Gyani Baile & Dolly Baile

that she had borrowed from her. During the conversation Dolly asked if
PV had read Sai Baba's Gita and she replied she did not. Dolly gave her
the book along with a copy of the Kundalini book that she had borrowed
and copied from her friend M. PV seemed to like those books and
seem to appreciate that. This made Dolly feel great because for the first
time she had the opportunity to return the favor of this friend who kept
giving her spiritual books. After PV left her office, she opened the top
desk drawer in her office (where few months back she had kept one of
Sathya Sai Baba's picture that her friend M gave her), and she felt
(nothing was heard, only the feeling) that in the picture Baba was
looking at her and approving her act of sharing those books.
Thursday, February 12, 1998
Today she woke up at 5:30 AM. By the time she got to meditation it
was 6 AM. Within the first 10 minutes Baba asked her to quit the
meditation, He said "It is no use. You are not feeling right. Go now, do
your dharma." She ended the meditation and came down stairs, took care
of the kids morning breakfast and lunch needs before sending them to
school. After kids and I left, she quickly took care of her personal needs.
She had a 9 AM meeting at work, yet she felt compelled to meditate at
7:45 AM. She sat down in the family room and immediately went into
meditation. As she started seeing the blue light, she asked several
questions of Baba to clear up some of her confusions. She said "I have
truly not done much selfless service. I have not done a whole lot of
Bhakti either. I don't know the proper rituals, I do brief puja but not very
systematically, only thing that I do sincerely is my duties at home and at
work. Lately I have started doing this meditation because you asked me
to and I am reading those scriptures that you want me to. I want to know
what my future is. Where do I really need to be with all this? What
should be my path after Shivaratri? And how do I need to serve you
Baba? How do I need to spend my remaining life? Do I need to quit
working?" Baba said "Shivangini, just the way Gita was told to Arjuna
in the battlefield for the benefit of the rest, I am exemplifying you for a
greater good. No, you can't quit your job; you need to teach some lessons
to people." He did not reply further to her other questions.
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