Gyani Baile & Dolly Baile

other three chakra knots (some names, she can't recall) will hopefully
loosen. This will clear the passage. The complete loosening of the knots
of top and bottom chakras will depend on your further Saadhana."
Then she asked the meaning of the messages she had received in
meditations yesterday.
Monday, February 9, 1998
Today in the morning when she sat down to meditate she was having
difficulty concentrating. It was supposed to be a very busy day, starting
with kids lunch, Raeshum's morning appointment with orthodontist, lot
of things to be taken care of at work, etc. After a while she realized that
she was not concentrating at all but just sitting there in her meditation
posture. There was no message from Baba either to keep her mind away
from the day's worries. She initiated the conversation and asked Baba to
speak to her. Baba got a little upset with her. Baba said "When you love
somebody, and you want to be with that person, don't you leave all you
worries aside and fondly spend time with that person. How can you talk
to me when you are thinking of all other things? Bring your mind under
control." At this point she knew what she had to do. She started
concentrating on the chakras one at a time. That really helped her bring
the mind under control and be able to fully concentrate. Then Baba
started talking "All that crying was to give your dry heart the wetness of
love and devotion." He was referring to her crying previously in the
meditation. "You are finding it hard to meditate so much. You are unable
to understand the purpose, without knowing the purpose this hard work
is discouraging you. In the world of spirituality this is not considered
much Saadhana. Just continue the effort. This is the time to work hard,
don't be discouraged."
The level of effort she was putting could have been hard for anybody.
She in particular is not the type who can stick to any strict discipline for
too long; she tends to get bored easily with routines. She prayed to Baba
asking "please give me the ability to do whatever needs to be done; I
want to be able to do it with more acceptance; do it with courage and
peace." Baba said "You will have that." Baba also reminded her of the
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