Gyani Baile & Dolly Baile

Meditation at 6:21 AM: She started the meditation with Om Namah
Shivaya chanting on the tape. She was using the headphones and the tape
recorder to listen to the chanting so that rest of the family was not
disturbed. Along the way by itself the headphones connection got pulled
out from the tape recorder. As she was about to plug it back in she heard
"Shivangini". She stopped from plugging in the headphone recorder.
Baba said "You are seeing me one with you." At that time she was
seeing a very shiny clear white light within the blue light.
At this point she had Lord Shiva's imaginary picture in her heart and
she started concentrating by rotating the sharp blade like wheel around
the picture. This was the concentration technique Baba had taught her.
As she was doing this, the sharp blade turned into a garland of flowers.
Baba told her "everyone has a spark of divinity in them".
That day in rest of the three meditations there was no communication
from Baba.
Tuesday, February 17, 1998
Meditation at 5:15 AM: Before she started her meditation she really
felt a strong devotional feeling toward God. She did the puja, and then
the meditation. As soon as she sat down to do the meditation Baba
started talking. "You have been very disturbed that I am not talking to
you. These kinds of doubts have to go away from your mind. I am going
to talk to you forever. I am in you, within you, and I am there all the
time. There is no question of me leaving you or not talking to you. That
question does not even arise." She asked then why he was not talking to
her as often. Baba said "Two reasons. You need to spend some time in
contemplating and practicing what you have heard. You also need to
spend time resolving the conflicts, your lower tendencies and inner
conflicts. You cannot be talking all the time and learning few things.
You are not giving yourself enough time to practice. Another reason I
was not talking to you because I want you to learn patience, detachment
and equanimity (equal mindedness). Learn that, and, total surrender and
faith. Another reason was the lingering effect of your association with
certain people. A yogini has to be very careful about how much time she
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