Gyani Baile & Dolly Baile

Wednesday, February 11, 1998
Meditation, 7AM: She meditated for about 30 minutes. There was a
dream she had last night. Prior to beginning the meditation she had
totally forgotten about having the dream but it surfaced during
meditation. Dream consisted of two American and few Indian guests
staying at our home. She was responsible for providing them breakfast.
When they came to the table she had concern about the appropriateness
of what she served in the breakfast. In her dream besides the breakfast,
there was a work related meeting going on at the same time. Some
people were dozing off in the meeting, they were making comments
about jet lag and she was little upset that people were not contributing to
the meeting etc. Baba explained that this dream was for her to realize
that she was too much into worldly things. Her dream was reflecting her
vasanas (tendencies). Baba said "Cleanliness is important but too much
focus on perfecting the appearance of self, surroundings, food, is waste
of time. These are all transient things. Only permanent is you the Atman,
focus on that".
In the meditation she was trying to concentrate but her mind was
thinking what kind of day it is going to be, and where would she go from
here. Baba reminded her that she needs to put trust in him, if she already
asked him to take the burden of her karma then what is the need for her
to worry. Baba said "It is not the sign of somebody who surrendered to
God. Go on, be happy. Do not anticipate, do not worry. I am taking care
of your karma. Your surrender should not be limited just to words but it
should be practiced in thoughts and actions also."
That weekend we had a plan to go visit a relative in Detroit. She
agreed to go with the family but was concerned about not being able to
continue her meditation 3-4 times a day. In the meditation she asked if
she should go to Detroit. Baba said "don't live for yourself; live with the
society. Without being social how will you be able to do service to the
society? And don't worry about the meditation. Always remember
WHATEVER IS HAPPENING MUST HAPPEN".
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