Gyani Baile & Dolly Baile

further asked about Brahma loka if that was another name for heaven or
it was same as heaven. Baba said "Brahma loka is not heaven. It is
Brahma loka." She asked if there were other Lokas above Brahma loka.
Baba answered saying "Yes there are other Lokas above Brahma loka."
Then she was led to look up the description of Lokas in four different
books.
She was feeling that time was coming closer to Shivaratri and at times
she was finding herself not as intense in her meditation like before.
Baba's 'Updesh' were also not as many. When she missed the meditation,
unlike before, He did not somehow make it happen for her. Baba said
"Your mind is dissolving. Your desires and conflicts are all getting
resolved and understood, that is very good progress. Nothing to worry."
She felt that by now she had done penance through all that involuntary
crying that she went through.
During shower before meditation, Dolly remembered how her mother
at times used to feel very sad at the loss of her husband (Dolly's dad)
who had passed away at a very young age. That thought about the sad
face of her mother brought tears into Dolly's eyes. Baba said "Soul does
not suffer. It is the mind under the influence of Maya which is the cause
of suffering. You need to understand that everyone needs to work out
their Prarabdha karma." Dolly was still feeling bad for her mother's loss
and sadness and wanted someone to just wipe all the sadness and
suffering away from her.
A significant thing had happened in her meditation today, Baba said
"You will get Siddhis. And you will use your powers for the first time at
...." He stopped abruptly, and said "A man of realization should not
perform miracle without receiving an inward sanction."
Another very important thing Baba said "You are not obeying my
commands, I asked you to write everything before Shivaratri. It is
important that you write before Shivaratri. Understand that you will not
be able to write after Shivaratri because your understanding will change
and you will not be able to keep things simple." Today her friend PV
came to her office during lunch time. Dolly was reading Upanishad book
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