Name; it is such a wonderful feeling!<br />
Luk 17:3 Take heed to yourselves. If your brother sins against you, rebuke him, and if he repents, forgive<br />
him.<br />
Luk 17:4 And if he sins against you seven times in a day, and seven times in a day comes back to you, saying,<br />
‘I repent,’ you shall forgive him.”<br />
See what is written here! The "retaining" is BONDAGE in my old language! The language of the evil one!<br />
Unforgiveness is bondage on yourself and bondage on the transgressor, don’t allow Hasatan to do this to you!<br />
Joh 20:23 If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven them; if you retain the sins of any, they have been<br />
retained.<br />
2Co 2:10 and whom you forgive any matter, I do also. For indeed, if I have forgiven any matter, I have<br />
forgiven that one for your sakes in the sight of Messiah,<br />
He will take advantage of you, the evil one, he never misses the chance to kill, to lie to steal or to destroy!<br />
2Co 2:11 lest Satan should take advantage of us, for we are not ignorant of his thoughts.<br />
Such awesome instructions He left us, please heed them to the best of your ability, and become free in Him the way<br />
He set me free when I learned my lessons on forgiveness.<br />
Eph 4:32 and be kind towards one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as Elohim also forgave you<br />
in Messiah.<br />
Col 3:1If, then, you were raised with Messiah, seek the matters which are above, where Messiah is, seated at<br />
the right hand of Elohim.<br />
Col 3:2 Mind the matters above, not those on the earth.<br />
Col 3:3 for you have died and your life has been hidden with Messiah in Elohim.<br />
Col 3:4 When the Messiah, who is our life, is manifested, then you also shall be manifested with Him in<br />
esteem.<br />
Col 3:5 Therefore put to death your members which are on the earth: whoring, uncleanness, passion, evil<br />
desire and greed of gain, which is idolatry.<br />
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Col 3:6 Because of these the wrath of Elohim is coming upon the sons of disobedience, 1 Footnote: 1 Eph. 2:2,<br />
Eph. 5:6.<br />
Col 3:7 in which you also once walked when you lived in them.<br />
Col 3:8 but now, also put off all these: displeasure, wrath, evil, blasphemy, filthy talk from your mouth.<br />
Col 3:9 Do not lie to each other, since you have put off the old man 1 with his practices, Footnote: 1 Rom. 6:6,<br />
Eph. 4:22.<br />
Col 3:10 and have put on the new one who is renewed in knowledge according to the likeness of Him who<br />
created him,<br />
Col 3:11 where there is not Greek and Yehuḏite, circumcised and uncircumcised, foreigner, Scythian, slave,<br />
free, but Messiah is all, and in all.<br />
Col 3:12 Therefore, as chosen ones of Elohim, set-apart and beloved, put on compassion, kindness,<br />
humbleness of mind, meekness, patience,<br />
Col 3:13 bearing with one another, and forgiving each other if anyone has a complaint against another,<br />
indeed, as Messiah forgave you so also should you.<br />
Col 3:14 but above all these put on love, which is a bond of the perfection.<br />
Col 3:15 and let the peace of Elohim rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one Body, and be<br />
filled with thanks.<br />
Col 3:16 Let the Word of Messiah 1 dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom,<br />
singing with pleasure in your hearts to the Master in psalms and songs of praise and spiritual songs.<br />
Footnote: 1 John 12:48, Dt. 18:19, Rev. 19:13.<br />
Col 3:17 and whatever you do in word or deed, do all in the Name of the Master עשוהי, giving thanks to Elohim<br />
the Father through Him.<br />
Col 3:18 Wives, subject yourselves to your own husbands, as is proper in the Master.<br />
Col 3:19 Husbands love your wives and do not be bitter toward them.<br />
Col 3:20 Children, obey your parents in all, for this is well-pleasing to the Master.<br />
Col 3:21 Fathers, do not provoke your children, lest they become discouraged.<br />
Col 3:22 Servants, obey your masters according to the flesh in all respects, not with eye-service, as menpleasers,<br />
but in sincerity of heart, fearing Elohim.<br />
Col 3:23 and whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Master and not to men,<br />
Col 3:24 knowing that from the Master you shall receive the reward of the inheritance. It is the Master,<br />
Messiah, you serve.<br />
Col 3:25 But he who does wrong shall be repaid for the wrong which he has done, and there is no partiality.<br />
None of us deserves the offer He made for us, none of us qualify for His Love or Compassion, we are all sinners and in<br />
us there is no good, Scripture tells us the heart of man harbor's deceit.<br />
Those who transgressed against you might not deserve your forgiveness in your own mind, but think on this one<br />
question:<br />
Why should YHWH Yahushua forgive you anything, why do you deserve forgiveness, what makes you so<br />
special, EGO perhaps or and overinflated worth of SELF?<br />
If you can answer this honestly, you are well on your way to becoming as free as I am this day and Him only do I<br />
praise for that this day. Truly it is wonderful to remember each and everything that I lived through to get to this<br />
point in my life. I thank Him today for each and every experience I ever had in my life, the good and the bad, because<br />
of that I can today in my own small way reach out to others still caught in the lie.<br />
He took the pain of my past upon Him, leaving me only the testimony of His unfailing Love and Compassion on one<br />
lost and blinded sinner. Never will I stop praising Him for this. Today I am so free I fear no evil memory, no death or<br />
man, demon, evil spirit or Hasatan himself, I fear but YHWH Yahushua my King and my Judge, Redeemer and Loving<br />
Father. May His Peace be upon you all as it is on me amein and as always, the last Word from YHWH Yahushua;<br />
Acts chapters 26 - 27.<br />
YHWH Nissi!<br />
<strong>Mahdokt</strong> <strong>Walter</strong><br />
Bondservant to Yahushua Ha Moschiach<br />
mahdokt@gmail.com<br />
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